by J.E.

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19 hours ago

5:10 AM

Spent the rest of the day relaxing, taking my BP meds and slept a few good hours. Around 10:30 ish I started a book and just about five minutes ago finished said book. Roughly six to seven hour...

1 day ago

Physical Health

Visit to the doc got me scared. BP 190 over 107. As of today, I’m no longer a smoker or drinker. I’ll work on all the bad food later. For a guy with a history of self harm, I don’t wanna die. N...

July 19, 2021

Stinky Poo

I’m using the restroom the office people use. It’s air conditioned. XD If there is one uncomfortable feeling I hate it’s being sweaty while doing the business. I was stupid, again, last night an...

July 14, 2021

Soup To Nuts

I woke up early this morning with diarrhea. Then had to again around one PM. Then two-thirty. Puked my Arby’s sandwich on my way out the door to work. Real sour stomach so yeah, I had to call ...

July 11, 2021

Haven't We Met Before?

Ok. My super got fired. A week or so later… I was first put in assembly I worked less than a half day and left. Called out a lot and went on a bender…for more than four days…straight. Went back t...

The crap at work threw me into a dark downward spiral. Between the heat, the change up in what I’d be doing and a few other factors I jumped right into a bottle and stayed there. Every Off Day (...

July 08, 2021

The Stuff I Think Of

I’ve been listening to too much Bill Burr at work. I’d like to see a race between a little person and a fat kid with Down’ s. Not on the sidelines either. Adjust a go pro to focus on their head...

July 06, 2021


The fourth came and went. Went to my brother’s for a cookout. His wife had a nurse friend over with a highly autistic sixteen year old. Decent kid. Apparently he feels comfortable at my bro’s...

June 25, 2021

Good Ol' Insomnia

Got off at two. Showered, ate, relaxed on couch. Set alarm for noon as OT on Friday starts at one thirty. Here it is, eight thirty-seven and wide the fuck awake. I already called work and ga...

June 24, 2021


When bored at home, set a timer for a specific amount of time then, see how much you can accomplish in said time. I learned that from a ADHD YouTube video. I absolutely despise my dirty kitchen ...

June 23, 2021

Rum Dipped Cigars

Last pay day I made a trip to Humidor Pipe Shop and bought a pack of Al Capone’s. European style mini cigars. Yeah, I quit smoking but these are a treat to me. Right now I’m kicking back after...

June 22, 2021

Cause For Alarm

First, the old super gets fired. Second, the QC got (who came in way too many times noticeably messed up on drugs) got driven to the urgent care one night for an instant drug test. Fired. Today o...

June 20, 2021

Father's Day

My dad cared about his friends and his own self being. Then he died. Best gift ever. I do miss you, just not as much as you think I would.

June 19, 2021

Aches And Pains

Worked pretty hard Thursday night. Woke up Friday hurting. Pains still consist now but taking meds for it. My skin is hot to the touch and my heart is thudding in my chest. Yeah, I’m not feelin...

June 17, 2021

Differential Dimensions

I’d bone the Parker actor from the State Farm commercials. During my hiatus from life the past…seven?…days, I’ve been reading a Philip K. Dick short story collection. I really enjoy his work, ...

Denial. You experience a sense of free fall. Fuck it I got nothing to say right now.

June 14, 2021

Go Figure

8:30 AM. Discharged. Detox under medical supervision? In a hospital? Haw! I’m pissed…

Peacock is coming to pick me up and drop me off at the hospital. No. I’ve not cut myself. I just need time to dry out and rethink my life. See y’all in a few days.

June 13, 2021

Molotov Cocktail Party

The places that still stand to us. Where bad things happened. We’ll do a community bbq where we torch that shit to the ground. Use the embers for bbq. We can eat this hurt then shit it out an...

June 12, 2021

Slather Me In Sauce

After watching Diners, Drive-Ins and Dives last night I’m craving ribs. Extra sauce, please! I dozed off somewhere after one AM. Woke up at four. Couldn’t get back to sleep. Now it’s six fift...

June 10, 2021

Why I'm Angry

This 33 year old kid aka supervisor went on a tirade and stimatizing mental health. Shut up. Go to work. Get over it. Go back in the shadows and everyone will be happy. I will not work throug...

June 10, 2021


I love that when I come home from a shit night at work I can’t bitch about it like she does. I’m all told is Well you know you can’t quit. No fucking shit you dumbass nitwit! You get to bitch...

June 08, 2021

Drenched Yet Again

.6:36 PM On first break sitting outside in the loading zone. It’s a bit overcast and a slight breeze is passing by. It feels good. Tonight is vacuuming and alcohol wiping every crook, cranny an...

June 08, 2021

Brain Droppings #1

A porno titled Cum On Eileen. Our protagonist, Eileen, does a gangbang with the group Dexys Midnight Runners.

Since we’re out material I’ve been in assembly since Friday. I managed to make up an excuse and leave early then but no dice today. There is poor ventilation, they use a lot of chemicals (with ...

Book Description

I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.

Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.

It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.



I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.

So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.

I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.

But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
I’m a democrat.
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.

People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.

This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.

I welcome ProseBox into my life.