I fear and hate it. It is my mother’s most oft used excuse; and she pulls it out in defense of the most heinous crimes. Ignorance, I think, has always been my worst enemy. It’s used to justify ...

So here I am again. This afternoon, I had a telephone appointment. It went well. Friday, I have another telephone appointment, but with a different person. You know, I had previously thought abou...

I had two failed suicide attempts in July. One from hanging, the other from an overdose. So I’m absolutely crazy or insane or maybe hormonally imbalanced. I’ve considered the fact I may be bipola...

My period is kicking my ass. How badly, you ask? I had take-out two nights in a row this week: Pad Thai on Monday and Domino’s yesterday. That never happens, ever. And it’s not like I don’t h...

School is boring so far every class is the same when to wear a mask how to move from class to class and on and on it goes but still better than home . Stepdad came and checked out how we had to...

Well… she is named Violet.

Some days, you wake up and a feeling comes over you. It can be difficult to really put your finger on… but there’s just this feeling and you have a sense for what to expect from the day. Or is ...

I decided to go ahead and get the tooth implant (see previous entry for my drama about the whole thing), and today is the extraction of what’s left of my current tooth that’s broken down way un...

The kitchen sink drain is pretty clogged up so we’re hoping that when Walmart delivers groceries in a few hours along with some drain opener, it will be enough to bust through the clog. I was tir...

I’m feeling kind of blah today. Nothing specific, I woke up like that. Feeling depressed and unmotivated. Nothing would make me more happy than to go back to bed. Unfortunately I can’t, I have wo...

emphasized textI really need my dreams interpreted. It started at my uncle’s house which, in some features looked like my dad’s house. It was decorated very briefly for Christmas which was odd b...

My car got a flat tire tonight. I have to get new ones. I’m having a massive anxiety attack. I’m not gonna sleep, i’m just.. gonna stare into the void. I was lucky my friends were able to pick me...

My mother in law Dee has a beautiful green thumb. Today we visited her in Covington, Virginia. She gave us tomatos, green peppers and a special treat for our kitties. Dee hangs her cat nip in a h...

We start school tomorrow. We won’t have kids until Monday. When I let myself, I just get so full of anxiety with all of this. Normally, this is such a happy time for me. I’m always so excited to ...