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October 1st, 2014
Yay! My favorite month! Only I get to spend it in So Cal this year, which just means this month looks like every other month…but luckily, slightly cooler! Things have been going good except for t...
YH BS
Well things have just gotten worse and worse at the ole YH. I understand it is “slow season”, but going from being able to pick up virtually any shift, to having us scramble for shifts is just ri...
Finally, a living situation I can look forward to
Well I have been talking a lot about how I want to live with D in the upcoming future, and we finally had a good talk about it and sure enough he is on the same page! We are both really excited a...
Goodfellas
I went out to Redlands last night to see Derek because he is house sitting for his sister and brother in law. I was surprised that the drive was literally only 20 minutes and Redlands is actually...
Summer is almost over
Wow this summer really flew by, but I’ve definitely made the most of it with Derek. I am very excited for cooler, sweatshirt weather!! Derek is so cute. He randomly told me one day, “I can’t wait...
Lovvvvvvve
Well it has been about three months since D and I started hanging out all the time, and a little over a month since we made things official, and things seem to just be getting better and better! ...
Waiting for laundry to finish....
I started a second job recently. It is at a deli in Rancho. I took it because they want to move me up to manager eventually after I learn the ropes and it is so much less stressful than serving. ...
July
Well I still have not had a period this month. I took two pregnancy tests though and they both claim I am not pregnant, so I am not going to stress about it. I was talking to a co-worker and she ...
Took a pregnancy test
Thank god it read Not Pregnant! I haven't had a scare in awhile, but I was starting to worry. My period is usually here by the 15th and no sign of it this month! Anyway, things have been going g...
Washington 2014
Arrived Monday and J picked me up from the airport. He has a really gross beard thing going on. I mean I am not against beards, but when it doesn't grow in right, don't go for it. Yuck. We went t...
Old friends
This weekend was great! I released my Friday night patio shift assuming no one would pick it up---and to my surprise someone did at the last minute! I did not know what to do with myself. Even wh...
Wrightwood
D's dad went out of town for a couple of weeks so D invited me to stay with him at his dad's place in Wrightwood. It is so nice over there! I can't believe I haven't gone there more often. I real...
Work vent.
AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I am getting to the end of my rope at this place. I can't stand my co-workers!!! I miss working at the ferncroft SO much. I need to find another place like that around here. I c...
6/14/14
June is going by pretty quickly! I am hanging out with Margot tonight after work. She wants to dance, which means we will be going club-hopping. Clubs are okay, but I'm 26 now and I'd prefer a ni...
Memories
I have been having random memories of people in my past and lots of strange dreams. Firstly, there is MH. He is the dude that I was sickly in love with when I was 17. He was the first person I sa...
Awesome and stuff
Things with Derek have been great!! We went to the beach the other day and it was so relaxing just walking along the ocean with him. On the ride home we blasted music and it is so awesome that we...
June 1st
Wow! Can't believe June is already here. One more month and I will be on an airplane to Washington! :) Work was crazy this weekend. And I feel like I worked my ass off and don't have anything to...
A night of shenanigans
Well I haven't hung out with D since Wednesday and I am kinda missing him. (I feel way too girly when I say that haha). We worked together yesterday, but he had plans to go watch the fight and ea...
May 23rd
It is so weird to me that only a couple of months ago I was having a going away party in Lynnfield, MA. It seems like AGES ago. So much has changed. I haven't felt this happy in awhile. I thought...
Let me live, love and say it well in good sentences.
Yesterday I hung out with Orlando and we went to the garden at Pomona College in Claremont. We talked a lot about society and how we get "in trouble" for ridiculous reasons and how everything cor...
Last night
Okay so yesterday at work I finally get to work with D. Dennis is also working and he comes up to me and says, Let's make D jealous. That will be the plan, then he will be like whoa what is up wi...
Wow. How did that just happen
Ahhhhhhhh Some how my dreams came true yesterday.
Trip booked.
I have been much happier lately, not sure why but I am not going to question it! Things just seem to be looking up. I booked my trip to Washington today and I am so frikin stoked!!! I am so excit...
Mother's Day
Yesterday was the first Mother's day I have spent with my family in three years! We didn't have reservations anywhere and they wanted to go to Cheesecake Factory, but when we pulled up to VG mall...
Random goals
Last night was so hectic at work! There was a time when I was walking through the kitchen area and I felt like everything around me was going slow motion and I thought I was going to pass out. It...
Book Description
“You don’t write because you want to say something, you write because you have to say something.” F. Scott Fitzgerald
I’m starting this book because I felt it silly to add to the book of entries I uploaded from Open Diary. This is a new website, a site that will take some time getting used to, but I want to start a new chapter. I have re-read many entries while copy/pasting them onto this site and realized truly how spastic I am. I am all over the place. Which is why the quote by Sylvia Plath was chosen to be My Official Quote for this site. “If neurotic is wanting two mutually exclusive things at one and the same time, then I’m neurotic as hell. I’ll be flying back and forth between one mutually exclusive thing and another for the rest of my days.”
I’ve definitely been flying all over the place my entire life…mentally and physically. I now want to start this book because, like Fitzgerald says, I absolutely need to write. I need to be okay with the person I am. I need to sort out my thoughts. And I especially need to vent and connect with other like minded individuals.
In the end, I am just a wanderer in search of what this world really means, in search of what my existence really means.
