lost soul ⋅
I am getting up there in age and I am not afraid to admit it. I feel like I could have done so much more and now I am trying to cram it all in before the end. I am married for now and how two interesting kids. They are almost grown. People don't understand me, even those close to me.
"Our greatest fault is not that we set our goals too high and miss them, but that we set them too low and reach them"
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My Mother in My Therapy Book
Today needed two entries because today is my mother’s birthday and I can’t talk about her in an angry post. She has been gone a long time now, she never got to see my kids and see what I turned ...
One person can screw your day over in My Therapy Book
What started out as a positive up beat day turned to shit in a heart beat. One car ride with the mother in law and you whole day can go to hell. I am so angry right now I can hardly see straigh...
It is starting out good in My Therapy Book
I got to work this morning and went straight to work. I had an amazing day yesterday getting a ton of work accomplished and staying focused and on task for the majority of the day. I sent out t...
Another Monday in My Therapy Book
Well the weekend has come and gone with little to no change in my life. I did get my flu shot which is guess is something. Still a little sore this morning. My wife kept bugging me about it so...
Focus eludes me in My Therapy Book
I have been waking up every day at 2:30 and having a fit full sleep after that. I used to take a sleep aide but I was informed by my friend Scott that I should not be. I want to sleep through t...
Another exciting day under my belt. in My Therapy Book
I would give just about anything for a day with no new shit thrown at me. My daughter’s LMHC called yesterday, if you ever dealt with this you know that is never good. It would appear that my d...
Just a shit start to the day, every day. in My Therapy Book
I burned my foot last night. All my own fault but it still hurts. Peeled the skin right off the top. I did not wear shoes to work today and my office mate informed me that I needed to go in an...
The start of a new week in My Therapy Book
I am going to try to go into this week with a positive attitude and try to stay that way for as long as possible. Giggling to me self I wonder if it will even last through the day. It was a fa...
Selfish in My Therapy Book
I have just about reached a breaking point with my daughter. I live in fear of saying something to upset her in the idea implanted in my mind that after I do I will come home and find her lying ...
What is a persons worth? in My Therapy Book
I often wonder at my own self worth, what purpose do I serve and why am I here. Sure, I am a father, employee, and friend but in the grand scheme of things what purpose do I serve on this ball o...
Cutting in My Therapy Book
My daughter is backing to harming herself again. I am at a loss. The pain I feel every time I see a mark on her makes me feel like she is cutting me also. My chest tightens up and I can barely...
Just some thoughts in My Thoughts
How do you deal with family? I know everyone has some family issues on some level but at times mine seem so great that I am not sure what to do. At times I want to walk away and not look back. ...
STEPP - Getting in touch with my emotions in My Therapy Book
So with STEPP I am supposed to write about when my stress and anxiety level become elevated so that I can get in touch with the emotions and better understand them. They are elevated right now! ...
Stress Level 9 in My Therapy Book
Okay, the last couple of days my stress level has been through the roof. I have tried to not focus on things that I can not change and only on those that I can have a direct impact on. That is ...
WHAT IS STRESS, ANXIETY & WORRY? in My Therapy Book
Who the hell knows but I have started an self paced online therapy program for my stress and anxiety in hopes of gaining a better understanding. I’m not sure how I feel about it yet but I do be...
Sometimes you just don't know in My Thoughts
I would love to wake up in the morning with someone standing over me beating me on the head with a stick, that way I would at least know where the pain is coming from. I am so tired of people as...
So much read into some simple words in My Thoughts
I know it is early but I have had a fairly positive day today. I’ve accomplished a lot of tasks at work and it feels like I’ve put some things behind me today. It did not start out the best wit...
Mental Health in My Thoughts
Trying to find mental health support is like pulling teeth. I have put in calls to local in-network providers and not a single one of them has called me back. I have reached out to my insurance...
Baker Act in My Thoughts
How the hell do you make it through life if you can’t talk about your problems without getting Baker Acted? They want you to talk about your feelings and what is going on and then they jump the ...
Life in My Thoughts
Which direction do I take? That is a heavy question that I never seem to know the answer to. I know that I am headed down a path of self-destruction but I can’t seem to change course. I can se...
Love - lost of just on hold? in My Thoughts
The events of the last week has been a bit of a wake-up call for me. Am I living my life the way I should be or is it all a cover to hide behind? I realize that many aspects of it are a cover a...
A new day in My Thoughts
Good morning all, It’s the start of a new day, a new week, and a new month what more could one ask for when starting the work week? Hopefully, all will turn out positive. I started this morning ...
Just another day in My Thoughts
It’s been a rough week this week; I went from being surrounded by people all week long to being by myself in the office in that is always tough. I miss being around people being alone in the off...
Just a thought - nothing more in My Thoughts
A friend called me today for a suggestion about what to do with this student who is a repeat offender. This is where the problem comes in; I don’t know. What exactly is the right punishment for ...
The anger is eating me up in My Thoughts
E is driving me crazy, I don’t know what to do about her, and each day she seems to push the envelope a little more. This morning was no exception, on a day that should have been about her grand...
