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Muuuuuch Better-Maybe TMI
I forget that sometimes I should probably put a tmi warning on my entries. Thank you for the notes, I was legitimately concerned about dick sizes. Consider this your First TMI warning. The origin...
I fucked a virgin
Sooooo I had a date tonight with a dude from Tinder. I’ve been messaging him for a little over a week and he seemed like a decent human being. This was the first date with this particular dude. I...
Change
Guys. This job has been really chipping away at my soul lately. Like, really bad. I’ve looked around for other accounting jobs. Applied for two. Stopped looking. Recently started looking ar...
Question
Has anyone here ever taken Xanax? My therapist, who admitted to not being a big fan of benzos, thinks that in my case, they might be beneficial/necessary for me to get me through certain stressf...
Divorced
I’m officially divorced! As of this Tuesday! June 12th will forevermore hold a special place in my heart. I really thought I could never do it. But I did it. I was the only one who attended th...
Upcoming family visit
My sister, bro-in-law and nephew are visiting this weekend. They fly in Friday morning and leave the following Tuesday morning. Not a long visit, but long enough. I’m excited to see them. Its...
My long weekend (with pics)
I’m lucky enough to work at a job where I get Memorial Day off, so I had a nice 3 day weekend. Long weekends can be tricky for me though, because I HAVE to keep myself occupied to keep my mind o...
Small World
A few weeks ago I was walking my dog on the trails in the park that is literally right across the road from my apartment complex. I basically zone out until I come across another family that eit...
Kayaking recap
I need someone to explain something to me. So I was scrolling through FB when I woke up this morning, and I saw a pic of two dudes who I went to high school with standing next to each other and ...
Poor Life Decisions
You guys. I made a very questionable life choice last night. I will talk about it eventually, but I can say for certain now that I am completely turned off by dick. Not sure if I’m even turned o...
It seemed like a good idea
at the time. Maybe I am losing my mind, but it did seem like a good idea. So I had it in my mind that after work today I would take myself and my dog to the lake 5 mins from the apt to work on do...
A for Effort
I signed myself up for a kayaking day trip. Its this Saturday and is part of a “Women on Water” series. I’ve been mulling over signing up for about two weeks now, but as of today, there were o...
Pics from this weekend
Yesterday I went on a day trip with a friend from the football team and her family (minus her husband, who is more like a live-in roommate that she doesn’t get along with....her words, not mine.)...
Nonscale achievements
Do you know what I really hate having to do? Go on any sort of shopping outing to a place that is guaranteed to be busy with long lines. Like Wal-Mart. But I went. On a super sunny Saturday at 1p...
Lost it
You guys. I have completely and utterly lost my emotional shit. I’m sitting here at work with tears streaming down my face. Luckily I have my own office and only two coworkers and one of them ...
Tentative Social plans
I’m definitely feeling less crazy today than I was yesterday. Yay for improvement on the crazy scale! I read this article online. Its from Self magazine and shows women with their “before” bloa...
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I feel like I’m slowly losing my mind. But I’m hoping this time its just monthly-friend related. I have my fingers crossed that this feeling will last only a few days. My friend did come today...
Its getting nice outside
I cancelled my Kickboxing membership today. The weather is starting to get really nice again and the days are getting longer, so my interest in working out indoors is waning. It’s also money I ...
Of all the things
April was a challenging month, but I made it through unscathed. I had my monthly therapy appointment last night. I had to tell her about having to see James for the first time since I left beca...
Nothing
I think taking Tuesday off as a Mental Health Day was a superb use of 8 PTO hours. However, I’m starting to think those 8 hours weren’t enough. I’m just so devoid of any energy. Work has been ...
Mental Health Day
Yesterday was a day. I had plans in the early morning to let the owners/my fellow teammates know I was leaving the team. I was having the same digestive ish over this that I was having before/a...
I am done.
I am done with the football team this season. Its the next piece of negativity in my life that needs to go. I just can’t stay on after what happened Saturday. So we lost our game. No big deal....
Last Night
So as stated in my last entry, last night I went to house to have the hubby sign the final divorce papers and it was my first time seeing him & being back at the house since I left (Feb 17th)...
Nervous. So nervous
Tonight I have to go back to the house for the first time since I left. This will also be the first time I’ve seen my ex since I left. Side note: I have used “meeting with the ex to discuss div...
Locate the sunshine, go to the sunshine
So the first football game of the season is done. You know how I’ve been fighting with the motivation to attend practices this season? I’m finding its not any easier with the games. Like I lit...
