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11/29/05
Tonight was very nice. Last night was very exciting. Things are going good. So last night at around 8 I went over to Eddie's and hung out with him and his roomates downstairs watching TV. Then w...
11/27/04
People are so wrapped up in all of their own petty problems that no one sees the real picture anymore. Perfect example would be me.....So I finally realize that all these guy problems are dumb an...
11/25/05
Well whenever my whole family gets together there are always at least one big fight. Last night we got two. My cuzin gary is cheating on his wife Niki and he has 2 little kids and like Gary never...
11/21/05
It's amazing how brilliant the Indians were. Nowadays everyone is stupid. We get everything handed to us, everything is so easy compared to when Indians were around. We want a toothbrush....we go...
11/19/05
Yesterday me and Andrea hung out and it was so friking scary we were seeing all these signs. First sign was the license plate it said "Ash Man" And that was nick name in like 9th-10th grade. Then...
11/16/05
November 16th-------Full Moon!!! AND 30 more days till im fucking 18!!! If you didn't notice by my diary title I have been waiting for 18 for so fucking long and it's almost here it's scary. Anyw...
11/10/05
Well tonight was fucking weird as hell. I'm still kinda in a dazed state of mind. At work this new girl Ashley works there and at first I was like man I do not want to work with ANOTHER girl...bu...
11/7/05
"Retrograde Mars squares nebulous Neptune today, symbolizing our lack of resolve. Confusion can take the wind out of our sails. The present uncertainty may have started at the end of August, when...
10/29/05: Art Gallery in Santa Monica
Yesterday, Margot and I went to Santa Monica and got there around 4. We went shopping in all these cute shops and thrift stores. I got a little case that holds matches and a shirt with see-throug...
10/27/05
It's so weird how close me and Eddie have gotten this past few weeks. Who would have known, in the end me and him would be together? I never even thought of me being with Eddie back in the days w...
10/24/05
This weekend was adequite. I stayed up too late Friday and Saturday and didn't get to sleep till like 4 in the morning. So Sunday I was all super hung over and tired and I had to wake up early to...
10/16/05
Well as you probably know, most of my days are depressing but today was ULTRA super DUPER fucking DE-PRESS-ING. UGH! It all started when I woke up and watched Crazy/Beautiful. I got all depressed...
10/14/05: Poems
Careless Pills Pills are my life Pills are my friend Pills can make me happy Pills can make me sad Look look mommy, I took 4 on the head! Pills can destroy Pills can annoy Pills can empower emot...
10/13/05
I just want to feel safe in my own skin, I just want to be happy again I just want to feel deep in my own world But I'm so lonely I don't even want to be with myself anymore On a different day, ...
10/10/05
This weekend was fun. Friday I had to work and when I got off I was in this depressed mood for some reason. I needed something, anything to get me out of the mood I was in. I couldn't stand anoth...
10/7/05
71 more days until im 18! Then I will never have to have anyone buy me cigarettes ever again! And I won't be "Jail Bait" anymore! I'm so excited!!! Eddie wants to hang out with me the day after ...
10/5/05
I hate being a senior. I mean I don't even know what Im going to be majoring in and college is NEXT year. At first I thought I would just major in english but EW I hate english!!! I think I'll ma...
10/4/05
Step forward--your dreaming. Step back--a swift kick in the ass By your past That lingers on Like indigestion........... I was talking to my cousin Faye today and she totally thinks I still lik...
10/3/05: A poem
I am just a girl with a broken past and a blank future. Trying to find the right words To express myself. Remember your past? No! It hurts too much Changed your life? Maybe A little. Scared for ...
10/01/05
So yesterday I saw Prozac Nation finally and it totally reminded me of like me and craig and me and matt and I was just in this super depressed mood so finally it was time to go to Kyles and i wa...
9/27/05
Nothing much has happened these past few days. Something exciting needs to happen Im getting boreeeed! School has been lame but you know that guy I sorta maybe like who I sit by in Economics? He ...
9/21/05
Lately the sky has been weird. Thunderstorms and lightening fill the sky. Raindrops are enormous and pour down unto the earth. High temperatures and rain are not the normal weather for Southern C...
9/19/05
These past couple of weekends have been seriously so much fun. It's weird during summer like no one threw parties but now all of a sudden there are a bunch. Anyways on Friday I went to 3 parties...
9/14/05: Mr. Chertkow
I LOVE ART!! oh man my art teacher is sooo awesome. i am so lucky i got such a great teacher in a subject i really enjoy. Mr. Chertkow (pronounced cher cow) is just amazing. hes so weird its intr...
9/13/05
Today at school I was suppppppper tired in 5th period and like always I had no clue what was going on. I hate that class so much! It's English and my teacher teaches like a foreign dude. Seriousl...
Book Description
This book contains entries taken from my very first OD created in 2004.
“My name is Natalie Caroline.
I am 23 years old and have had this online journal for 7 years now. It has grown up with me and has recorded every good and every bad memory I have experienced these past few years.
All the tears.
All the laughs.
The fights, the awkward moments.
I can look back on entries and cry.
I can look back on entries and laugh at how foolish I was.
It’s amazing what a bunch of words typed down can make me do.
But every entry had a story behind it, hundreds of entries that will always remind me of my past.
This is a journal I can never let go of, and never share with besides with those who have been there from the beginning.
It will always be there to remind me of how much I have grown and changed.
Remind me of my hopes and dreams.
Remind me to keep going on because I have made it this far.
But most of all, with this journal, I have the power to go back in time…
“A casual stroll through the lunatic asylum shows that faith does not prove anything. ” ~ Nietzsche
