J.E. ⋅ 40

“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”

Philip K. Dick

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January 31, 2023

Hurt in Hello

I want to scream into a pillow. Part of my right foot is swollen from a really bad gout flare up. This is yet another reason I shouldn’t drink. Seriously, the whole joint around my big toe is ...

January 30, 2023

Yet Another Update in Hello

Take out for lunch. Order of wings and shrimp with lobster sauce. Because I’ve only eaten like one meal in three days it filled me for hours and more of my ickiness went away. Hands are still ...

January 30, 2023

Night Sweats in Dreams And Nightmares

Realistically it’s any time you sweat. The body is detoxing from the alcohol and makes you sweat a lot during that time. Hence the term, “drying out.” I smell, bad. Before i go shower this ear...

January 30, 2023

I'm Not Sleeping Tonight in Hello

I dozed off a little after 9 and slept almost an hour. I’d like more than that but my brain won’t shut up. Finally managed to eat a bowl of cereal so my stomach isn’t aching anymore. I’m going...

January 29, 2023

Somewhat Better in Hello

I still haven’t eaten yet. Got a 2 Liter of Sprite and slowly sipping on that right now. I’m really tired. I dozed for like thirty minutes this afternoon but I can’t get comfy now. It’s been...

January 29, 2023

Burning Up in Hello

I’ve got a fever and have thrown up a few times. Someone bring me a Sprite? I’ve got the fan on but still feel hot. Ugh Hours later… Managed to take a shower. Still haven’t eaten and I’ve got ...

January 29, 2023

Fudge-tastic! in Hello

Woke up and now can’t get back to sleep. It’s not even 4 AM.

January 28, 2023

😝 in Hello

Slather me in pancake syrup and stick a dildo up my butt. I’m horny. And in typical fashion, thanks to the meds, I can’t get off. It’s 3:33 AM and I’ve got a crusty face from drooling during s...

January 24, 2023

Begs And Achin' in Hello

Both of my knees today suck. Ain’t it the truth.

January 23, 2023

Deleted Last Entry in Hello

Cause reasons. It’s 6:38 AM and I’m counting down till 11. My aunt is coming down so mom, her and I are going to Ichiban Japanese Steakhouse. The food is delicious! It’s one of those places wh...

January 21, 2023

Still Disturbs Me in Hello

Herbie Hancock - Rockit It’s the unnatural movements. Weirded me out as a child. Still does.

January 20, 2023

Thunderball in Hello

Just finished the novel. Pretty good. I love the casual racism/sexism in these books. In this politically correct world reading stuff from the 50’s makes me crack up.

January 19, 2023

Clarification About Court in Hello

Okay. A continuation was filed so my next court date is March 15th. The judge I saw today was a fill in since the other is out. My lawyer explained to me that the regular judge is big on “ment...

January 18, 2023

Sleep Finally in Dreams And Nightmares

After court I came home, got out of my suit and into my boxers, turned on the fan and stretched out. Around noonish I crashed, hard. In my deep sleep I had a dream that a group of people along ...

January 18, 2023

Interesting Turn Of Events in Hello

So, since my only conviction was more than ten years ago, I’m only looking at probation if he can’t get it dismissed. Sweet. Huge weight off my shoulders. However, it was embarrassing walking...

January 18, 2023

Not Sleeping Tonight in Hello

4:08 AM. Court at 8:30. Bit nervous.

January 15, 2023

Nobby Knee in Hello

I’m pretty sure I knocked my knee when tossing and turning in my sleep, it hurts. The swelling is gone but it’s still really tender. I’d like to trade my almost 40 year old body for my 20 year...

January 14, 2023

Kitty Broth in Hello

Lily helped herself to the broth of my soup I ate a little while ago. Silly kitty. Nothing is laid out for dinner so it’s up to me to pick out a place. I’m not really sure what I want. It’s on...

January 13, 2023

That Wasn't Good in Hello

We went to our usual Chinese restaurant yesterday. None of the food tasted right. Still not feeling 100%. Our favorite waiter is moving to Virginia at the end of the month so mom tipped him go...

January 11, 2023

Feel Awful in Hello

I can’t seem to shake this effing cold. Woke up feeling awful. Now when I cough my stomach muscles cramp up. Screw this noise!

January 10, 2023

I Want Jail Time in Hello

It’s the break/vacation I’ve been needing. No phone, one TV, people ready to beat you down. Psych Ward 2.0

January 09, 2023

Twenty Plus Years Later in Hello

This album means a lot to me. First one I truly listened to after moving into this house. I still struggle for sleep…

January 09, 2023

Snotty in Hello

I’m getting better but now hacking up all the mucus. Mmm mmm good! Keep having a reoccurring dream where I’m going into public places with no shoes on. Weird. Speaking of public places ma and ...

January 06, 2023

Rested Yet Tired in Hello

I’ve slept good the last two nights, thanks to the meds and being sick. But I’m still just so tired. Granted I did do dishes and two loads of laundry today. Just wanna curl up and sleep. Final...

January 05, 2023

Quote in Hello

Sobriety doesn’t open the gates of Heaven and let’s you in. It opens the gates of Hell and let’s you out. Haven’t had a cigarette in two days and I’m fiending. My throat hurts too effin’ much to...

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