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“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”
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It Ain't My Fault It's Six O' Clock In The Morning in Hello
I don’t want to dream anymore. Now rehab is creeping into my subconscious. Plus other oddities. I keep finding myself stranded in different areas in town and I’m having to hoof it on foot. Th...
This Shit Has Gotten Old in Hello
I keep getting emails from a temp service about jobs in Tennessee. I hit decline every time but they keep coming. It’s too far away for me! It was bad enough when I worked in Decatur and with ...
Salami 'N Crackers in Hello
Is what I just ate for a quick meal. Had to navigate the jungle that is my garage to get to the Christmas tree. Go figure I nearly tripped dragging it out and in a attempt to balance myself I je...
Days One Through Three (I'm Forty Days Sober Today) in Rehab Chronicles
Day 1 10/30 Monday It was a bit intimidating at first but everyone was welcoming which put my mind at ease. Found out that one of the counselors is a sci-fi/comic guy. We’ve since talked exten...
Sugar Is A Harsh Mistress in Hello
Normally I’d drink at night. Now when nighttime hits, usually after ten, I’m craving sweets. Lately it’s been chocolate. I’m disgusted with myself. Just the other night I polished off a king s...
What were the highlights and lowlights of my stay? Highlights: Structure 6 AM wake 6:30 meds and smoke 7 breakfast 8 first group 10 second smoke, second group 11:30 till 12:30 lunch 1 PM smoke 3 ...
Now THAT Was Funny (Plus AMA) in Hello
I returned to outpatient today. While on a smoke break Bene, the counselor, asked me what I thought of AB. I didn’t sugar coat it when I said she was a controlling, condescending bitch. She ag...
Fajita Sunday in Rehab Chronicles
I have missed my cooking greatly. That is all.
Here We Go Again in Hello
5:01 AM I’ve been on the PS3 since getting out on Wednesday. Started up my save file on Fallout 3 after dinner (ribeye, corn, green beans, baked zucchini) then when I looked at the clock it was ...
12:01 AM Pain in Hello
Yesterday I had my left foot tucked under my right leg while showing mom something on the PlayStation. Well, whenever I do that it’s basically crushing my foot (I wasn’t paying attention) and it...
New Book in Rehab Chronicles
I decided that I will transfer my day to day journal that I wrote to here. Cast of characters: Admin Bitch - AB The administrator of the facility. I went to high school with her. She was a bi...
This is the latest I’ve been up in a month. After our excursion I spent the rest of the night gaming. Ate that sushi for dinner so I’ll save the leftovers for lunch. I’ve drank more coffee in ...
Good Day Back in Hello
Ma and I went to Blue Plate Cafe for breakfast. She ate, I didn’t as I had oatmeal before I left River Valley. It was nice to come home and cuddle up with Lily. She had purrs in store for me. ...
256 Entries in Hello
Damn y’all write a lot. I’m back. The rehab facility was a joke. Most of the staff hated each other. Big push on God/higher power to get/stay sober. I kept a day to day journal, a lot of which is...
See Y'all In 30 Days! in Hello
6:04 AM Woke up thirty minutes ago. I’m having a smoke before I take a shower. All packed up. One duffel bag, one suitcase and a carry bag with my toiletries. I’m nervous. I’ll be fine thoug...
Feet N Knees in Hello
Mom took off today to spend time with me. We went walking around the historical district downtown. Houses there date back to the early 1800’s. A lot of Civil War history as we were occupied by...
Oh Look, Another Entry in Hello
It’s 1:36 AM and of course I’m awake. Just waiting on the trazodone to kick in. Mom took tomorrow (today?) off to hang before I go in on Monday. I’m browsing Google images for my next tattoo id...
Reflection in Hello
Seeing how I’m off to rehab Monday I’ve been thinking about my life. Namely when I finally admitted I was an alcoholic. Either 2009 or 2010. That was around the time I found this underrated dar...
Off My Chest Rant in Hello
I went to Krystal’s today for some cheese burger sliders. Had to stand around for ten minutes before the girl took my order then another THIRTY minutes to get my food. “Fast” food my ass! There ...
MONDAY MONDAY MONDAY!!! in Hello
At ten AM, I’ll be checking into rehab. Went out today and got the rest of the essentials I’ll be taking with me. Namely cigarettes heh.
Filet Mignon And Endless Errands in Hello
I am so tired. Managed roughly five hours of sleep. Hit the road about nine. Breakfast at Blue Plate, off to the library, then surgery center to clear paperwork, Walmart for my rehab essentials,...
Even after taking a trazodone I can’t fucking sleep. 🤬 I have way too much shit to do in the morning and afternoon to deal with this right now.
Afternoon Adventure in Hello
Let me start by saying I’m super tired, the DayQuil has worn off (I’ve taken more) and I’m super full. My aunt called saying her car broke down last night and she needed a lift to it to get some...
Old Number 7 in Hello
Just got off the phone with River Valley. My assessment has been processed and I’m number 7 on the list. Rehab here I come. Probably another few weeks though. I’m feeling better, sinuses are...
Officially October 25th in Hello
RIP Dad I was watching a rerun of No Reservation with Anthony Bourdain when sure enough I dozed off. Managed to catch a nap this evening. Anyways it’s almost four and I’m awake. Dunno what I w...
