Dear God, I just spent three hours this morning on TikTok, and afterward I felt exhausted, guilty, and not like myself. I’ve deleted it, and I pray that what I consumed will not linger in my ...

I am in a holding pattern. I have a follow up appointment with my new rheumatologist on April 8th. I am not sure how having an actual diagnosis is going to affect me. I have tried many many thin...

People come and go, but eventually… everyone leaves. In some way or another. I noticed that I’m really only writing for one person. And it’s not me. I’m not interesting or committed enough ...

On Saturday, I met up with someone from Grindr for a bite. We both wanted to try a new restaurant. I don’t think I can call this a date. We are both trying to make new friends. He was such an ad...

I’ll be honest, I forgot this was here. Part of me feels like that is a triumph. I had been writing in a blog like this since 1999, and it was always something that nagged me in the back of my ...

Anxious attachment is a style of attachment rooted in a deep fear of abandonment and rejection, often stemming from inconsistent childhood care. But what is the term for an attachment style roo...

I’ve loved live oaks and azaleas since childhood. Most of my life I’ve had close acquaintance with these magnificent trees and flowering shrubs, first in my youth growing up in New Orleans, an...

Ended up making stew late into the evening tonight. A blues program on the radio kept me company. Local show, from the nearby college that broadcasts half NPR and half local programming. “The J...

She had a birthday this past week.  I know that I'm writing about it, but honestly, I don't care.  This is one of those rare instances where I'm upset that I have a memory for dumb shit like th...

.... you’ve been so good to me lately. I’m grateful. The river today was so full of birds - ducks and geese and swans. The bridge across at Lansing is growing across from both sides to mee...

Just like it always has to storm when I’m sleeping, or threaten to, the honker has to have his daughter visit, which means he’s almost certainly going to take the motorcycle out while I’m sleepi...

Why say “space janitor” when you can say “vacuum cleaner”? Violence never really fixes a problem. Maybe it kicks a can down the road, for violence to crop up again. Maybe it turns you in...

the sunshine convinced me to go out today... its arrogant assumption it could change my world... all the old familiar stings came into play... its rays set my flesh to itch... so long ago, s...

she started focusing on being and life, on what makes an individual. this part of the journey wasn't always pleasant, after all, when someone decides to find the cause of the effects of very p...

There was a quote from the man in charge a few days ago… “we’ll just keep bombing our little hearts out”. Ugh. We got the draft taxes back on Thursday and today was the first day my finance...