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new response in 2018
10:51pm I probably should not be writing right now. I’ve only had two drinks but I feel like I’ve maybe had more. haha. The guy on cops just asked the guy how much he’d had to drink tonight. I ai...
my own advocate in 2018
June 12 - 2:19p I had to force myself to get out of the house. I need a distraction. If I sit there not moving then I just end up worse than I already am. I think I’ve transitioned to the slightl...
lost the battle in 2018
1:55pm I feel like I’m riding a roller coaster these days. Some times I’m up and some times I’m down. Today I’m up, which is a welcome feeling, despite the fact that I went to a funeral this morn...
gained self-confidence; lost self-worth in 2018
9:23pm Today’s thoughts: It’s been a weird day. Not pleasant. I’m in a strange mood. Ever since I woke up, but I have no idea why. I can’t pinpoint where it’s coming from. Just snappy, and snarky...
makes me laugh at least in 2018
4:56pm I don’t think I actually have a lot to say today. Sometimes I feel that way though and ramble on for hours. hah. I’m at work right now, hopefully heading home in the next hour. I had break...
makes sense in 2018
3:44pm So I’m currently sitting outside in the back enjoying the movement of our swing because it is about a hundred degrees. It’s not terrible inside but at least there’s wind out here. Much eas...
Responding in 2018
8:27pm Well, I just checked my email. No response. I’m just a little bit surprised. Not totally but a little. He used to be so quick to respond but that was more than a year ago. I have no idea w...
morning gossip in 2018
2:12pm I found something out during this morning’s neighborhood gossip session. It may or may not change things for me. So, it turns out that my neighbor is strongly considering moving. Like they...
3:11pm I am back home after the quick OR trip. It wasn’t as bad as I was anticipating. Honestly, it was completely fine. I don’t know why it always feels like such a hassle to go out there. I’ve ...
only hate the road when you're missing home in 2018
9:59pm I want to type this up tonight but I don’t know how well my motivation will hold up. So many thoughts swirling around. I am having trouble processing though. This place always tends to hel...
vanity aside in 2018
4:11pm Well let’s see what random topics I can come up with today. I need to get back into the habit of writing but I’m not in front of a computer all the time like I was at the beginning of the ...
accept what's real in 2018
6:33pm I’m sitting in the car waiting because I’ve been inside all day and figured I should at least see the outside world. Make sure it hasn’t gone up in flames or something. Today just didn’t f...
another go in 2018
8:38pm So where did we last leave off? … I guess it doesn’t matter honestly it’s probably all the same ol’ stuff anyway, right? There are plenty of updates though! I’m back from Hawaii!! And Laug...
back again in 2018
9:51pm I’m totally fine right now. Honestly, I expected to be a little bummed out after Tuesday. Down in the dumps. Hurt, sad, whatever. It wasn’t really that big of a deal. I knew he wasn’t goin...
we already knew in 2018
10:18pm He didn’t show. I know, I know we’re not surprised. And damnit I know I said I wasn’t getting my hopes up but ugh I lied alright!!! I couldn’t help myself. It just seemed like it was goi...
don't tempt me in 2018
4:15pm I’m sitting in the car waiting and I figured I might as well start an entry and see where it goes. I keep meaning to write but I’m not in front of a computer every day any more. With this ...
this isn't a sign in 2018
9:33pm I haven’t been in the mood to write lately. It’s been a while since I’ve felt that way. Not really sure what lead to it. I guess I got tired of writing about the same old stuff. Or maybe I...
9:28pm Today was a long day. As most of them have been lately. Did I say I was so ready for the season to be over with? Because I am. I’m not even sure how I’m making it through each day. Very sl...
spoke too soon in 2018
11:55am So I guess at some point yesterday I opened a new entry window to start typing and hours later I came back to find it sitting there with not even a date. Honestly I don’t even remember op...
1:11pm So tired. Must sleep. Actually I don’t even think it’s sleep I need. It’s just mental exhaustion. My sleep has been pretty good. I’m getting at least 8 hrs a night, although on average I n...
fun[ny] guy in 2018
5:45pm I feel like I’ve been avoiding writing. As I often do. Also, I was busy trying to work on that one super long entry rehashing the phone call and I stopped writing about the little every da...
10:33pm I should be going to bed soon. I’m hoping the “deadline” means I’ll type something up quickly and not ramble on forever. ha. We’ll see. I’m doing stupid obsess-y things and I don’t want t...
mysterious laughter in 2018
12:54pm I am having such a hard time writing up this entry. I don’t know why. Like I’m happy about it, and it was good, and maybe that’s why I can’t type. It’s always the best moments that I have...
enjoy the moments in 2018
10:13am I still want to go back and rehash things that were said yesterday. Y’all know I love to go back and reread all the little conversation topics. It’s fun to reminisce sometimes. I feel lik...
always unexpected in 2018
10:13am I have so much to do today and yet here I am clicking away at the keyboard. Too many thoughts! Must get them out! I got in this morning and went through my normal routine of checking all ...
