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sometimes random thoughts, sometimes workout stuff, sometimes over dramatics, sometimes calloused analysis.
sometimes it tough being with the living when you'd rather be with the dead
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i got some dust in my eye in Sometimes I feel dead inside
i had a dream where i was paralyzed, i couldn’t move or communicate and i started panicking. the idea of being trapped in my body unable to do anything or even let anyone know i was in there was ...
the busy but doomed musical phrase in Sometimes I feel dead inside
its been a sobering month, i came to find my last close friend i had things in common with has passed me. hes getting married, he skipped the lets have fun part and went straight to old boring ma...
watching the skyline for the bombs to drop in Sometimes I feel dead inside
when i was a kid there were emergency drills for everything. fire, earthquakes even nukes, surprise it was hide under your desk and hope the mystery material it was made from would save you. i ha...
the excitement is always for something new. in Sometimes I feel dead inside
There’s something dark and quiet growing in the back of my head. An idea of something a bit different, something a pulling in a direction that I’m not sure how to start the process. I haven’t fel...
cubicles really hits close to home today in Sometimes I feel dead inside
Its amazing how selfish I can be. Maybe not, I don’t know. i mean I’ve certainly been a bit cowardly about this particular situation. Though I’ve also been infuriated at the stupid part of my bra...
nostalgia, crush, logic and dissection in Sometimes I feel dead inside
Heard a song this morning. Sounded like something that teenage me would’ve connected with whatever girl I was crushing on at the time. You know like every song when you’re a teenager. i realized ...
analyze and dispose in Sometimes I feel dead inside
A few weeks, a couple nights of out partying my face off, a few days of hangovers and time away. the burning crush I had is now much less of an inferno threatening to burn my calm and cool exteri...
trying to dissect my irrational thoughts in Sometimes I feel dead inside
are lust and idealization the ingredients of a crush? i haven’t been crushing in a while, its nice to know that I can still feel things like that for another person. As it was I had gotten concer...
I’m in two minds, in an awkward situation in Sometimes I feel dead inside
this part of the year gets me super reflective. Almost like clockwork it brings me down, infuriates me, then pushes me to push myself to the breaking point. Its too predictable, hell I can look a...
Trapped in a space opera in Sometimes I feel dead inside
can’t help but laugh at stereotypical place I find myself in coupled with the generous apathetic detachment of an outsider looking in that is the whatever that is. the incredibly cliche of into a...
intoxication confidence in Sometimes I feel dead inside
had a few drinks over the weekend. got a little bit confident, not more so that usual, just more vocal about it. it was very interesting but very irritating. the opinions of others are less impor...
venting that get me no where in Sometimes I feel dead inside
frustration, theres no hope for improvement in this place.everyday just seems worse, well worse in its a waste of my time. i can’t make any money, there no upward movement available. theres been ...
get out tonight. in Sometimes I feel dead inside
the desiccated city of my origins. the part of the world i pride myself to be from, the gray harsh environment that i can no longer live in but will defend to my end. the beautiful empty spaces t...
shot short temporary temperature tumultuous too bad in Sometimes I feel dead inside
is motivation that is a fallacy bad? is it harmful when one’s reason for positive change is fiction? does the end outweigh the means? sure in the larger scope of things it may become a possibilit...
super spicy food in Sometimes I feel dead inside
i find myself questioning my life mission. i mean my motivations. i’ve done some really crazy things out of spite or revenge. motivations that have caused change in the past no longer fuel me the...
7:30 am your alarm goes off. you shut it off 8:30 am your 2nd alarm goes off. you shut it off 9:00 am the timer you set goes off, you need to leave for work now or you’ll be late stay in the show...
listening to 90s pop rock reminds me of my friend in Sometimes I feel dead inside
well i supposed i should catch you up on things. my gym routine has suffered due to the holidays and my traveling. got to see my family, which is always nice. i always enjoy getting away from the...
too late in Sometimes I feel dead inside
well another year down. i can’t say i’m happy about things. the funniest part is for once its not due to the annual reflect on the year and be disappointed. i was actually alright with the past y...
experimenting with binaural beats/sound therapy in Sometimes I feel dead inside
i’ve found that using these types of music/sound to be incredibly helpful for meditation/relaxation. i’ve been curious about music, notation, phrases and frequency on people. sure theres the myth...
over a year now visiting the iron in my challenge
i’ve been going to the gym a minimum of 3 days a week for a little over a year now. my body composition has changed significantly. i’m in much better shape than i was a year ago. i’m not exactly...
I just got an email from Sara in Sometimes I feel dead inside
I thought it was from a girl that turned my life upside down. it probably isn’t her fault, I didn’t know better and fell in love with the idea of her. which was someone she could/would never be. ...
disillusion due to overabundance in Sometimes I feel dead inside
another morning on the end of the bed, wondering how to politely ask a woman to leave. is she faking that she didn’t wake up when my alarm went off? or worse is she really a heavy sleeper? maybe ...
the world on holiday in Sometimes I feel dead inside
i just returned to the city i live in. i went and saw my family and the place where i was born and grew up. it was nice to escape my now normal life. i’ve returned to find that everything has the...
in the world of possibilities in Sometimes I feel dead inside
yeah my friends went out last night and wanted to hang out. i said no, i wanted to sleep. jokingly one of them texted me to tell me they were all going to sleep with each other. it didn’t matter ...
redesign. rebuild. reclaim. in my challenge
redesign rebuild reclaim…i saw this on a shirt for a pro wrestler. i’ve not been happy with the way things have been going. my morning workouts have been pretty terrible. i have no energy and the...
