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If neurotic is wanting two mutually exclusive things at one and the same time, then I'm neurotic as hell. I'll be flying back and forth between one mutually exclusive thing and another for the rest of my days.
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January 22nd, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Ugh I seriously hate tweakers. I hate coming down here and being overwhelmed by everyone's stupid addictions. It makes me realize how simple Washington is and how everyone I communicate with ther...
January 18th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
UGH Nothing can be simple!!! I got here on Monday night, had a chill night with Andrea, but as soon as Tuesday came it was go go go. Wedding planner laid everything out for us and things seem li...
January 13th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Don't get me wrong,I will miss so much about Washington. It has been my dream to live here forever! I finally got to experience a whole year of this wonderful place, but it is now time to move on...
January 9th, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Sometimes I feel like my past was one big hurdle and I got over it. I accomplished something by living through it and surviving. Living through it and learning from my mistakes. But I also feel l...
January 1st, 2012 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Well everyone told me I was not only closing by myself on New Years, but they were bringing in a new guy to "help". Everyone knows new people do not help, they just make you have more work becaus...
December 29th, 2011 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
I am seriously so irritated at him! Before I left for Washington, he hung out with me one last time and said his goodbyes to Jasper and I. I was already seeing the "Gloria" signs. He was all worr...
December 27th, 2011 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Well Dave and I were anxious for Christmas to finally come. We have been wondering what was in the gifts everyone sent to us and we made out pretty good this year! His dad bought us an emergency ...
December 19th, 2011 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Can't believe I am 24! That is old. I was supposed to work 10-7, but no fucking way did I want to look back on my birthday and remember, oh yeah! I was at Walmart slaving in the deli. Yuck. I cal...
December 12th, 2011 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Ok well after that horrible night at work, I sat at home waiting for Dave and the cab so we can get the fuck out. We met up with Matt and his friends at 4th Ave Tav and Matt looked pretty wasted ...
December 10th, 2011 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
AGH YESTERDAY: So I wake up at 7:30 a.m after about 5 hours of sleep (I usually get around 12) and I get ready for work, remember it is PJ day and feel like it might actually be a chill day. I w...
November 23rd, 2011 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Well I don't think about J the way I did last year that is -for sure-, but he still makes it impossible not to think of him, our past, what could have been. . .especially lately. I don't know if ...
November 19th, 2011 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Yesterday was pretty crappy. I woke up and realized I had second degree burns from that stupid hot metal thing on the wrapper. It is kind of sad when most people at work have gotten the same burn...
November 15th, 2011 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
I have felt so warm and cozy lately. Sure, it made be the Wild Blue 8% alcohol beer I have been drinking all night, but I really believe it is where I am in life. I have been so far away from ev...
November 8th, 2011 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Sometimes I literally feel so fucking nuts. I don't know what is wrong with me. I want to pop some xanax and down it with alcohol. OH WAIT I just did. And now I am going to be going to the bar an...
October 24th, 2011 (Meeting Garrett) in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
So about around the time I got a facebook account, I became friends with a guy who lived in Indiana named Garrett who started a Albert Camus forum. He started talking to me and every now and then...
October 15th, 2011 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Today at work I got called in to Personal and was told I needed to work a 2 to 11 tomorrow so there goes my huskie plans. I was disappointed, but I do need the hours. I had to tell Matt that it w...
October 4th, 2011 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Dave and I got together and engaged pretty fast. I guess it was only natural for me to move forward, while also taking a few steps back. But now I know I need to just keep going forward. I'm at a...
September 23rd, 2011 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Sometimes I wonder how people just go about their day to day lives so easily when I feel like this country is falling apart. I have a hard time every day because of daily reminders of what this c...
September 8th. 2011 (Secret meet-up with J) in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
A love I thought would never be a part of my life again came back to Washington on leave. He actually contacted me and wanted to meet up. The last time I saw him was in December and it was defini...
September 4th, 2011 (Bad influences) in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
I've never really had positive influencing friends. Flash back to 2nd great. Brittany P. and I were "BFF". She lived on Evergreen, which I would later recognize as my hangout when high school ca...
August 12th, 2011 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
"Every time you spend money, you are casting a vote for the kind of world you want." I am reading Walden by Henry David Thoreau and although it is a bit slow, I am loving the ascetic vibes. I tr...
August 4th x 7 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Well I was going through my other OD diary entries, the one I have had since 2004 and decided it would be kind of fun to see where I was on this day every year since having this diary. Unfortunat...
August 03, 2011. Vonnegut in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
Ok so I spent a good portion of my evening reading The Best American Nonrequired Reading and this particular edition had many Vonnegut quotes. If you know me, you know I'm not a fan of Vonnegut. ...
July 31st, 2011 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
I don't understand this stupid fucked up system. I seriously -struggle- to get by on my own, yet I have all the time and capabilities to earn a living. But where the hell is my chance to do so? W...
July 14th, 2011 in "Waiting for my Petrichor"
I busted my ass but this apartment looks NICE. Dave and I got not only a vacuum but also a steam-cleaner because Jasper-stench had to be ridden from our rug! My room finally smells good for once ...
