J.E. ⋅ 40
“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”
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I want to scream into a pillow. Part of my right foot is swollen from a really bad gout flare up. This is yet another reason I shouldn’t drink. Seriously, the whole joint around my big toe is ...
Yet Another Update in Hello
Take out for lunch. Order of wings and shrimp with lobster sauce. Because I’ve only eaten like one meal in three days it filled me for hours and more of my ickiness went away. Hands are still ...
Night Sweats in Dreams And Nightmares
Realistically it’s any time you sweat. The body is detoxing from the alcohol and makes you sweat a lot during that time. Hence the term, “drying out.” I smell, bad. Before i go shower this ear...
I'm Not Sleeping Tonight in Hello
I dozed off a little after 9 and slept almost an hour. I’d like more than that but my brain won’t shut up. Finally managed to eat a bowl of cereal so my stomach isn’t aching anymore. I’m going...
Somewhat Better in Hello
I still haven’t eaten yet. Got a 2 Liter of Sprite and slowly sipping on that right now. I’m really tired. I dozed for like thirty minutes this afternoon but I can’t get comfy now. It’s been...
Burning Up in Hello
I’ve got a fever and have thrown up a few times. Someone bring me a Sprite? I’ve got the fan on but still feel hot. Ugh Hours later… Managed to take a shower. Still haven’t eaten and I’ve got ...
Fudge-tastic! in Hello
Woke up and now can’t get back to sleep. It’s not even 4 AM.
Slather me in pancake syrup and stick a dildo up my butt. I’m horny. And in typical fashion, thanks to the meds, I can’t get off. It’s 3:33 AM and I’ve got a crusty face from drooling during s...
Begs And Achin' in Hello
Both of my knees today suck. Ain’t it the truth.
Deleted Last Entry in Hello
Cause reasons. It’s 6:38 AM and I’m counting down till 11. My aunt is coming down so mom, her and I are going to Ichiban Japanese Steakhouse. The food is delicious! It’s one of those places wh...
Still Disturbs Me in Hello
Herbie Hancock - Rockit It’s the unnatural movements. Weirded me out as a child. Still does.
Thunderball in Hello
Just finished the novel. Pretty good. I love the casual racism/sexism in these books. In this politically correct world reading stuff from the 50’s makes me crack up.
Clarification About Court in Hello
Okay. A continuation was filed so my next court date is March 15th. The judge I saw today was a fill in since the other is out. My lawyer explained to me that the regular judge is big on “ment...
Sleep Finally in Dreams And Nightmares
After court I came home, got out of my suit and into my boxers, turned on the fan and stretched out. Around noonish I crashed, hard. In my deep sleep I had a dream that a group of people along ...
Interesting Turn Of Events in Hello
So, since my only conviction was more than ten years ago, I’m only looking at probation if he can’t get it dismissed. Sweet. Huge weight off my shoulders. However, it was embarrassing walking...
Not Sleeping Tonight in Hello
4:08 AM. Court at 8:30. Bit nervous.
Nobby Knee in Hello
I’m pretty sure I knocked my knee when tossing and turning in my sleep, it hurts. The swelling is gone but it’s still really tender. I’d like to trade my almost 40 year old body for my 20 year...
Kitty Broth in Hello
Lily helped herself to the broth of my soup I ate a little while ago. Silly kitty. Nothing is laid out for dinner so it’s up to me to pick out a place. I’m not really sure what I want. It’s on...
That Wasn't Good in Hello
We went to our usual Chinese restaurant yesterday. None of the food tasted right. Still not feeling 100%. Our favorite waiter is moving to Virginia at the end of the month so mom tipped him go...
Feel Awful in Hello
I can’t seem to shake this effing cold. Woke up feeling awful. Now when I cough my stomach muscles cramp up. Screw this noise!
I Want Jail Time in Hello
It’s the break/vacation I’ve been needing. No phone, one TV, people ready to beat you down. Psych Ward 2.0
Twenty Plus Years Later in Hello
This album means a lot to me. First one I truly listened to after moving into this house. I still struggle for sleep…
I’m getting better but now hacking up all the mucus. Mmm mmm good! Keep having a reoccurring dream where I’m going into public places with no shoes on. Weird. Speaking of public places ma and ...
Rested Yet Tired in Hello
I’ve slept good the last two nights, thanks to the meds and being sick. But I’m still just so tired. Granted I did do dishes and two loads of laundry today. Just wanna curl up and sleep. Final...
Sobriety doesn’t open the gates of Heaven and let’s you in. It opens the gates of Hell and let’s you out. Haven’t had a cigarette in two days and I’m fiending. My throat hurts too effin’ much to...
