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I started out on TOD way back in 2001 and then was on OD for quite a few years, often neglecting it. I often neglect this too. I might do something noteworthy someday, until then I'm just some dude.
Do not pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one.
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It’s a little after midnight. Time has had little meaning this week. I’ve felt sick since Tuesday, so I’ve been sleeping a lot and intermittently working on ebooks and not really talking to anyon...
Shambling Man in 2021
Another sleepless night. I suppose that’s why I’m here. It should have been a slam dunk. I was exhausted when I got back from the concert I went to, but I was on my phone for a bit, and then you ...
Imitation of Life in 2021
My family is visiting next week. I haven’t really prepared for it. My car tags were overdue, so I went to the DEQ and took care of that the other day. Just scheduled an appointment to get some ca...
Burn Brighter in 2021
Hmm. Things are exactly the same as they were last time I wrote. It’s another heat wave that Portland is not at all prepared for, though this time there’s also smoke everywhere from fires elsewhe...
It’s hot as hell. Is this hell? What’s good and what’s bad? Everything blurs together. I’m at my favorite local coffee shop because it’s going to be 115 out today, shattering the hottest temperat...
Everything Is Lost in 2021
I think I might be starting to go a little stir-crazy. I don’t even know if it’s so much from the pandemic and the requisite isolation as it is just being where I am in life. I work with a few pe...
Masked Intentions in 2020
Had a couple of friends over earlier. Well, yesterday I guess, since it’s certainly Sunday now. That was cool, hadn’t seen them in a while, or played any Magic. I think I’m fine with that. In the...
Wellwisher in Lyrics
I just wrote this earlier at work during some down time, though the thought of wishing someone a long and unfulfilling life has been in my brain here and there for a while. A life of inconvenienc...
Fake Skins in 2020
I bought an electronic drum kit earlier. Should get here in a few days. I’ve wanted one for a year or so. I asked a friend who is a drummer in a metal band for advice, but he hasn’t used one befo...
Someone Else's Memories in 2020
I’m a lot different of a person than I was 18+ years ago when I first started using diary sites. A different person than I was 10 years ago. A lot different even than I was five years ago. Slowly...
Sentenced to Deletion in 2018
Would you believe I actually made a whole entry around the beginning of April, and then just…didn’t post it? Like, I meant to, but I didn’t. So I guess that’s gone? Kinda figured it would have it...
Dying To Say This To You in 2017
I’m in my car, downtown, waiting for a ride. This is often how I end up starting an entry. It’s New Year’s Eve, but somehow slower than usual. It’s been like that all weekend. I’d counted on this...
Say No Like You Mean It in 2017
I appreciate the notes. I really do. Thank you. I know you guys are right, too. I can’t even think of anything to say in response, and I have been trying to. Even just thinking about making an en...
But Where's Your Heart? in 2017
Things have not been awesome lately. I have admittedly been spiraling pretty bad when it comes to depression and anxiety. A lot more than I’d like to admit. I just can’t fucking sleep when I try ...
Gifted Spectator in Lyrics
Everybody is wanting your time I am another standing in line Sometimes our hands are intertwined Often your heart overshadows mine Your life is packed to the brim I get no attention and feel grim...
Untitled (for now) in Lyrics
I was sick so You kissed me on the cheek And left me wanting Later on in the week Haven’t heard from you I’m still wanting Come from out of nowhere Turn me upside down And leave without a word W...
Residential Evil in 2017
Well, things have gotten worse. My old roomie was in town Wednesday for a concert. We went to get sushi beforehand, and when I tried to pay, it didn’t work. Odd. She covered it thankfully. I then...
There’s a dent in my trunk. I’m not sure when it got there. Whoever did it, be it by car or something else, didn’t leave a note or anything. Motherfucks. Not sure if my extended warranty covers s...
Get Out / Right Next Door to Hell in 2017
I agree with pretty much everyone that commented on my last entry. Would pursuing things with her be a bad idea? Absolutely! Would it make things messy? Definitely. I would, if given the chance r...
What About Bob? in 2017
I had quite the adventure the other day. I picked up a passenger from the airport who needed to go to Enterprise and then back to the airport quickly for a flight. He had forgotten the keys for h...
Empty Serenity in 2017
Apparently there are rumors that Open Diary is coming back. Where are these rumors coming from? I have searched and found nothing about it. Seems I’m not in the know. Even if it did come back, wh...
Hallucinations While Stranded At Sea in 2017
I am floating upon a sea of nothingness. A sea colored pea soup green, though the world appears in greyscale. Bits of color occasionally punctuate the sky before fading away. It all blends togeth...
And All Things Will End in 2017
Fuck. I JUST got in a very small accident in a parking lot. We were both backing up out of our spots and backed into each other. It was very slow, no one was hurt, but there is a little bit of pa...
I got a new car on Tuesday. I’ll have to take a picture and post it, since that’s a thing that people do I guess. It was necessary. My Aveo soldiered through last week well, but by the end it was...
As Green As the Sky in 2017
My roommate got laid off from her job a couple weekends ago. She’s moving back to Medford whenever we are done with our lease. It makes complete sense for her. She can get her old job at the thea...
