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9 hours ago

Unmedicated

Let the hate flow through you… I’m angry. VERY FUCKING ANGRY. Accidentally backed into a guy at a convince store today. I apologized and apologized. He said no police, just give him money. Ou...


2 days ago

Nappy Time Update

Yup, that title. After a brief few hours of sleep I peeled myself off the couch at seven AM, showered and got dressed for my interview. The Mazda/Toyota plant is GIGANTIC. Anyways, basic questi...


3 days ago

Sinus Headaches

These have been the WORST headaches I’ve ever had in my life. Very painful and debilitating. Sudafed has done jack squat for them, only Tylenol manages to knock them out. In other news I’m on...


6 days ago

Still Sick

A week + with Covid. I’m so tired of this crap. For the most part I’m getting better but the last two days I’ve gotten excruciatingly painful sinus headaches. Found some tips online about mass...


Fuck it! Ban gay rights! Ban gay marriage! Shit, let’s bring back segregation while we’re at it and all white juries! Contraceptives? Hahaha fuck you and the unborn! Welfare? Fuck no! Shouldn’t h...


7 days ago

The Code

Peace is a lie. There is only passion. Through passion, I gain strength. Through strength, I gain power. Through power, I gain victory. Through victory, my chains are broken. The Force shall fre...


June 22, 2022

Stir Crazy

I want to get out and do something so bad but moving around too much leaves me fatigued. Still sick, yes. I’ve been going to Circle K for my daily Mt. Dew icee and I did go by Books-A-Million y...


June 21, 2022

Memorable

“There are monsters in all walks of life. One doesn’t need unlimited power to create victims. One just needs to be desperate.” “When friends go wrong, you don’t get a choice about what to do.” ...


June 18, 2022

Two Years In... (Update)

3:15 PM today I’m getting a rapid ‘Rona test at Walgreens. I’m afraid this isn’t just the flu or a cold. Fingers crossed that it is either if the two, though. Scratch that… Went and bought a hom...


June 17, 2022

Burning Up

No, not the heat wave. I’ve got a nasty fever and my body hurts. After laundry is done I’m not moving from the couch except for the toilet and food.


June 16, 2022

Waste Of Gas

Started getting an uneasy feeling about the interview today. Not climate controlled (never again) and starting at $16 with a top-out at $18.50. Yeah, no. I don’t get out of bed for anything les...


June 15, 2022

The Birth Of Cool

IT’S SO FUCKING HOT OUTSIDE!!! Heat wave this week with temps in the mid 90’s (32 C) with a heat index off 100 (42 C) plus. I’ve been keeping an eye on the outdoor cats, making sure they have p...


June 11, 2022

Schweet!

Been reading up on different BBQ (not grilling) techniques for baby back ribs. Came across a good dry rub recipe and the indirect cooking method. Place a tin foil pan with about a 1/4 of water ...


June 09, 2022

This Is True

I got a flat tire a mile from home getting cold Arby’s for dinner last night should be a medical term for a new kind of depression.


June 06, 2022

Eye Scream, Ewe Scream

Oui all scream for tuna melts. That’s lunch today. Mom and I kicked around stories about uncle Don last night. She said when she was a kid he would tell ghost stories late into the night and tak...


June 05, 2022

RIP Uncle Don

Haven’t seen him in a few years. Dementia set in and he declined bad over the last two years. He was 76. As soon as aunt Claudia announced it was her over the phone, I knew. I’ll forever cherish...


June 05, 2022

Tis Warm

Bit hot outside. So why do I have chill bumps? Oh ya! I keep my house sub-artic. Grab a blanket and come watch the telly with me. Uh…bring food. Hot wings.


June 03, 2022

Lazy Sod

5:46 PM Been asleep most of the day. My right hip hurts and I’m walking with a bit of a limp. I don’t wanna age anymore. Normally I’d rub it down in Icy Hot and relax but it’s Friday so I’m coo...


June 02, 2022

Real Monsters

Instead of undead monsters, zombies and serial killers…give us the school shooter series of films. Make it REALLY mainstream. Let’s see some children die. That’ll get the government to care. No....


June 02, 2022

Stupidity


May 29, 2022

Schtick-Werk

Went to the Stickwork exhibit yesterday at the botanical garden. Was disappointed to find out it was only one exhibit. It was pretty neat though. Called Roly Poly. Four HOUSE size rolls that ...


May 27, 2022

I Want The World

So everyone on this entire intoxicated planet can feel my pain…


May 27, 2022

Nursery Rhyme

Here we go with armor in May Armor in May Armor in May Here we go with armor in May We might get shot Here we are starring at people Starring at people Starring at people Here we are starring at ...


May 24, 2022

My Oui Oui Itches

Quit the job Monday. I…just can’t put into words on what made me really unhappy there. It basically boils down to nothing was organized and they brought me in to fix it. No. Just…no. The too...


May 18, 2022

What Reminder?

I never did anything I mentioned in the last entry. Called in to work and spent 11 hours sleeping. Emailed the big boss earlier saying I need more time off and will be back Monday and asking w...


Book Description

I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.

Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.

It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.

I.
Am.
Robot.

Tell.
Me.
What.
Is.
Next.

I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.

So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.

I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
DON’T MAKE ME DO THEIR FUCKING SHIT THE LAST HOUR I’M THERE!
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.

But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
OK.
I’m a democrat.
Lifelong.
BUT FUCK YOU OBAMA!
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.

People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.

This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.

I welcome ProseBox into my life.