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I started out on TOD way back in 2001 and then was on OD for quite a few years, often neglecting it. I often neglect this too. I might do something noteworthy someday, until then I'm just some dude.
Do not pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one.
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Burn My Dread in 2015
I failed the Lyft inspection. One of my brake lights was out(it was loose, easy fix), supposedly a tail light is out, and the two rear tires are almost bald. That one is more problematic. I’m goi...
A Single Moment of Sincerity in 2015
I have a massive headache and don’t feel too good. Nothing super unusual these days, I just want to know what’s causing it. I often feel slightly lightheaded, but push through it. I had to cut my...
Gettin' Tingles in 2015
Another day has come and gone. Work was mostly a pile of poop, only because we had a couple people call-in and there was a massive glob of donors that came in last minute. We didn’t stick the las...
There was no Lyft appointment Friday, since they were apparently closed the whole week for Thanksgiving. Disappointing, though somewhat predictable. They did text me saying to change it after all...
I really did nothing today, except for cleaning and vacuuming the inside of my car. Hopefully that’s the last really lazy day for a while. I did rearrange my room the night before, so that’s some...
Misery Business in 2015
Ugh. I just got back from going out with the roommate. It started off pretty well, we went to a restaurant/hotel that a friend works at and ate and chilled until she got off of work. We caught up...
Let's Wake it Up in 2015
I can’t sleep. I napped for a few minutes it feels like, long enough to wake me back up. I need to be up in…5 hours. 4 if I want to hit the gym before work, which I would like to. I did go a few ...
I’m at a bowling alley waiting for co-workers to show up. IF they show up. I’ve been here since 530, and it’s 8. I slept in my car and played 3DS beforehand. I figured rhe early shifters and peop...
For the Future in 2015
I went to Medford Monday-Friday. It was really fun, as always. I saw far more people than usual, so that was nice. Monday I grabbed my friend Jessie when she got off of work and we hit up Jasper...
Medisinn & Pilgrimm in 2015
Things are as they have been. Pushing myself in the gym, hitting a wall as far as weight loss but keeping at it. I’ll stay the course of a couple hours of cardio a day, and after I return from Me...
Festering Feelings in Lyrics
Just wrote this a couple hours ago. I suppose it’s about certain types of people, like the one I used to be. The results of not speaking your mind and holding onto things. Usually I conjure lyric...
I sent that letter to her on FB today, with all of my heart and all of my thoughts contained therein. I didn’t expect a response, but it still made me feel better. At least I had done everything ...
Tell Her, and Them in 2015
I had a night of weeping bitter crocodile tears over her last night. It isn’t getting easier. I’m becoming a stronger person, but I miss her more and more. I realize more and more how much better...
Killed myself last night via bass and cardio, got up early, did an hour workout, prepared for the day, feeling as good as I can be…and my car is dead. No idea why, the lights didn’t seem to be le...
I was warned; I did not listen I knew my power; knew my limits Or so it seemed The wax on my wings Solidified The desire to reach that place Intensified I forgot you were next to me There are so...
The bullet entered when she turned her back It was a sudden attack He couldn’t yell He couldn’t scream He fell to the floor breathlessly The wound largened and intensified He wouldn’t yell He wou...
Depreciation in Lyrics
Pleasant memories and experiences Existed before your differences In the interim Unsure of what to think In the aftermath Couldn’t help but want to drink Memories wash away It doesn’t matter in ...
Sunday Plasma Sunday in 2015
I didn’t sleep well last night. It was most likely a mistake to try falling asleep to a new album that I’ve been jamming out to (Dangerous Intentions by Patterns, check it out!) instead of being ...
You've Got Yours, I've Got Mine in 2014
It’s been a while. Things are weird. Most notably, my roommates, Chris and Ella, broke up, which has been great and also terrible, but mostly weird. He’s now dating Erica, a fellow co-worker who ...
Sun and Moon in 2014
Things still drag on. Most things are the same as they were last entry. I’m still in a weird limbo at work where they have yet to approve or deny my time off requests for wrestling training. I al...
The Closest Destination in 2014
It’s been a while. I’ve been busy not being overly busy, but filling my time nonetheless. Work is pretty meh. It’s relatively boring, since the center just opened up and we get 40-60 donors most ...
Shredded Knees in 2014
My left knee has been hurting most of the day, well since I went to the pool during yesterday afternoon. I suppose that's what I get for goofing around. Things just hurt, and my eyesight is getti...
Different Worlds in Lyrics
I wrote this a few years ago, about a friend, and another friend somewhat. It's interesting how people change. The first friend had no real interest in being in a relationship, and she denied the...
Bright Spots in Lyrics
I've been writing a lot more lately. I went several months without writing anything, which was kind of worrisome. Perhaps the change in location and lifestyle has helped. Bright spots Swirling i...
The Death Inside in 2014
All I've been hearing about the past day and a half is Robin Williams. Rightfully so. It's thankfully rare for someone that successful and talented to take their own life, especially at that age....
