The Closest Destination in 2014

It’s been a while. I’ve been busy not being overly busy, but filling my time nonetheless.

Work is pretty meh. It’s relatively boring, since the center just opened up and we get 40-60 donors most days. There doesn’t seem to be a chance for me to move up anytime soon, which is not desirable, but I’m most likely going to stick with it for reasons described later.

I ended up being able to borrow money from my Medford roommates to go to the Penny Arcade Expo in Seattle over Labor Day Weekend. It’s basically a big nerd fest involving video games, board games, cosplaying and tons of other stuff. It was fun as always, and as always, by the end fatigue was starting to set in. We left pretty early on the last day and I didn’t get a whole of of free swag, but it was still sweet.

I’m mostly a hermit still, though slowly a social life is progressing with co-workers. Things are not ideal with the roommates, but better than they were. As long as things are kept superficial it works well enough. Chris and I have ideological differences that are best left untouched. My finances are slowly improving, at least getting to the point of being as good as they’re be while I have the job I have.

I’m going to keep said crappy paying job for a while provided that they give me the times off on the days off that I’ve requested. Since I was a teenager I’ve wanted to do have a career involving two things: music and wrestling. I’m still a terrible bassist but am slowly improving. Wrestling is going to be my main focus for now. There’s a small promotion that offers training on the other side of Portland, I’m going to start with that as soon as my work schedule allows. I don’t seriously expect to make a living off of it. Starting at 27 is far later than most people do, and I’ve never been in excellent shape. I think I can make a name for myself nonetheless. I know what kind of character I’ll be, and I think I’ll be effective at it. I want to be a bad guy, and a great one at that. The kind where people want to throw trash at them and boo them constantly. I’ll have to do a lot of work on my delivery I’m sure, but I already have the personality for it.

Pursuing a career in wrestling is giving me even more motivation to get in shape, though I already had a decent start. I’ve been doing cardio at the apartment gym several nights a week, running 4-5 miles on the treadmill. I bought some weights the other day and a dumbbell curl bar set. It’s not much, but still a start. When I lived in Medford I had access to a much better gym and never went as much as I do now. With age comes wisdom and motivation. Or perhaps desperation. I’m only getting older, and I know if I am to ever get what I want in life, it absolutely has to start now.

I dislike winter, but I plan to make this one less depressing than they usually are. Soon I’ll be working toward doing something I enjoy, and in general I’ve been focusing more than ever on self-improvement. I’ve made my goals more tangible and things that I desire actually seem kind of possible to attain. It’s a lonely existence, but taking this path was necessary to get to where I wanted to go. The loneliness won’t last forever. I may always be a lone wolf, but I won’t settle for staying an unknown one.