lost soul ⋅
I am getting up there in age and I am not afraid to admit it. I feel like I could have done so much more and now I am trying to cram it all in before the end. I am married for now and how two interesting kids. They are almost grown. People don't understand me, even those close to me.
"Our greatest fault is not that we set our goals too high and miss them, but that we set them too low and reach them"
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The joy of working with other people. in My Thoughts
I’m at my first convention, and the team member who is in charge of it told me that I could be down at 6:45. She did not come down to the registration area until eight. In that time, to entertain...
Finally taste success and then . . . in My Thoughts
You finally taste success and then they pull the rug right out from under your feet. This is the problem with working in multiple locations and trying to finish a project that impacts different ...
I have lost my patience in My Thoughts
I have lost faith. Time to start looking for a new web developer I think. I have been talking to this man about having the site done before the meeting and I just hung with him. He told me he ...
I Want it Done! in My Thoughts
UGH, I don’t like disappointing and that is what I feel is going on at the moment. With the conference only days away nothing on my end is finished. I can’t make it go faster, and I feel like i...
Memory Lane in My Thoughts
I am sitting thinking of my childhood and all of the different things that made me who I am today. It is very difficult to pinpoint a changing point in most peoples lives but I can pick mine out...
Working on things in My Thoughts
I often wonder when I write if it helps me to understand and talk about what is happing with real people. Yesterday I made the discovery that it does. I sat with my best friend and then my wife...
Sleepness night - Not the good kind! in My Thoughts
I awoke around 2:30 this morning and that was it for sleep. I started to think about the over bearing debt that I have accumulated and the realization that there was literally no way out of the ...
What is next at work? in My Thoughts
I’m kind of feeling lost today. I am very positive towards work this morning but just can’t get my head around what to do next. I have accomplished so much in the last couple of days that now I...
And we all learn to carry on in My Thoughts
I had a very helpful talk with my friend yesterday. It did not clear up any of my problems but it did help me to put it into perspective and realize that I am not the only one out there with the...
Curl up and die in My Thoughts
I don’t think I have ever felt the level of hopelessness that I did last night and still do into today. I feel like I want to throw it all in and just go away. Leave everything I know behind an...
What a weekend in My Thoughts
What a weekend it was, it did not go anything like I thought it would. There was little rest and relaxation involved. Instead, stress and worry filled my mind. Bean had gotten sick and my wif...
Messed up dream! in My Thoughts
I woke up to the most messed up dream ever today. Had me breathing hard and trying to get my bearings. I don’t normally share dreams but I want to get this one out of my thoughts and I am think...
Work is speeding up in My Thoughts
Keeping up with my resolution to write more… Work is really speeding up with our annual meeting only 2 weeks away. It seems like this App and all that goes along with it is going to come down r...
A New Year and a New Set of Empty Promises in My Thoughts
I am making a resolution to write about my life, feelings and thoughts. I hope that I am more successful than I have been in previous attmepts to write on a regular basis. The year is off to a...
I am starting to think it might be me... in My Thoughts
I finally got back from my business trip to Long Beach. I have never been to the West Coast, so it was an exciting change. The event itself went well, but I have decided I cannot stand one of m...
Great Day in My Thoughts
It has been a great day and I just felt like sharing it. It seemed that everything wanted to work like it was supposed to and all the chips fell into place. Work is going well. It has been a bu...
Feeling good! in My Thoughts
It has been a great day and I just felt like sharing it. It seemed that everything seemed to work like it was supposed to and all the chips fell into place. Work is going well. It has been a bu...
Sex, it is a complicated thing in My Thoughts
I the last entry I made a brief mention of my sex life, or currently lack thereof. It got me thinking about how I got to be where I am today. I’m a little fucked up in my opinion but I don’t be...
Death, it comes for us all! in My Thoughts
Another family member died this week. It seems like they are stacking up like cordwood in the early fall. Seems callous I know but I have lost a lot of family members and I foresee losing sever...
My Daughter - God Help Me in My Thoughts
I took my daughter to her high school orientation yesterday. For those who don’t know, I got a late start on kids (my youngest is 10 and my daughter is 14) and it felt like I was a grandparent i...
One rough weekend in My Thoughts
It was a rough weekend and I am glad it is over and I am out of the house. I am not sure I could have taken another day locked up inside that house with my wife and kids. I have not really spok...
Topic 2 - Family in My Thoughts
One week before school starts and I am not ready, Dawn is not ready and the school is not ready. My son will be on his own for the first time since starting school and my daughter will be moving...
Topic 1 – I went with work in My Thoughts
I quit my job, it was a good job, of 15 years. I took a deep breath and chose to start down a new path. 50 years old and a father of two school-aged children and I started a new job. Not sure if...
A Fresh Start in My Thoughts
I think that I am going to once again give this a shot in the hopes that it will help me clear my mind and elevate some of the stress I am feeling. I know in the past I have not been overly succ...
I'm Back... I think in My Thoughts
Well, I am back and I am going to give this another try. My mind is bogged down with thoughts of work, home, love and family. Truth be told I am not even sure where to start there is so much. ...
