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2 hours ago

Just Super

I’m off tonight so in turn I stayed up till 3 PM playing Jedi Fallen Order. It’s freakin’ awesome! Buuut…I slept in till 3 AM. Crap. Oh well, time to call on my Force powers and fire up the o...


1 day ago

Harumph!

At the urging of a friend I created an Instagram account. When I logged in the recommended feed showed half my family and old friends. I immediately had an anxiety attack. I’m a private person...


2 days ago

12:23 PM

Smokey just bit my elbow. Lil’ fucker. I got maybe three hours of sleep last night. Had too much on my mind to think about when I got to work so I threw on the headphones and dived face first i...


If they are to come at all… Will I sleep today? Rest has been coming later and later. Even though it was lights out after 1pm yesterday afternoon it was well after 4 or 5 when I finally fell asl...


4 days ago

Government Red Tape

When I got off work this morning (Tuesday) I went by the bankruptcy lawyer’s office to drop off all my paper work. Now I just need to come up with $1,400 to make my other debt go away. Ugh! See...


5 days ago

I'm Gonna Worry

I hope the two strays are some place warm right now. It’s really cold outside…


6 days ago

Back To The Fold

Almost thirty minutes into my shift and already wish I was back home. I feel fine tonight. Just an overall sense of blah-ness. Tried this broccoli pasta tonight now I can’t get the taste of g...


7 days ago

Lunch Was Good

One of the strays has been sleeping on the body pillow on the back porch. ‘Tis cute. I’ve gotten caught up on rest last night and today. Needed it. Off again tonight so will probably screw aro...


November 09, 2019

Whore For $

I’m off.. So bored I’d gladly work overtime.


November 07, 2019

Oi Vey!

I feel like shit tonight. Upset belly (gotta lay off the hot wings), crappy sleep and general feeling of lethargy and not wanting to be at work. New schedule went up today and us third shifters d...


November 06, 2019

Headaches


November 05, 2019

All I Wanted Was A Pepsi

Just one Pepsi! And she wouldn’t give it to me! Just a Pepsi! Substitute Pepsi for PS4 time and we’re talking. My goal when I got off was to pay my car insurance, go home and game. Well, the loa...


November 02, 2019

Stolen Survey

What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie? Green Mile If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done? Meh, nothing. Do you have a completely irrational fear? Snails. I don’t kn...


November 02, 2019

Effin' Temp Service

I normally get paid on Thursdays. Well I checked my account and nothing. I figured since it was Halloween (I know it’s not a government holiday but benefit of the doubt) I’d chill and wait. Mi...


October 31, 2019

Fuck It Got Cold!

It was like high 60’s when I went to work last night. A little cool when I got off this morning. Wake up to it being 38. I’m gonna freeze my ass off on smoke breaks tonight. Will definitely w...


My hand was forced due to severe pain so I finally went to the dentist. Root canal and a crown. 😑 Luckily I got some antibiotics and pain pills. Only ten, though. FUCKING opioid crisis. Used...


October 27, 2019

Heat The Feet

I got out of bed around ten something. Went to Wendy’s for food. The amount of money and time I spent in the drive-thru to get lukewarm fries…I was pissed. Currently laying on the couch with ...


October 26, 2019

Try To See It Once My Way


October 25, 2019

Yeah That's Right

You’re reduced to tears. You’ve pissed off everyone. You’re alone. Get over it. Dad died why don’t you.


October 25, 2019

IT FINALLY HITS ME

My father’s parents died in a car accident. He watched them buried on his tenth birthday. I’m the asshole.


October 25, 2019

Father

December 19th, 1948 - October 25th, 1999 It’s been twenty years today that my dad passed away. I have a lot of animosity towards him but out of all the negativity I do miss him. Especially now. ...


October 24, 2019

A Friend Said...

You just act like a bitch in heat who’s sniffing around anything that looks at you twice. I’d laugh if that wasn’t true. I’m going to bury my head in the sand and count the seconds till I get o...


October 22, 2019

Will I Sleep?

Full belly, check. 20 MG melatonin, check. Cold dark room (somewhat warm but whateves), check. Tired, check. Oh who am I kidding, it’s 12:42 PM and I’m wide awake. 1:08 PM Great. Now my boss jus...


I’m not sick but I don’t feel so hot. My body feels weak and lethargic and I personally want to crawl back into bed and sleep the night away. I don’t know what it is but here lately when I do f...


When you try to say you’re getting better but your actions are a textbook example… Seems like most things I involve myself in turn to shit. At my doing no less. I really fucked up this time… I’...


Book Description

I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.

Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.

It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.

I.
Am.
Robot.

Tell.
Me.
What.
Is.
Next.

I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.

So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.

I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
DON’T MAKE ME DO THEIR FUCKING SHIT THE LAST HOUR I’M THERE!
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.

But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
OK.
I’m a democrat.
Lifelong.
BUT FUCK YOU OBAMA!
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.

People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.

This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.

I welcome ProseBox into my life.