J.E. ⋅ 38

“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”

Philip K. Dick

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August 03, 2021

Freeman Strut in Hello

Court was at one PM today. My amazing lawyer was able to get the charges dismissed. Still had to pay almost $400 in court costs. I actually thought about doing the Joker dance out of the court...

August 03, 2021

Sir Digby Chicken Caeser in Hello

A friend introduced me to That Mitchell And Webb Look a while back. I can’t help but crack up during these skits.

Been playing God of War, listening to music. Going through the motions rather. Two things at once while a third, reflecting, has brought me here. Came to face a harsh reality on a few things I ...

July 31, 2021

Where Is My Mind? in Hello

Don’t exactly know if I slept today. Called the boss around eleven AM to let him know insomnia took hold of me and I wouldn’t be making it in for OT day. Mom called out due to pain. Ended up ...

July 30, 2021

3:30 AM in Hello

I need to lotion up, my skin is dry. My back has been hurting throughout the day and I don’t know why. Working tomorrow to make up for Monday ‘cause I ate up my sick leave. Bah! It won’t be so...

July 28, 2021

5:10 AM in Hello

Spent the rest of the day relaxing, taking my BP meds and slept a few good hours. Around 10:30 ish I started a book and just about five minutes ago finished said book. Roughly six to seven hour...

July 27, 2021

Physical Health in Hello

Visit to the doc got me scared. BP 190 over 107. As of today, I’m no longer a smoker or drinker. I’ll work on all the bad food later. For a guy with a history of self harm, I don’t wanna die. N...

But I can’t ‘cause I’m a drug abusing alcoholic… -NOFX I Am An Alcoholic I poised the question in my last entry why oh why do I do this to myself. Actually have been thinking of an answer to that...

July 19, 2021

Stinky Poo in Hello

I’m using the restroom the office people use. It’s air conditioned. XD If there is one uncomfortable feeling I hate it’s being sweaty while doing the business. I was stupid, again, last night an...

July 14, 2021

Soup To Nuts in Hello

I woke up early this morning with diarrhea. Then had to again around one PM. Then two-thirty. Puked my Arby’s sandwich on my way out the door to work. Real sour stomach so yeah, I had to call ...

July 11, 2021

Haven't We Met Before? in Hello

Ok. My super got fired. A week or so later… I was first put in assembly I worked less than a half day and left. Called out a lot and went on a bender…for more than four days…straight. Went back t...

The crap at work threw me into a dark downward spiral. Between the heat, the change up in what I’d be doing and a few other factors I jumped right into a bottle and stayed there. Every Off Day (...

July 08, 2021

The Stuff I Think Of in Hello

I’ve been listening to too much Bill Burr at work. I’d like to see a race between a little person and a fat kid with Down’ s. Not on the sidelines either. Adjust a go pro to focus on their head...

July 06, 2021

Fudge in Hello

The fourth came and went. Went to my brother’s for a cookout. His wife had a nurse friend over with a highly autistic sixteen year old. Decent kid. Apparently he feels comfortable at my bro’s...

June 25, 2021

Good Ol' Insomnia in Hello

Got off at two. Showered, ate, relaxed on couch. Set alarm for noon as OT on Friday starts at one thirty. Here it is, eight thirty-seven and wide the fuck awake. I already called work and ga...

June 24, 2021

Timer's in Hello

When bored at home, set a timer for a specific amount of time then, see how much you can accomplish in said time. I learned that from a ADHD YouTube video. I absolutely despise my dirty kitchen ...

June 23, 2021

Rum Dipped Cigars in Hello

Last pay day I made a trip to Humidor Pipe Shop and bought a pack of Al Capone’s. European style mini cigars. Yeah, I quit smoking but these are a treat to me. Right now I’m kicking back after...

June 22, 2021

Cause For Alarm in Hello

First, the old super gets fired. Second, the QC got (who came in way too many times noticeably messed up on drugs) got driven to the urgent care one night for an instant drug test. Fired. Today o...

June 20, 2021

Father's Day in Hello

My dad cared about his friends and his own self being. Then he died. Best gift ever. I do miss you, just not as much as you think I would.

June 19, 2021

Aches And Pains in Hello

Worked pretty hard Thursday night. Woke up Friday hurting. Pains still consist now but taking meds for it. My skin is hot to the touch and my heart is thudding in my chest. Yeah, I’m not feelin...

June 17, 2021

Differential Dimensions in Hello

I’d bone the Parker actor from the State Farm commercials. During my hiatus from life the past…seven?…days, I’ve been reading a Philip K. Dick short story collection. I really enjoy his work, ...

Denial. You experience a sense of free fall. Fuck it I got nothing to say right now.

June 14, 2021

Go Figure in Hello

8:30 AM. Discharged. Detox under medical supervision? In a hospital? Haw! I’m pissed…

Peacock is coming to pick me up and drop me off at the hospital. No. I’ve not cut myself. I just need time to dry out and rethink my life. See y’all in a few days.

June 13, 2021

Molotov Cocktail Party in Hello

The places that still stand to us. Where bad things happened. We’ll do a community bbq where we torch that shit to the ground. Use the embers for bbq. We can eat this hurt then shit it out an...

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