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The great swell.
I confess I worry and complain a lot. Infact I am the single most anxious person ever. I would like to change that about myself, I guess it’s my greatest weakness but let’s move towards a conclus...
Useless
I have this issue where i strongly believe myself to be useless at every simple task known to man. This could probably be caused by the life road i paved of having next to no friends and the lack...
You can be anybody.
People always tell you that you can be anybody, you just need the right “frame of mind”. I personally find that ridiculous, how can you simply change yourself? People believe you can simply becom...
Bland.
Everything is so dull, the weather, my friendships, my emotions and my motivation. Im left with this horrible feeling my friends couldnt care less if we remained friends, or they feel we have bee...
Psychotropics.
Everything is so dull, i don’t think i’ve ever felt so lonely in years. I can’t find comfort in anyone’s company. This is down to me surely, i went to see Ray and i couldn’t even find the effort ...
An interview with yourself.
I’ve always wanted to do one of these, you essentially ask yourself a bunch of thought provoking questions, in this case 101 of them. This may be long winded but i will however devote the time to...
The return of boredom.
Well, life’s been odd recently, after meeting Syrina she essentially has ruined my friendship with my longtime Adam, he doesn’t have to say it but he’s clearly chose a “side” since we’ve grown di...
Beige is not a boring colour.
I guess when buying a car that is a total wreck you have to have optimism to start out with and then bolster that with even more optimism when you find out it’s even worse than you had imagined. ...
I don't need sympathy, I need conclusions.
I don’t know where to start with this entry, not updated in around 2 months so I’ll start around Christmas. Ray decided to turn up Christmas eve, went out with her and was instantly thrown into a...
Delusion Tax.
I’m taking a break from dieting and gym over Christmas, mainly to the lack of gym since no-one wants to go over Christmas and i can’t be bothered with jogging in the rain and cold, morale is low ...
First bit of paint.
It’s been almost 2 years since i bought my classic car and i am finally reaching a point where i am making real progress. The engine bay is pretty much finished, all that is left to do is finish ...
The magic of Grapefruit.
First day i ate grapefruit, i’ll be honest, i had no idea what i was doing, it’s a well known fact that grapefruit burns calories and increases metabolism. What isn’t mentioned is how difficult i...
Dishonorable discharge.
From my face. At the gym. It’s gross but i was just sick so hard at the gym it came out of my nose because i grabbed my mouth quickly, little lesson to anyone interested in the gym, never eat bef...
Social life.
My social life is like the desert, in that sense i mean its rather bleak and noone wants to go there. This past months been lonely. Once again ive had my eyes opened to what people are like, ever...
Preemptive
I decided to get christmas out of the way early this year, i hate that last minute panic where your rushing around the town buying things up through crowds of people. Mostly online shopping, unfo...
Progressing fast.
So we finally went to the unit this week since Seans mum is back from holiday, i still don’t have the engine bay painted because i decided i am going to clean up the whole front end first, includ...
Car stuff.
Well i promised i would get pictures. Firstly i will start with our new home for the car and the recent work. This is my car before it got sent to the new unit on the trailer, first time it’s ac...
Anxiety peaking.
We all know for a fact, i don’t like change. My anxiety is my own worst enemy and my biggest hurdle. Syrina comes home today, meeting new people is a big thing for me, i get down a lot, or magica...
New unit.
So today i went to the unit and got told we are moving to a new unit on the 1st of the month, which was exciting until i went to see it. To be fair i haven’t been inside so its unfair to judge bu...
A lesson in complaining.
I’m just going to complain, i guess i’ve had one of those weeks, sorry for being so negligent to my journal. I dont really know where to start, so i’ll go back a couple of weeks and start there. ...
Cocky little pr*ck.
Right now i kind of can't stand to be around anyone, i went the gym last night and did some recent work on the car, but first i'm going to cover the things which suck. The things which currently ...
Im k
Sorry for being a deserter and not having the courage to come and type about my life and every day going, i honestly spend most of my time waiting to sleep again just counting the days. Everythi...
Motivation.
I'm better than this. The last 3 weeks or so have been awful, too add insult to injury i failed my driving test because of a single mistake again. I also got a £80 fine for dropping a cigarette b...
Coward.
The last 2 weeks have been horrendously bad, after scoring down to 13'8 i've gone back above 14 but it's unconfirmed what the damage is. I've started again yesterday and tried to get myself out o...
Happy birthday.
Dad's birthday today, 20 years without him and i can't help but think about how proud he would be of the immense failure i've become! On a more serious note this week has been very productive an...
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Any news about my car restoration project or any other stuff that’s going on.
