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If neurotic is wanting two mutually exclusive things at one and the same time, then I'm neurotic as hell. I'll be flying back and forth between one mutually exclusive thing and another for the rest of my days.
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January 14th, 2011 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Three more days of my life in California and I have so many people I need to see one last time before I depart. I said goodbye to Brindle and dropped off some DVDs and stuff for her and Sophie. I...
January 4th, 2011 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Well my dreams are finally coming true. I am leaving California for good in two weeks and moving to Washington. I got an apartment with a girl I met online named Holly. It is in Olympia. Oh yeah ...
November 10th, 2010 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
I tend to spend a lot of time analyzing my past. And it is very easy to do so because I have many reminders of my past decorating my environment. Journals, pictures, scrapbooks, souvenirs, etc. I...
October 12th, 2010 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
2010 has been the crappiest fucking year thus far in my twenty-two years of existence. I guess today a lot of anger from everything that has happened this year has really surfaced. I was reading ...
September 27th, 2010 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
What I am going to miss about California is all the new age/spiritual shops I have gotten so used to dropping in on every now and then. Most of them are in Claremont, especially my favorite one. ...
September 16th, 2010 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Today was day sixty of sobriety. I went to a meeting and my parents came with me. Bill was there, Sam, Pam, and Frank too. They are all my favorite people at the club so it was awesome that they ...
August 17th, 2010 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
I need a vacation. I need to get away. I am having a really hard day. All I want to do is go get shitfaced at the bar and forget everything, black out, pass out. But no, I have to be strong blah ...
August 10th, 2010 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Yesterday I went to a good meeting and we talked about not taking life too seriously and I shared about how I have the opposite problem and I haven't been able to take life seriously enough. It w...
August 8th, 2010 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Day 22 of sobriety. Song of the day: Kiss the Rain by Billie Myers I have about six months to save up a good amount of money to move to Washington. I am nervous because I have about 100 bucks to...
July 20th, 2010 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
I went to a Youth Peoples meeting tonight and I really liked it. But this whole sober life is scary. I mean...can I really do it? The only reason I even thought about going to a meeting is becaus...
July 19th, 2010 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
I'm finding it really hard to take life seriously anymore. Everything seems like one cruel joke. I don't understand him at all. I went on Andreas FB to talk to him pretending to be her and he c...
July 7th, 2010 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
It is very hard for me to look at pictures of me as a child and remember those times. Not because they were bad, but because they were very good and those times are no longer with me. The people ...
June 27th, 2010 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Back in February I received a DUI after dropping my friend off at her house. I turned on to Fruit St. and was about to get onto the freeway and saw a cop flip a bitch and turn his lights off. I h...
June 25th, 2010 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
I fell in love for the very first time in August of 2008. I had thought I knew what love was before, but it wasn't until I laid eyes on Justin that I knew what love-at-first-sight really meant. I...
