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“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”

Philip K. Dick

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June 12, 2021

Slather Me In Sauce in Hello

After watching Diners, Drive-Ins and Dives last night I’m craving ribs. Extra sauce, please! I dozed off somewhere after one AM. Woke up at four. Couldn’t get back to sleep. Now it’s six fift...

June 11, 2021

You Pussy in Dreams And Nightmares

Write an angry letter and sleep on it. I called in. Went to my regular doc about the numb finger and calf muscle. Covid isn’t fully understood, taste and smell could be dead nerves like my leg. ...

June 10, 2021

Why I'm Angry in Hello

This 33 year old kid aka supervisor went on a tirade and stimatizing mental health. Shut up. Go to work. Get over it. Go back in the shadows and everyone will be happy. I will not work throug...

June 10, 2021

Angry in Hello

I love that when I come home from a shit night at work I can’t bitch about it like she does. I’m all told is Well you know you can’t quit. No fucking shit you dumbass nitwit! You get to bitch...

June 09, 2021

Drenched Yet Again in Hello

.6:36 PM On first break sitting outside in the loading zone. It’s a bit overcast and a slight breeze is passing by. It feels good. Tonight is vacuuming and alcohol wiping every crook, cranny an...

June 08, 2021

Brain Droppings #1 in Hello

A porno titled Cum On Eileen. Our protagonist, Eileen, does a gangbang with the group Dexys Midnight Runners.

Since we’re out material I’ve been in assembly since Friday. I managed to make up an excuse and leave early then but no dice today. There is poor ventilation, they use a lot of chemicals (with ...

June 07, 2021

Toadies in Hello

I’m still here. Dry? Ha! Don’t make me laugh! Seriously. Try. I’m too far down the drain of not giving a shit. Just let me die. That’s all I want. Life is hard. Kill me. With biscuits. And bbq. I...

June 05, 2021

Ballistic in Hello

The outer space station I have been dreaming about. And the pirate ship. And my grandparents house. Just nuke us. I’m tired of dreaming.

June 02, 2021

Dry June And Gossip in Hello

Back in the saddle again. When I got to work I learned that my supervisor getting fired had been the talk of the town. Coworker and I came to a conclusion, we’re pretty sure a few folks knew he ...

June 01, 2021

So Much For Being Lazy in Hello

Well, I managed to leave the house today. Mom and I made a day of it. First to Dollar Tree to get some fake flowers to put on granny and uncle’s graves. Then off to the cemetery itself. So wei...

May 31, 2021

Toasty in Hello

Wrapped in a blanket, chilling on the couch. All is right in my world this morning. Nice ‘n comfy. I’m off for the holiday with no plans other than grilling tonight. Part of me wants to find s...

May 29, 2021

It Was Hot And Sticky in Hello

Like a wet fart in July. I still want a smoke.

May 28, 2021

Pitchforks And Torches in Hello

There is a dietary supplement that got banned statewide last month. “Gas station dope,” they call it. My supervisor got fired today for using it. This is the boss when I told him I was havin...

It was close to summer time. I was with Erin, her bf Max, and Jessica. Erin and Max wanted to go to the park on the mountain and smoke a joint. I was all for that but Jess had taken a dose of ...

May 25, 2021

Shekkin' Booty in Drugs 'n Drunk

Not really. 4:58 AM Awake but really tired. I’m in bed, not the couch. I’ve been reading the NOFX biography The Hepatitis Bathtub And Other Stories. Have said and will continue to say (whenever ...

May 24, 2021

Strange Behavior in Hello

I had a weird anxiety attack yesterday. Happened a little before dinner. I felt off. Kinda like having an out of body experience. Then I started shaking like I was either really hungry or the...

Visually appeasing cat liter. Are you fucking kidding me? So, I never did get to sleep after I wrote last night. At some point I was in bed and Smokey came in to headbutt me and want love. I e...

May 22, 2021

Owie My Esophagus in Hello

I’ve been hacking up snot ‘n’ mucus for two days now. “Tobacco smoke slows the normal movement of the tiny hairs (cilia) that move mucus out of your lungs. When you stop smoking, the cilia beco...

May 21, 2021

Lord Mayor Of Partytown in Hello

The nicotine withdrawal wasn’t as bad tonight. No irritation or aggressive behaviors or thoughts. I just wanted one after food or during boredom. Just because the worst of it is over, there is ...

Boss got the bright idea of deep cleaning the machines. Not just a spray and wipe down. Nope. Here’s a step ladder, here’s a can of degreaser and a metal spatula. Have fun. There is YEARS wor...

May 19, 2021

Ball Of Anger in Hello

I’ve not had a cigarette in almost 48 hours. Made the decision yesterday to stop dragging my feet feeling sorry for myself and DO something to improve my perceived image of me. But dear lawd, th...

May 16, 2021

Good Meal in Hello

1 14 oz can of salmon. 1/4 c cornmeal. 1/4 c flour. 1 egg. 3 tablsp mayo. (Personally I didn’t use this.) Flake salmon in bowl, add ingredients and mix well. Form mixture into patties. Cook in ...

May 09, 2021

Cried In Bed Today in Hello

I’m just so lost today… I dreamed of her and it hurt all over again.

May 08, 2021

Tip Me On My Side in Hello

And roll me out the door. Friday’s Festivities We all pitched in and the supervisor grilled us steaks. Complete with salad kits and a baked potato with all the fixin’s. I’m on the last five minu...

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