J.E. ⋅ 41
“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”
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Cat Dreams in Hello
Last night got better, sorta. Thanks to all who noted The drink craving passed but my body ached in certain spots. Spent the rest of the night with the heating pad, PlayStation and cats. At ...
My Own Private Hell in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
I! WANT! BOOZE! Craving hardcore right now…
Ow My Ass! in Hello
Actually my hip. Injection area, yeah yeah. I FINALLY found a pack of Al Capone’s at Walgreens. Hm, they’ll sell you meds to make you better and yet sell tobacco… Today I’m cleaning. Ugh. On t...
Alvin, Simon, Theodore! in Hello
Do Do Do do do do Do do Do do do do I’ve had that freakin’ theme song stuck in my head for over an hour now. Today I had my monthly shot. Surprisingly the injection site isn’t hurting. Yet. Speak...
STOP ITCHING GOD DAMNIT!!! in Hello
I’m going to switch laundry detergents. That’s the last thing I can think of that makes me itch so much. Today I had my exit interview with the outpatient counselor Bene. Got my certificate t...
I Woke Up In Someone Else's Bed in Dreams And Nightmares
But I was dreamin’ of you… Stephanie, I miss her. Eric, I miss my best friend. In my dream they cut contact with me so they could date and not hurt my feelings. In reality Steph became a bartend...
I Want You To Play With My Ding-A-Ling in Hello
Yup, been up over 24 hours again. Insomnia sucks. Phone says it’s 18F out. I really wanted to drink the loneliness away last night. After I wrote yesterday’s entry I got lost in thought, yet aga...
Body And Soul, I'm A Freak in Hello
The Silverchair song Freak got stuck in my head earlier. There was an ex who was obsessed with that band. If all went, “according to plan,” we would have probably ended up married. Instead I r...
Are You French Cause You're A Peein' in Hello
Between sweet tea and water I have consumed a lot of liquid tonight. Seems like every ten minutes I have to pee. The salad and steak was awesome tonight. I’ve gotten in the habit of putting a s...
Sleep, Plz? in Hello
I’m beat. Been up off and on since about six this morning. It finally happened, I went to the liquor store twice. In search of a freakin’ pack of Al Capone’s that is! I’m craving a cigarillo. ...
Sammich N Pretzels in Hello
When we went to pick up food Saturday night for the big freeze, I wish I took the initiative and got more than dinner foods. All I have for lunches/snacks are ham sandwich meat, soups and pretze...
Have You Seen My Testicles? in Hello
They froze off. I’ve got the drafty spots in the doors plugged with sheets and dish towels. It’s 11:10 AM and 25F out. Smokey in my lap, space heater on and I’m fully dressed. Normally I’d jus...
You Ever Have That Moment in Hello
I was walking into the kitchen after finishing off some butterscotch pudding. Not paying attention I tossed the spoon into the garbage can and the container into the sink 🤦♂️ My sleeping sched...
Your Favourite Little Rascal? in Hello
Very tired. Slept a few hours this afternoon but then I was pestered by mom to do I’ve her to the store. Seriously, what was the point of her eye surgeries? I got to craving hardcore. Tried ta...
Paper Towns in Hello
I just finished the John Green novel Paper Towns. For a book aimed at teenagers it was really deep. Bittersweet ending. Definitely one that’s going to have me in my head, thinking the rest of t...
Frigidly Cold in Hello
It’s only 33 F out but it’s the kinda cold that’ll blister your face. Go figure my hip has been hurting because of which. Mom isn’t feeling so well either. I take a butter knife and an old sh...
I Don't Feel So Good in Hello
No, I didn’t drink last night. Yet my stomach still feels uneasy. I hate dealing with nausea. Maybe I really shouldn’t be watching Andrew Zimmern eating frogs… 🤢🤮
White Knuckle Ride in Hello
I want booze tonight. Badly. Fuckthisfuckthisfuckthisfuckthisfuckthisfuckthis
Butters the Bean is a YouTube channel that follows the daily exploits of a orange and white tabby cat from Pennsylvania. I’ve been subscribed for years. Poor Butters passed away today. Truly a s...
Pushing Mushrooms Up The Stairs in Hello
So… Tired… My sleep schedule has been absolute shite lately. I slept in till AFTER 7 PM last night. Even went to bed early(ish) for me. I stayed up all night to try and correct it so here I am...
Good Eatin' in Hello
Ritz crackers, cayenne hot sauce and sardines. I’ve been in a mood today. Er… that’s not right. My mind is in another place and I can’t figure out where that is. I’m kinda wanting to get outsi...
Another Sobriety Post in Hello
70 days sober or 30 away from 100 days. It really doesn’t feel like it. Where’d the time go? Hours later… My mouth is on 🔥! Ate a sandwich of buffalo chicken and garlic bologna with Zapp’s Hott...
Doctors, Lawyers And Indian Chiefs in Dreams And Nightmares
Guess I should write this out before I forget. Had a really strange dream. I was dealing with legal crap again, my dad was in it with some drunk I didn’t know and two law firms that were represe...
If You Guys Are Really Us What Number Are We Thinking Of? in Hello
69 days sober!
If You're Us, What Number Are We Thinking Of? in Hello
69 days sober!
