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I started out on TOD way back in 2001 and then was on OD for quite a few years, often neglecting it. I often neglect this too. I might do something noteworthy someday, until then I'm just some dude.
Do not pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one.
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Waiting For Magic in 2016
Things seem bumpy. Today was to be my first day of class. I got to school at 2, thinking my class was at 230, but it started at 2. Whoops. No matter,,the bookstore was a fucking ZOO. At least a h...
One Night Man in Lyrics
I wrote this yesterday before I left for work. I’ve started listening to a bunch of 80s-ish throwback synth. Kind of writing simpler, poppier stuff lately, which is not a terrible change of pace....
I’ve been chased out of bed by anxiety. I slept for a couple hours, but then the thoughts started rolling in. Lately, it’s been about my ex. It’s hard not to feel like I’m regressing. A year ago ...
I wrote this a few hours ago after I finished hanging out with Courtney. Was listening to Cage the Elephant. Feelings just complicate things. I’d rather not have them, as they never tend to work ...
I wrote this during the drive back up to Medford while listening to Metric. Dreams are made to die broken Like hearts exist to lie stolen Your face, your visage I’d idealized Far more than I real...
I’m getting back to business. I worked out last night(it’s still Sunday night to me, dammit!) after getting back from Medford and then also this morning. Getting up really early sucks, but this i...
Ahead On Our Way in 2016
I am drunk. I had a fair bit to drink earlier. I hung out with the friends I’m staying witj while down in Medford and a couple other friends. They have a channel they just started where they do L...
Cinderella 2015 in 2015
Well, everything worked out pretty well. Sarah(the girl who forgot her stuff in my car) got back to me on Facebook Tuesday morning. I went and dropped off her wallet and phone before work. Appare...
Lyfterella in 2015
Christmas was good, if uneventful. I did some driving until around 330. The last ride was a girl and her essentially silent friend who was taking her roommate’s cat to the vet. It hadn’t been eat...
Right On Time in 2015
I have my coat and wallet. How? Someone returned them to me. I still don’t know who or how they were taken. It does seem plausible that it could have been an accident at this point considering ev...
Out of the Black in 2015
Thanks for the support guys. I have a bunch of unanswered texts and facebook comments I haven’t looked at. I already feel self-conscious about being, well, honest about my feelings. Clearly the s...
Someone stole my coat while I was Lyft driving tonight. I keep it between the front seats, always having taken it off once I get too warm. My earbuds and wallet were in there. Yeah, I should have...
A Sacrifice in 2015
I feel hungover, although it’s likely dehydration. I feel like this every time I wake up now. My sleep schedule has gotten pretty out of whack partially from Lyft and partially from just not bein...
Where No One Knows in 2015
What a bust. I made 15 bucks in 3 hours. Thursday night is supposed to be decent too. Ugh. I only had 3 rides, and I took a wrong turn on the second one, which made the trip twice as long. I felt...
I actually did end up going on that date with Gracie Monday. Perhaps saying actually is unnecessary, I’m just so used to people flaking out on me or ghosting. We met up at Beulahland, a bar in do...
I wrote this sometime during or right after high school. It seems more applicable lately than it was at the time. All alone Closed the windows Locked the doors This emptiness Is mine alone There ...
Midnight Hour in 2015
I’ve got two nights of Lyft driving under my belt now. Night 1 did not go well. I started at about 11 and hung out for a bit at the Fred Meyer parking lot in Beaverton. I lost my first two chance...
Lyft Me Up in 2015
What a long day. Well, now it’s Friday. Today will also be quite long. I slept in and bummed around, since I’m so used to staying up at this point. If I can’t sleep because of anxiety, I may as w...
I can’t explain it, but I started to feel better last night. I don’t know why. I did get a number and a possible date off of Tinder, so that’s finally being useful. I don’t think that’s it though...
I wrote this soon after writing Astray, so it was about six years ago. Nothing else I’ve written has quite been like those two songs, but I’m sure I will get back into that mentality at some poin...
Tiny Dots on an Endless Timeline in 2015
I haven’t been angry the last couple days, rather depressed. I feel like I’m regressing. Regressing to the stages of bargaining and grief, though anger had seemed like the last and final stage. ...
I wrote this a few years ago, when I first was trying to get rid of my feelings. It was after being rejected by a girl and feeling dejected, existing alone as I seemed to be in perpetuity. It jus...
Sell Me Down the River in 2015
Saturday went well enough. Some people flaked to being sick or tired from a long day at work. I understand, but it still grates at my soul a little. It just seems like keeping your word that you ...
I just wrote this today. It had been a while since I’d written anything. I was listening to Everclear at the time. You’d rather make an enemy Than admit you need an ally All of the pleasant memo...
Alienated By Change in Lyrics
I think I wrote this ten years ago. Although I’m happy for the friends that have defeated their struggles and moved on to find love and success, I am envious, because I haven’t and they’ve left m...
