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If neurotic is wanting two mutually exclusive things at one and the same time, then I'm neurotic as hell. I'll be flying back and forth between one mutually exclusive thing and another for the rest of my days.
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July 14th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Things have been so tough since I have gotten married. Most of the time I want to run away from it all and say fuck it. It's always up and down, and I miss the easy life we had in Washington. We ...
July 10th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Jon just texted me asking if I worked today. He rarely texts me so I thought that he might need me to work for him or something. I replied, "No, why?" Then he said "Miss you." Awwwww. So cute. I ...
July 6th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Wednesday morning I woke up and drove 2 hours to Lake Ossipee in New Hampshire to meet up with Dave and his step-mom's family. Carol's family is very wealthy and have a couple of very nice houses...
July 4th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Last night was Stacey's party/Danver's firework show. She lives right next to the park so every year her and her man throw a big party. Dave was going to come with me, but he ended up just droppi...
July 1st, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
SO the other day I am driving to work. I realized I left a bit too early so I decided to call my dad to see how he is doing. Plus he bitches that I don't call him enough, so it worked out. He tel...
June 29th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
So the two songs that will forever remind me of this fantastic summer at the Fern are: Flo Rida - "Wild Ones" and of course, "Call me Maybe" It's funny. So many people ask me if I enjoy working ...
June 23rd, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Got off work around 5 yesterday and headed home to hop in the shower and get ready for a night out. Around 9 Jon picked me up and we headed to downtown Peabody. It is so nice to just sit in a car...
June 19th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Got to the bar around 10 and the bartender made one STRONG ass drink for me. Usually my drink is between 8 to 10 bucks, this one was only 5. Definitely the cheapest, strongest Jager and ginger I'...
June 9th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Last night was so much fun! So many people from the Ferncroft came out last night, even the guys that work in the pro shop! Dave was being SUCH a good husband and didn't complain once about havi...
June 8th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
I've never felt the squeeze of trying to make the impossible possible as I do when I have talks with my husband. Ugh he makes me want to SCREAM out of frustration. It's always the same thing. Me ...
May 22nd, 2012 (First thoughts of divorce) in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Today I bought a basketball and shot some hoops out in the rain and just thought about everything. I feel really lost and trapped. It is the weirdest feeling. Almost like I am living a bunch of ...
May 17th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Tourny number two today. Sigh. I feel so weird. He was there and I feel like I blew it. I don't know exactly what though. Driving around in the golf cart. His hand on my leg, "What's wrong? You...
May 15th, 2012 (New apartment) in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
We spent the past four days moving all of our stuff into our new apartment! I -really- like it here. I guess you can say Salem and Beverly is like the difference between Pomona and Rancho Santa M...
May 5th. The beginning of the end (Jon) in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Ok go ahead, ask me how the fuck do I get myself in these positions? Because honestly I don't know! So obviously you've heard about the "hot guy" at my work. Well lately the flirting has become ...
May 1st, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
This past week has seriously been up and down. Dave and I were pretty rocky for a few days and I ended up getting shit faced one fancy night and it was not a pretty sight. I got off of work at 7:...
April 26th, 2012 (Hating Massachusetts) in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
I've been pretty depressed lately. I'm either angry or sad. I don't know. It is just weird not have any friends and really hating the place I live. I mean at least in California I had friends to ...
April 15th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Things have been odd lately. Well, let's just say, I stopped taking my birth control. And well, you know when you are on it and your libido is extremely low? Well it is pretty much the exact oppo...
March 26th, 2012 (Visit with Andrea and Tyler) in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
I was so happy to finally have a free night and NO headache! I have been getting headaches with nausea and fatigue like crazy since I moved here. I finally stopped birth control and I seem to be ...
March 15th, 2011 (Ferncroft) in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
I started my new job yesterday at the country club. I am going from working at Wal-Mart with the real red-necks to working at hoity-toity land! I am excited to start making some money, but I need...
March 9th, 2011 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
So the first couple of nights were rough. Salem was quite different than I had imagined it to be. I don't know why, but I just though of Salem as a very cute, SMALL, not-heavily-populated town. A...
March 8th, 2012 (Road trip) in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Well we left early morning February 28th and drove straight to my Aunt Louise's in Phoenix, AZ. It was so nice to see her because I had not seen her since I was 15 years old. Her husband, Uncle W...
March 7th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Our wedding was amazing! The worst part was wearing the dress all day. It was beautiful, but wow I could not breathe in it! At one point my aunt had to take me into the bathroom and help me unzip...
February 21st, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
My parents have always had money problems but this is the first time ever that they have "hit rock bottom" with their finances. I am getting really worried because it is worse than I have ever se...
February 19th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
So glad this week is over! Next week things are going to go by so fast! John is coming in tomorrow and I want to show him around before the rest of the gang arrives. I made a little make-shift ro...
January 28th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
So I met this guy Korie through Matt and he is a really smart dude who is super into English. He randomly asked me if I would read some of his work and give him feedback, so of course I said yes....
