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“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”

Philip K. Dick

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August 04, 2023

5:44 AM And I'm Hungry in Hello

Typical. Woke up and couldn’t get back to sleep. The thunderstorm is too loud for me to even attempt to try. ☹️ Screw this noise, I want a smoke and food. No bacon and eggs…maybe another gril...

August 04, 2023

I'm A Barbie Girl in Hello

Finally dozed off sometime close to three and got up around ten. So groggy. Hell, it’s almost eight now and I’m still frickin’ beat. Mom and I went to Target to walk around then Dollar Tree, ...

August 03, 2023

Well Done (12:23 AM) in Hello

I over did it today. Since I’ve finally relaxed and gotten comfy my back and biceps hurt. When I got up to pee my left knee screamed in protest. At least I got those two jungle bushes on the s...

This time last year, what was happening in your life? At the exact moment I would have been at work. Did you/will you have coffee or some other form of caffeine today? Iced coffee and Mt. Dew Ice...

August 03, 2023

Shoe Buddy! in Hello

Shoe buddy, I sure am tired. Topic at group was a recovery video. Guy was 28, drinking three pints of vodka daily. Yadda yadda, got into inpatient and died seventeen days later. It hit me HARD...

August 02, 2023

Those Fucking Dogs Again! in Hello

Well, one of them this time. I found out how they’re getting through the fence. A small hole. Tomorrow I’m cutting down some branches, taking the twigs and leaves off, intertwining them into ...

August 02, 2023

Plot Thickens... in Hello

Just got a call from Wellstone to reschedule my one on one tomorrow. When I said one PM would be fine they said I’d be with another counselor. I ask what about the first one, “He no longer is e...

August 02, 2023

Foodz in Hello

After group I kept thinking Taco Bell or a Philly pizza from Marco’s. I had to steel myself from that way of thinking. Instead I came home and ate a sandwich with some Cheetos. Group’s subject ...

August 01, 2023

Smashed Potato Stew 👎 in Hello

As the title says, the stew was a bust. It tastes good, pretty thick. But it lacked something. I was thinking like cubed ham or something along those lines. Mom ate part of it but is now maki...

August 01, 2023

Too Fat For Yard Work in Hello

Was gonna mow the backyard today but first I had to chop up a branch that fell off during the last major storm. Instead of hassling with extension cords and the electric chainsaw, I busted out m...

July 31, 2023

The Recipes in Hello

https://www.bettycrocker.com/recipes/gluten-free-hearty-chicken-pot-pie/78b0ab8f-a1c1-43a3-8258-e0bb35751d55 https://www.bettycrocker.com/recipes/smashed-potato-stew/d60915d5-b7bb-4c81-b130-c9925...

July 30, 2023

Fat Heisenberg in Hello

Shaved the dome earlier. With my goatee, glasses and bald head I affectionately call myself Fat Heisenberg. ☺️. I’m pretty sure I’ve written that here before. Woke up at six only after a few ho...

July 30, 2023

Feeling Honest in Hello

So the court fiasco… I failed my last two drug/alcohol screenings. Because of which I was piss tested on the spot. I got high earlier in the week and drank the night before court. I know! I k...

DOING SHIT TODAY!!! Rest and relaxation, not leaving the house Hours later… Piggy Piggy oink oink So far I’ve eaten a ham and roast beef sandwich, a slice from last night’s meatloaf and I just po...

July 29, 2023

Meatloaf Recipe (Update) in Hello

Instead of copying it out of the cookbook I found the recipe online. https://www.bettycrocker.com/recipes/gluten-free-glazed-meatloaf/39128993-c6ee-493a-b67a-0cdc8977f2fd 6:24 PM Hot damn was tha...

Court today. It didn’t go too well but I’m still a free man. Suffice to say I don’t want to talk about it. My ritual for after court is to hit up Tenders and get lunch. Swear to everything hol...

July 28, 2023

I'm Melting! Melting! in Hello

Holy Flying Spaghetti Monster is it fucking hot outside! Just got in from running errands and now I am NOT leaving the house again. High today is 97. It’s almost 1 PM and it’s already 92. Pi...

July 27, 2023

Lazy Day in Hello

Didn’t feel well this morning so I messaged the counselor I’m staying in. Monday and Tuesday I’ve had a bunch of things to do after therapy so today is my lazy day. I’m not doing anything excep...

July 25, 2023

My Gums Are On Fire in Hello

Went to the taco truck after group. Loaded them down with the red and green chili sauce. Mmm burning deliciousness. The order comes with four and now I want four more. After mom eats we’re hea...

July 24, 2023

Stir Fry-Day On Sunday in Hello

Ended up going to Publix, yet again. They had a BOGO sale on some fruit mom wanted so I loaded up on blueberries and strawberries. Also got a salad mix, baby spinach, more zucchini, fresh mushr...

Play on titles. Operation Market Garden was a WWII offense in the Netherlands and the Chik-Fil-A part is about their market salad. Needless to say where we had lunch today. I had to take her t...

No punchline. That’s just my old crew and I going out to party.

Had a very surreal dream where I relieved my first day of kindergarten but with the knowledge I have now. It was…interesting to say the least. The teacher thought I was crazy. The thunderstorm w...

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