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Tomorrow morning I take my dog in for bloodwork for his surgery on Monday. He hardly every lays “spread eagle” on his back, but I caught him once on Saturday and again today, Wednesday. This w...

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About 45 minutes after I posted my last entry, the vet’s office sent me the estimate for my dog’s potential biopsy/debulking surgery. Although still pricey, it wasn’t the $2,500 I expected to se...

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I haven’t got the cost estimate of the biopsy surgery from the vet’s office yet, so that’s slightly annoying. Although when the vet called me yesterday morning she did say they’d send it either ...

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The vet called me today and let me know the results of his aspiration biopsy test. The results are.......INCONCLUSIVE. ughhhhhhhh. So now they will need to go in and surgically remove a chunk o...

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I’m a little nervous going to sleep tonight considering how last night went. I have a strong feeling I’m going to be texting my therapist tomorrow for an emergency session before next Monday’s se...

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Guys, I had my first ever legit hallucination last night. I had worked myself up into extreme emotional stress yesterday and couldn’t fall asleep until about 1:30 in the morning. A few hours late...

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Granted, I’m not supposed to be freaking out yet because his lab results haven’t came back yet (that’s a Monday or Tuesday thing). But I AM FREAKING OUT. Because I had no idea how much he was be...

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Took the furchild to his vet appointment and did not have the kind of appointment I was expecting. Ever since the “overdoing” it on the dog walk a few weeks ago which was followed by his leg loc...

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Yesterday’s therapy session went well and was exhausting. It was my first session since being assigned the “Mothers Who Can’t Love” book. One of the exercises in the book is to write your mom a...

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I scheduled a vet appointment for my dog for not this Friday, but next - the 15th (their soonest available for non-emergencies). I’m just not getting a good vibe from him lately. Although he ha...

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The date went well enough yesterday. We might hang out again this weekend. I think I’ve gotten a bit too comfortable at this being single thing though because I have no interest in hanging out ...

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Today the first concrete signs that my dog is getting old revealed themselves. It was so gorgeous here weather-wise today that when he begged for a second walk about an hour after his first walk...

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In preparation for my trip back home to Wisconsin next month for Thanksgiving, my therapist has me reading the book Mother’s Who Can’t Love. I just started it last night. So far it is interesti...

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Try as I might, there have been no more memories come back to me from Saturday night. I told the girl who was hosting the party that I couldn’t remember anything and she said her lips are sealed...

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Guys, I had an interesting weekend. Unfortunately there are time periods I have no memory of. And its starting to irritate me. I have 2 bumps on my head and one on the back of my shoulder and ...

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I did end up going to the Wednesday night running group yesterday. I’m finding that the best way to conquer the anxiety about showing up at events and meeting new people is to just not think abo...

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I do believe Thursday, as in two days from now, is the 21st day of psycho-therapist’s 21-day response time to answer the Department of Health investigator’s questions, whatever they may be. So f...

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So this morning was one of the two runs that I registered for during my post-race runner’s high last weekend. The second one is later this month. Guys, after 4 days of rain I was struggling to ...

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Sometimes I think the perfect job for me would be a packing/sorting/warehouse type job where I just did the same repetitive job everyday, but would constantly be physically active. But then I th...

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People are such peculiar beings! So I ran a 10k this morning (which i will get to recapping in just a few) in this nearby, Norwegian-ish themed town. Also, btw, I’m super Norweigian on both sid...

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My energy levels are on the struggle bus today. I got to work 10 minutes late this morning, BUT I was still the first person to get here, so does that really make me late? Or does it put me in ...

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There was frost on the ground when I woke up this morning. My car thermometer said 33 degrees at one point during my drive in to work. Even for here this is unusually cold. Its only October, n...

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Yesterday in therapy I mentioned that I like getting homework assigned in between sessions. I told her that sometimes she assigns it but other times she doesn’t and its the times she assigns it ...

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I spoke with the investigator one more time today. He had another question he forgot to ask that he needed to ask before he sends out his letter to psycho therapist: Were you under any sort of ...

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I talked to the investigator from the Department of Health today! It was a nice chat, and I sent him a copy of all the e-mail communications between me and pyscho therapist. He said I have enou...

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