J.E. ⋅ 40
“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”
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Off To Jail in Hello
First lunch Then the bail bondsman Then I’m turning myself in now that I’ve got the money Wish me luck.
Back To The Doc in Hello
It’s 12:39 AM My left knee is swollen like a softball. I’ve had a tendonitis flare up before but never this bad. The topical gel the doc recommended isn’t working neither is ibuprofen. I’m gon...
Correction On The Accident in Hello
I’m the cause of the accident by running a red light.
R.I.C.E. Method in Hello
Rest, Ice, Compression, Elevate I didn’t get a shot from the doc but a prescription for an arthritis gel. Luckily they have an over the counter one that was under $10. So, I’m on the couch, le...
Wizard's Dungeon (4:04 AM) in Hello
Spider-Man: No Way Home is on. This is the second Marvel movie I’ve watched tonight. Avengers Endgame was on much earlier. To everyone who offered comfort in my last entry, thank you. I am goi...
Guess I Am Stupid in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
Last Sunday, after a night of heavy drinking, I took took the last few shots of vodka, in the morning. I was going to Circle K for a Mt. Dew Icee when I hit someone who ran a red light. I fled t...
My left knee is swollen and hurts bad. Tendonitis. Goldfinger is on TV. Near the end where he gets sucked out of the plane window. How the Hell did they get away with naming a character Pussy G...
Happy Thanksgivin' Y'all! in Hello
Went out to my aunt’s. Cousin made her bad ass brined turkey. She got the recipe from Ree Drummand, The Pioneer Woman on Food Network. It looks dry when it comes out the oven but it is the jui...
Relapse in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
Last night and tonight. See y’all tomorrow.
She bought me a new TV tonight as both a reward for one month sober and as my only Christmas gift lol. Since we got home and I got it all squared away I’ve been gaming. Ahhh I’ve missed it.
Intervention The Show in Hello
This show depresses me. Not for what the person or their family are going through. It’s the fact that if my family held one for me only my mom and aunt would show up. If my cousin (whose like ...
2:34 AM Insomnia in Hello
Thirty-fuckin’-days-sober!
FUCK YOU BUDDY! in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
My brain has been screaming for alcohol most of the day. This shit fucking sucks! Shit fuck cunt cocksucker motherfucker cocksucker (x’s 2) asshole bitch GAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!! Someone give me som...
This Is So Effing Stupid! in Hello
I’ve been white knuckling it the better part of the evening with alcohol cravings. I know Ill be sick. I know I’ll be splashing my guts out rectally. I know Ill sleep too late or not enough. ...
My brain was trying to convince me earlier that a twelve pack of cheap beer and playing guitar would be really fun. I didn’t cave. Hand/eye coordination would go out the window and I’d end up d...
I slept in WAY too late Sunday. Past 1 PM, too late. But as I said in the previous entry, my back and hip hurt, I was stoned on pain pills and got into a super comfy nook wrapped in my blanket ...
High As A Kite in Hello
Plus really tired. It wasn’t part of the tooth but a piece of bone fragment that didn’t fully come out when said tooth was extracted. The doc was able to pick it out and I’m much relieved. He ga...
Mentally And Physically Hurting in Hello
I’ve felt so alone today. My mouth hurts and is a bit swollen. I almost drank tonight but didn’t. Sat and stewed in self pity instead. Dentist in 9 1/2 Hours. I need sleep. But I don’t wann...
Fuck This This in Hello
Been in a mood today. Rolled my tongue of the area where the tooth was pulled and felt a pain as it slide over a sharp point. Great! I still have a bit of said tooth in there. I get to go back ...
Melatonin Fever Dream in Dreams And Nightmares
There were three bisexual friends, one of them a cheating bride to be. A sexual assault lawsuit that involved a bunch of faces I haven’t seen in years, I was a juror. Lastly, a gf that would re...
Owie Wowie in Hello
Got that last bad tooth taken care of yesterday. It’s tender. A little whole ago I was annoying mom, constantly talking and poking her with the back scratcher when I got the brilliant idea to fa...
Craving Tha Sauce! in Hello
After dinner I got a craving for alcohol. It’s all about finding a distraction. Luckily I had Candy Crush and YouTube.
Better Than Yesterday in Hello
Today has shaped up to be a lot better than yesterday. Left over pot roast for brunch, went and got an Icee, came home and jammed on the guitar for a bit, felt even more restless so did a two mil...
Funk (Updated] in Hello
Mom said some really mean things to me earlier today and I’ve been in a crappy mood since. I wanted to get some alcohol to ease the moodiness but again, I reminded myself of the broken TV set and...
4:32 AM Pain And Two Weeks Sober in Hello
Gah! The left side of my face hurts. It’s around the gum line where I had two teeth pulled last year. Mom and I were munching on some crackers and homemade chicken salad when one of the cracke...
