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is motivation that is a fallacy bad? is it harmful when one’s reason for positive change is fiction? does the end outweigh the means? sure in the larger scope of things it may become a possibility of happening. more than like it won’t which isn’t a bad thing, and may rationally be good. this artificial reality though can have positive results and perhaps once the goal is achieved the target may not be wanted or something better may come along. though there is the potential of failure, the build up of an unattainable idea in one’s head, that nothing could ever meet the sky high expectations. is it lying to one’s self if the results are self betterment? does motivation regardless of truth matter if it gets most of the desired results? not really sure about this, but as long as the emotions are kept in check it should be good. as long as in the rational part of the mind it is known its all a work. its more of a moral point of view, is it wrong to lie to oneself? don’t really know, there is a game plan though. the end goal is more important than the false motivation, it always has been. the questioning nature and moral compass may have been brought on by the state of near constant exhaustion over the last few days. the nationally observed holiday really doesn’t hold any meaning for me, aside from hearing from a few young ladies that have been absent for the last few months or weeks or whatever. it makes sense some people are on edge when reminded of their lack of romantic situations. being with someone or not doesn’t make much of a difference, if you’re feeling alone it doesn’t need to be due to a certain day. sure everyone feels that way every once in a while. its a normal reaction, its biology. the urge to pair off is to further the survival of the species. its instinct and upbringing encourage that. just don’t see the need to a holiday to encourage breeding, which is what it all boils down to. it may sound bitter stating that, its not, just another day of the week. the only difference is the ladies at work all have flowers sent on their desks, 2/3 sent by themselves or a family member thats not a spouse, just to not be left out or look lonely. guys are not immune to stupid attempts to appear not to be alone as well. buying women flowers who are and will never be more than friends or worse buying an expensive present for a young lady who’s friend zoned them. which is awful it puts both of them in an awkward situation that really isn’t fair to everyone involved. not fair to her because he is putting unrealistic expectations on her while cowardly stating his feelings in a manner that requires some kind of response. not fair to him because he is trying to get her to think that way about him, to understand that he appreciates her and wants to be all those things for her that she says she wants out of a significant other. somehow this whole post got sidetracked. the dilemma of motivation some how turned into a near nihilistic view of a silly holiday. outside influences have derailed this thought train, so this is probably the best spot to stop at.