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12:25pm Well, I’m sitting at work today. There are probably about a million things I could be doing right now. JR left a giant stack of receipts and other random paperwork last week. I spent abou...

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5:40pm Today’s been a pretty decent day. I’ve definitely been trying to stay on the happier side of life. Focusing on all the good moments I have had and will continue to have. It helps. =) The u...

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7:04pm Oh there is so much I want to say, but at the same time I am not sure what I actually want to type up. Like my headspace is all over the place right now. It’ll probably take several rambli...

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5:43pm I cannot believe the way I jinxed life yesterday! So crazy! I’d started writing all those things a mere 15 minutes before the phone call. Sitting here thinking life was good and about to s...

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7:55pm Well, things have definitely changed since the last entry. Crazy how much can happen in a matter of days. Almost like a 180 flip in the opposite direction. I’ll go ahead and give all the u...

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11:30am I’m sick. Again. After less than two months. I’ve only been over the weird lasting asthma cough for a few weeks. I don’t understand what is going on with my immune system. I used to only ...

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9:03am So, I was about to start this entry a few minutes ago when I realized that I’d like a cup of coffee nearby. I wandered into the kitchen and started looking for my cup [the one from Nashvil...

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12:15pm My mind is apparently running at full speed these days because I am constantly wanting to come in here and type stuff out. There isn’t even that much going on. Too many thoughts to keep m...

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7:21pm Well, today was interesting. Kinda. I guess. Maybe not really. hah. I feel like I have so much to do, no time to do any of it, and yet nothing really to do at all. That’s weird, isn’t it? ...

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12:16pm Where did the morning go? I think I completely missed it today. Whoops. =] I was actually being productive though! So that’s a plus. We’ve been marking inventory for mom’s business since ...

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8:42pm I think I’m in trouble now. Not like, actual trouble, but like I’m all caught up in this thing again. I definitely tried to push him away. Out of habit, or out of fear, or out of reason. I...

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10:30pm I’m not really sure where I want to start tonight, or what I want to say, but I know that I have a lot of thoughts rolling around in my head and I need to get them out. It never does me a...

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2:36pm I feel like it’s been forever since I’ve written and yet it hasn’t even been a full week. It just seems like so much has happened. I thought there was an entry started somewhere, but maybe...

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10:37pm Ok. Time to give some updates. I meant to come in here last night to update after the contact, but I got distracted. So I sent him the text response after I got off of work last night. Al...

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5:02pm Talk about weird coincidences. All day I’ve had this weird thought process running through my conscious about TF. It was different than the usual “oh this sucks” “oh I can’t decide what to...

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9:36pm I’m better today. Not that I don’t still have moments where I’m totally missing our conversations. There were plenty of times throughout the day where I wanted to shoot him a message to sa...

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5:02pm Work is starting up again. Like we aren’t at the constant phone call kinda work yet but I am definitely dreading its arrival. Even just the few calls we got today were enough to remind me ...

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10:03pm I am not doing so well. Emotionally speaking. I walked into my room about an hour ago and my phone just so happened to buzz as I was looking for my computer charger. You know my hopes lit...

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Nov. 12, 2016 5:12pm I know I won’t have time to finish this right now, or even get very far [especially because I can’t seem to type on this keyboard at work…] but I might as well start now and ...

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4:47pm I keep trying to type this out, but I am doing that whole procrastination thing and I’m avoiding. It’s been like a half hour since I started and I have yet to put any real words down. Ther...

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4:04pm So, sometimes you go out and say things like how you need to leave it up to the world and the world goes out and pulls you in the exact direction you were trying to avoid. That whole entry...

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9:24pm My headspace is not good right now. In the last 10 minutes I’ve had a chat exchange with Y though and I think she’s pulled me off the ledge. It’s nice to have a distraction. Perfect timing...

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1:00pm I am currently sitting at work [shhh! don’t tell my boss ;)]. Entries like this might be happening more often as I start spending more time at the office and less time at home. The dread i...

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10:21pm Another very successful Halloween in the books! By “successful” of course I mean that I scared a lot of kids tonight! :-] Hehe. I wasn’t really looking forward to today at all. I just got...

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9:07pm I basically floated through this day. Sleeping was bad last night. I mean I went to bed around 12:30a and was up again by 2:30a. Not cool. I was only up for like an hour but it always feel...

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