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depression and anxiety and unhappiness, but oh how I hide it well from everyone because although I love everyone in my life they never get it. I say some small things about having a bad self est...

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Merry Christmas to you my lovely friends. May your days be filled with love, joy, and peace. I will be celebrating with my mom who has been in the nursing home since her latest surgery at the be...

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Happy Thanksgiving to you all. Although this year had many ups and downs, I have so much to be thankful for. Today will be the first Thanksgiving without my grandpa so that will be hard, but I ...

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So yeah life has been incredibly crazy. This is just an update to say I am alive and hanging in there, happy at times, sad at times, angry at times. Crazy most of the time. I went on my 3 coun...

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So I came back from my trip and it has almost been a month already and I can’t believe it. My trip was amazing and bittersweet all in one. Life continues to be moving too fast for me to ever ge...

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Well in a few hours I will be headed to Denmark, Sweden, and Germany. I am visiting friends and attending another friend’s wedding. I got everything done I needed to before leaving by the skin ...

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So much has been going on, nothing bad, just busy busy busy. My title is in reference to finally getting a clear answer that I will never have a future with A even though he loves me. It is tim...

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That is what I woke to the day after grandpa died, and once again when my best friend’s father passed away 5 days later. My life continues to go on and it will still have highs and lows and I wi...

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My best friend’s father died unexpectedly today, I don’t know how to help her right now other than offering my support which is all I have in me to give right now. I want a do-over for 2017. I p...

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to say what you want to say, to do what you want to do. As I kissed my grandfather goodbye tonight on his forehead, it may be the last time I will have seen him alive. The hospice people say the...

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that’s what I am.

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My mom just texted me telling me to call my grandpa every night even if it is just for two minutes he keeps declining, she keeps getting worse, I am getting in a funk and am doing nothing to help...

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your mom looks at you with tears in her eyes, barely able to stand from the pain and says honestly Maria some days it would be better if I just died. I said don’t say that, but I know she is in s...

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So I usually don’t make resolutions because I don’t keep them so I made some goals for this year. Number one being happier, number 2 trying to fix my finances as I let it all slide with everythi...

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Just wanted to wish you all a happy new year. May your 2017 be filled with love, happiness, and peace. I know we have all had our joys and sorrows this past year and I am hoping for each one of ...

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I have a lot to say and I am running on little sleep over the past few days so I will say this…Merry Christmas whatever you chose to celebrate or not celebrate today, I hope your day was filled w...

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Having a loved one die with no warning or watching them slowly slip away from you? I have been absent from writing because life has continued to be tough, but I am no longer feeling depressed. I...

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One thing I do is paint to help me feel better, here is one of my latest.

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I have passed my breaking point. I can’t keep going on the way I am. I have no one to tell this too because I can’t worry my family any more than they are already dealing with. My friends don’t g...

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So my week ended with hearing this tonight “You are what you have to offer. If you aren’t getting what you want - that’s on you, not them. If you don’t know how to get what you want, it’s on you ...

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I just feel as if I am nothing and mean nothing. I just want to walk away and never look back. I can’t seem to do or say anything right.

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So I haven’t written in forever although I do keep up with all of you. I will do separate paragraphs on the main topics I need to update. First the evil pastor now ex-pastor. She managed to dri...

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I have been going through a lot and have been very stressed lately and in the midst of that chaos, I thought I had met someone from a dating site and we talked non stop for almost three weeks and...

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So I still have a ton to write and things have changed since the last time I said that, but the most prevalent thing in my life this past week was being a bridesmaid for the 9th time in my life f...

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I am down and out so much to say over the AJ situation, yet not wanting to put it down on paper. Church things have been crazy as well and have a ton about that to write as well. I am sad. I am ...

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