Always Laughing ⋅

I am a work in progress who loves to travel and make people laugh.

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So my client’s summer hours got approved so I won’t lose anymore until school in the fall, but by then I can pick up another case. One less stress for now

So this just means my feelings are coming at me 1000% tonight and I’m definitely on emotion overload. Got some potentially bad news about my already low hours for work this summer, the situation ...

Just had a dream where I was a spy and Tim Allen was my boss and he sent me on a mission to rescue someone. I had to go skydiving and lost my shoe in the jump. Where I landed was like a huge gard...

That’s me…I saw the boy last night and wasn’t brave enough to stand up and ask for what I want…my only defense which is a poor one is that he asked about things that made me feel he’s more commit...

I survived turning 41 had some highs and some lows. Overall though it was a good birthday, here’s hoping this year is my best yet.

So my bday the older I get makes me get very emotional. I’ll be 41 in a few days and I’m not coping well. In general my life is for the most part okay to good on average and there are days that ...

April 19, 2021

Short one in Torridaussity Two

Been having nightmares a lot lately. All night last night was filled with them. I’m overly tired today. Life has been a Rollercoaster lately. I plan on a real update soon. I’m proud I’m managing...

March 08, 2021

Update in Torridaussity Two

Long overdue and much needed update. So the last I wrote I got potentially life altering news from the man I’ve been seeing. It pulled the rug out from me. I was vague and still won’t share exac...

Tomorrow I hope that I will get some peace about my situation that transpired in January. I will know how to formulate a plan to move forward. I’ve not been myself since January and it’s been ha...

I’m ready for bed. I was doing better but the weekends are hard nothing to stop me from overthinking every thing. Sleep doesn’t always help because even my dreams have been mentally exhausting. A...

From under me. Got a text a TEXT that no one wants to get from someone they’re seeing or saw....I can’t even process it right now. I feel like I did 3 years ago. I just am lost and broken. I can’...

January 10, 2021

She's gone in Torridaussity Two

My aunt passed at 9:04 pm. Covid claimed another victim. She’s at peace and with her beloved husband in heaven.

January 09, 2021

She's weaker in Torridaussity Two

My aunt is getting worse today moved her up to 5 liters of oxygen, sleeps almost all day. Isn’t eating very much, the nurses say she is getting weaker. I know everyone must pass away sometime, i...

January 09, 2021

Death in Dreams

As the morning passes on the exact details are fading, but I dreamed of death all night. A cousin died, my aunt died. Other people died. It was so unsettling and depressing and the dreams just w...

January 08, 2021

Bad Week in Torridaussity Two

You know it’s been a bad week filled with anxiety, stress, and emotions when you’re lying in bed crying at 4PM. I am so over everyone and everything and just want peace in my head, in my heart, a...

January 03, 2021

Fears in Torridaussity Two

All my fears were playing havoc with my mind this weekend. So many tears cried. I was afraid I was falling apart, but can’t afford that right now so I tape myself back together and prepare for an...

December 31, 2020

End of 2020 in Torridaussity Two

The end is near and I hope 2021 is much better for all. Wishing you all a Happy New Year!

December 25, 2020

Merry Christmas in Torridaussity Two

Wishing you all a Merry Christmas or if you don’t celebrate a merry day.

December 24, 2020

Merry Christmas Eve in Torridaussity Two

Life has been crazy the last few weeks. Had a few contact with a contact covid scares again. Saw Dan again. Getting ready for socially distanced Christmas activities for the holidays. Just finish...

November 29, 2020

Not in a good place in Torridaussity Two

I’m struggling pretty hard right now. Partly because I’m stressed with work changes,, financial stress,, and health issues and because of my dating life. I’ve still been seeing Dan the lawyer, b...

November 26, 2020

Happy Thanksgiving in Torridaussity Two

I am at my parents just the 3 of us celebrating and it’s enough. My bubble is small for various reasons, their health, my health, my job etc. Today I am focusing on the many blessings I have and ...

November 22, 2020

My results are in in Torridaussity Two

So my results indicate that I most likely have Rheumatoid Arthritis, but were not 100% conclusive so I’m being referred to a rheumatologist. This will make if so 4 autoimmune disorders to deal wi...

November 14, 2020

Down and out in Torridaussity Two

Should write the long entry I owe you all, but it’s been a bad mental health day. I’m weepy and depressed, and completely overwhelmed by life at the moment. I did have a few hours of self care wh...

November 13, 2020

Latest upset in Torridaussity Two

I’m due for a super long entry, but latest 2020 drama I’m waiting on test results to see if I may have Lyme disease or Rheumatoid Arthritis or 2 other nameless joint pain causing issues. I have b...

October 09, 2020

Hellish week in Torridaussity Two

This week has been upsetting and confirming for me that I am nearing the end of this career path I’ve been on for 16 years now. No I’m not going to up and quit, but I know I can’t continue this j...

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