J.E. ⋅ 40

“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”

Philip K. Dick

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December 06, 2022

Off To Jail in Hello

First lunch Then the bail bondsman Then I’m turning myself in now that I’ve got the money Wish me luck.

December 05, 2022

Back To The Doc in Hello

It’s 12:39 AM My left knee is swollen like a softball. I’ve had a tendonitis flare up before but never this bad. The topical gel the doc recommended isn’t working neither is ibuprofen. I’m gon...

November 30, 2022

Correction On The Accident in Hello

I’m the cause of the accident by running a red light.

November 28, 2022

R.I.C.E. Method in Hello

Rest, Ice, Compression, Elevate I didn’t get a shot from the doc but a prescription for an arthritis gel. Luckily they have an over the counter one that was under $10. So, I’m on the couch, le...

November 28, 2022

Wizard's Dungeon (4:04 AM) in Hello

Spider-Man: No Way Home is on. This is the second Marvel movie I’ve watched tonight. Avengers Endgame was on much earlier. To everyone who offered comfort in my last entry, thank you. I am goi...

Last Sunday, after a night of heavy drinking, I took took the last few shots of vodka, in the morning. I was going to Circle K for a Mt. Dew Icee when I hit someone who ran a red light. I fled t...

November 25, 2022

Laid Up in Hello

My left knee is swollen and hurts bad. Tendonitis. Goldfinger is on TV. Near the end where he gets sucked out of the plane window. How the Hell did they get away with naming a character Pussy G...

November 24, 2022

Happy Thanksgivin' Y'all! in Hello

Went out to my aunt’s. Cousin made her bad ass brined turkey. She got the recipe from Ree Drummand, The Pioneer Woman on Food Network. It looks dry when it comes out the oven but it is the jui...

Last night and tonight. See y’all tomorrow.

November 17, 2022

Mom in Hello

She bought me a new TV tonight as both a reward for one month sober and as my only Christmas gift lol. Since we got home and I got it all squared away I’ve been gaming. Ahhh I’ve missed it.

November 17, 2022

Intervention The Show in Hello

This show depresses me. Not for what the person or their family are going through. It’s the fact that if my family held one for me only my mom and aunt would show up. If my cousin (whose like ...

November 17, 2022

2:34 AM Insomnia in Hello


My brain has been screaming for alcohol most of the day. This shit fucking sucks! Shit fuck cunt cocksucker motherfucker cocksucker (x’s 2) asshole bitch GAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!! Someone give me som...

November 15, 2022

This Is So Effing Stupid! in Hello

I’ve been white knuckling it the better part of the evening with alcohol cravings. I know Ill be sick. I know I’ll be splashing my guts out rectally. I know Ill sleep too late or not enough. ...

November 15, 2022

3:00 AM in Hello

My brain was trying to convince me earlier that a twelve pack of cheap beer and playing guitar would be really fun. I didn’t cave. Hand/eye coordination would go out the window and I’d end up d...

November 14, 2022

Restless in Hello

I slept in WAY too late Sunday. Past 1 PM, too late. But as I said in the previous entry, my back and hip hurt, I was stoned on pain pills and got into a super comfy nook wrapped in my blanket ...

November 12, 2022

High As A Kite in Hello

Plus really tired. It wasn’t part of the tooth but a piece of bone fragment that didn’t fully come out when said tooth was extracted. The doc was able to pick it out and I’m much relieved. He ga...

November 11, 2022

Mentally And Physically Hurting in Hello

I’ve felt so alone today. My mouth hurts and is a bit swollen. I almost drank tonight but didn’t. Sat and stewed in self pity instead. Dentist in 9 1/2 Hours. I need sleep. But I don’t wann...

November 10, 2022

Fuck This This in Hello

Been in a mood today. Rolled my tongue of the area where the tooth was pulled and felt a pain as it slide over a sharp point. Great! I still have a bit of said tooth in there. I get to go back ...

There were three bisexual friends, one of them a cheating bride to be. A sexual assault lawsuit that involved a bunch of faces I haven’t seen in years, I was a juror. Lastly, a gf that would re...

November 08, 2022

Owie Wowie in Hello

Got that last bad tooth taken care of yesterday. It’s tender. A little whole ago I was annoying mom, constantly talking and poking her with the back scratcher when I got the brilliant idea to fa...

November 05, 2022

Craving Tha Sauce! in Hello

After dinner I got a craving for alcohol. It’s all about finding a distraction. Luckily I had Candy Crush and YouTube.

November 04, 2022

Better Than Yesterday in Hello

Today has shaped up to be a lot better than yesterday. Left over pot roast for brunch, went and got an Icee, came home and jammed on the guitar for a bit, felt even more restless so did a two mil...

November 03, 2022

Funk (Updated] in Hello

Mom said some really mean things to me earlier today and I’ve been in a crappy mood since. I wanted to get some alcohol to ease the moodiness but again, I reminded myself of the broken TV set and...

Gah! The left side of my face hurts. It’s around the gum line where I had two teeth pulled last year. Mom and I were munching on some crackers and homemade chicken salad when one of the cracke...

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