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If neurotic is wanting two mutually exclusive things at one and the same time, then I'm neurotic as hell. I'll be flying back and forth between one mutually exclusive thing and another for the rest of my days.
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November 24th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
I'm very relieved Thanksgiving is over and done with! The whole day has always struck some sort of nerve with me and I've never fancied the holiday. Then with the whole Black Friday thing the nex...
November 21st, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Dave has been acting so lazy lately. He seems to be in some sort of depression and it is affecting our relationship. I know he doesn't like the fact that he isn't working and he is only going to ...
November 11th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Well my Friday day went horrible when I was at the dentist for my 10:15 appointment, sitting in the lounge waiting for Dr. Dano to greet me and remembered it was payday. I went to check my online...
November 8th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
I'm very happy that Obama won, but I already knew that was going to happen. Things are still fucked up from the BUSH years, and Obama has only had four years in office. I don't think MUCH is goin...
November 5th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
So lately I have been thinking about "What if I run into Jon again?". I have gotten to the point where I have completely erased him from my life and all I have to do is delete the OD entries abou...
October 30th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Well now that I have an iPhone I feel like I am never on the computer! But I did want to update you all on how things are going over here on the east coast. I was really expecting this hurricane ...
October 20th, 2012 "Goodbye John Cook" in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
This week sadly flew by. Sadly, because one of my really good friends is here and I don't want him to leave! It has been so nice hanging out with him because I don't really feel connected to many...
October 13th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Today was a real nightmare. Dave and I finally have dental insurance so I made the scary decision to book an appointment with a dentist who specializes in TMJ. I knew I was going to hear very bad...
September 29th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
So for awhile now, my goal weight has been 120. In Washington I was closest to it when I weighed myself at 110 pounds. I looked healthy. I felt okay about it, and was eager to gain at least ten m...
September 27th. Visit to Vermont. 31/50 states visited. in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Lately I have been feeling very antsy. I re-organized our spare-now guest- room and finally fixed up our bedroom, which put me under about three hundred bucks!! I absolutely hate spending money o...
September 21st, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
The normality of my everyday life has never felt so good! I still can't believe how intense California was for me and it was no wonder I returned home sick as a dog. Being back in Beverly has bee...
September 14th: Justin's visit to Cali in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Well after dealing with all of my parents shit, I find out Justin is going to be cutting through California on his way to Washington. He finally arrived and we hung out for awhile. I showed him t...
I got here on Saturday, and like I was saying, my mom was very sick. Sunday we went to my grandma's and when we got to her street she opened her car door and started throwing up. She ran into my...
September 9th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Well I am here in California, finally. The big surprise didn't turn out so great because I got to my parents around nine at night and they had already taken their Ambien and drifted off to sleep ...
September 5th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Needing a good cry. Or maybe just a good vacation, I don't know yet. (California in A FEW more days) I put myself in this position. I act strong. I act like I can walk away, unhurt---careless. M...
September 1st, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Happy September everyone! I really can't believe how fast summer flew by, but I am ready for my first New England fall! Jon and I have our last shift together the day before I leave for Californ...
August 29th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Last night Dave and I went with some friends to a Moroccan restaurant in Charlestown. It was very nice! I had some chicken in fried phylllo dough sprinkled with powdered sugar for an appetizer an...
August 23rd, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Well summer is almost over, fall is right around the corner. With that being said, many changes are occurring at the Fern. One of which is that people are leaving. People that I have spent hours ...
August 15th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Well I know I am behind in my 30 day prompts, but I have been so sick! It started on Sunday morning when I was working breakfast. I had to take some DayQuil to get through the day. I went home an...
August 10th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
On Wednesday it was dead at work so they sent Amanda home. About an hour later I had a few people at the bar, and two tables. One was a family of five. I was trying to give everyone good service,...
July 31st, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Yesterday's function at work was pretty hectic. Chris (the super nice blind dude who golfs) and his very supportive amazing wife Sheila held their annual "Golf for Vision" fundraiser event at the...
July 27th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
I had a great time at V's party last night! Right away Jon came up to me and was talking to me and things seemed cool between us. Kellie started a Kings Cup game so Jon came and sat down next to ...
July 26th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Tonight is V's party, which they dubbed A Mid-Summer's Night Dream, LOL. I was cracking up when I read the FB event page they made for it. Seriously -everyone- is going! It is going to be madness...
July 16th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Today I had a lot of alone time since Dave was at school. I went to the school to try to sort some things out with financial aid, but no luck as I cannot progress forward without the IRS tax tran...
July 15th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Jon and I worked a function yesterday. It had been awhile since we had a full shift together so it was nice hanging out with him again. It also made me realize how much less I have the urge to be...
