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sometimes random thoughts, sometimes workout stuff, sometimes over dramatics, sometimes calloused analysis.
sometimes it tough being with the living when you'd rather be with the dead
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just a little skewed in Sometimes I feel dead inside
my mind had vacated my body. it was sitting there just watching as my well maintained life slowly slipped slightly off target. my finances went to garbage, which cut me off of the gym and eating ...
its been a rough month in my challenge
i’ve been slacking. i’ve been trying to make it to the gym at least 3 times a week. i’ve failed horribly a couple times. i plan on getting it back together next week. as i’m traveling this week. ...
talking with a ghost in Sometimes I feel dead inside
an anniversary of one of the worst days in my life. i reflect on where my life has gone, the effect that this day had on my life. the resulting fallout/impact. the regret that strikes me every ti...
october is done in Sometimes I feel dead inside
october started great and ended poorly i’ve started doing 30 minutes on the bike in the morning before work then the full set after work. its tough waking up earlier to get up and out though tod...
i thought i had killed that in Sometimes I feel dead inside
there were a couple years of my life where i lived in fear, where i was frustrated, where i was confused. probably the most intense time of my life. there was a lot of animosity, and a lot of iso...
sept update in my challenge
been at this for a little while now. still doing the gym, things are still getting toned. the belly is getting smaller still have more work to do i’ve added torso rotations which are killer and ...
in this episode i question mindset and misfortune. in Sometimes I feel dead inside
my weekend could be considered to be terrible. the girl i’ve been into for a minute kept playing the push/pull game with me. almost nice guy friend zoning me. which i don’t accept. a not attracti...
updates of all types in my challenge
so heres where we are at i’m working out 4-5 times a week. going mostly low carb. lots of meat and eggs. slimmed down a bit but still not where i want to be. hitting the gym vs working out at ho...
walking with night and sleeping when sun comes up in Sometimes I feel dead inside
the morning is just waking people up. the streets are quiet. this walk home has my mind racing. the distraction of being alone is wandering by, making the same tired spectacle that it always does...
9/5/15 in Sometimes I feel dead inside
fighting the emotional part of my brain today. the logical part knows that this one is not special. just another damaged girl i will not save. i cannot save. but her telling me she was going to b...
a liar, a monster, a patron saint of regression? in Sometimes I feel dead inside
won’t even give her eye contact. she doesn’t deserve it. is it betrayal? could that even be the case? is it jealousy? if so on who’s part? her actions have derailed what was supposed to be a lot ...
giving up makes no sense in my challenge
so i’ve been going at this on and off for a little bit. while my weight numbers haven’t changed drastically composition has gotten better. its not easy, i’ve struggled, i’ve missed days. i’ve got...
future me is hopefully happy in my challenge
things are doing well. always making tweaks my schedule is settling down a bit now and i’m beginning to regulate my days mon-thurs wake up chest expansion stretches 3 at 30 seconds each work lu...
plan reset…again in my challenge
i still weigh less than i did when i started this. but not near what my goal has been. so it was time to change up the game plan. joined an actual gym vs working out at home. so far so good. i am...
getting it right even after failing in Sometimes I feel dead inside
i mess up. i get fooled sometimes. sure i don’t think i’m an idiot, but my narcissism does get the best of me. i believe i’m way smarter than some of the stupid things that get me. i get all fire...
weird places my brain has gone today. in Sometimes I feel dead inside
on the road you can get lost, just focusing on the journey, forgetting the destination. tied up in all the details, and not moving towards your destination. you can stop to smell the roses but yo...
update in my challenge
i figure i should update this as well. i’ve lost 50lbs since starting this mess over a year ago which is pretty good considering i took off 2 months due to illness and injury sure not as defined...
monotony mono tony money to me moe no toe knee in Sometimes I feel dead inside
lots going on and yet nothing worth caring about. boring drama, women creating issues with the boys they used to love. boys reacting like a territorial dog, terrified of anything that they percei...
my weak end in Sometimes I feel dead inside
i’ve been under the weather this week. not sleeping well. i’m trying to not to fall into being depressed. maybe its this temporary loneliness, maybe is the circumstances i find myself in. i’m goi...
i know in Sometimes I feel dead inside
well its a new year and i’ve already caused some fun in my world. i’ve been in this on going situation of bro’s before ho’s. the worst part is i don’t really consider the bro a bro. he hasn’t bee...
i want to walk away from everything in Sometimes I feel dead inside
so this whole metalgate garbage really has me disappointed in both sides. i understand points that both make but don’t totally agree with either. its unfortunate that really cool people are not a...
yearly review in Sometimes I feel dead inside
i wake up to pain, i wake up feeling worse than when i went to sleep. no, that’s not true, i’m just tired. another year of my life is just about up. i still have no ambition, no goals, no dream. ...
getting ready to travel in Sometimes I feel dead inside
i’ve really gotten excited about traveling. i’m going to be doing it for the holidays and that’s always fun. plus i need a breather. i need to get away. it always makes people in my life apprecia...
but then i wake up in Sometimes I feel dead inside
its been strange lately, i’ve wondered where i’ve drifted off to lately. i don’t care about having a romantic life right now. i mean i have the girls i see, but i don’t really care about them not...
so the story continues….i guess in Sometimes I feel dead inside
what is new? its been a while aside from my fitness updates, which are pretty boring i guess. mostly for my own documentation i guess or whatever. anyhow, where am i now? what am i up to? same jo...
