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by lost soul

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February 15, 2019

Love - lost of just on hold?

The events of the last week has been a bit of a wake-up call for me. Am I living my life the way I should be or is it all a cover to hide behind? I realize that many aspects of it are a cover a...


February 04, 2019

A new day

Good morning all, It’s the start of a new day, a new week, and a new month what more could one ask for when starting the work week? Hopefully, all will turn out positive. I started this morning ...


February 01, 2019

Just another day

It’s been a rough week this week; I went from being surrounded by people all week long to being by myself in the office in that is always tough. I miss being around people being alone in the off...


A friend called me today for a suggestion about what to do with this student who is a repeat offender. This is where the problem comes in; I don’t know. What exactly is the right punishment for ...


January 29, 2019

The anger is eating me up

E is driving me crazy, I don’t know what to do about her, and each day she seems to push the envelope a little more. This morning was no exception, on a day that should have been about her grand...


I’m at my first convention, and the team member who is in charge of it told me that I could be down at 6:45. She did not come down to the registration area until eight. In that time, to entertain...


You finally taste success and then they pull the rug right out from under your feet. This is the problem with working in multiple locations and trying to finish a project that impacts different ...


January 16, 2019

I have lost my patience

I have lost faith. Time to start looking for a new web developer I think. I have been talking to this man about having the site done before the meeting and I just hung with him. He told me he ...


January 15, 2019

I Want it Done!

UGH, I don’t like disappointing and that is what I feel is going on at the moment. With the conference only days away nothing on my end is finished. I can’t make it go faster, and I feel like i...


January 13, 2019

Memory Lane

I am sitting thinking of my childhood and all of the different things that made me who I am today. It is very difficult to pinpoint a changing point in most peoples lives but I can pick mine out...


January 12, 2019

Working on things

I often wonder when I write if it helps me to understand and talk about what is happing with real people. Yesterday I made the discovery that it does. I sat with my best friend and then my wife...


I awoke around 2:30 this morning and that was it for sleep. I started to think about the over bearing debt that I have accumulated and the realization that there was literally no way out of the ...


January 10, 2019

What is next at work?

I’m kind of feeling lost today. I am very positive towards work this morning but just can’t get my head around what to do next. I have accomplished so much in the last couple of days that now I...


January 09, 2019

And we all learn to carry on

I had a very helpful talk with my friend yesterday. It did not clear up any of my problems but it did help me to put it into perspective and realize that I am not the only one out there with the...


January 08, 2019

Curl up and die

I don’t think I have ever felt the level of hopelessness that I did last night and still do into today. I feel like I want to throw it all in and just go away. Leave everything I know behind an...


January 05, 2019

What a weekend

What a weekend it was, it did not go anything like I thought it would. There was little rest and relaxation involved. Instead, stress and worry filled my mind. Bean had gotten sick and my wif...


January 04, 2019

Messed up dream!

I woke up to the most messed up dream ever today. Had me breathing hard and trying to get my bearings. I don’t normally share dreams but I want to get this one out of my thoughts and I am think...


January 03, 2019

Work is speeding up

Keeping up with my resolution to write more… Work is really speeding up with our annual meeting only 2 weeks away. It seems like this App and all that goes along with it is going to come down r...


I am making a resolution to write about my life, feelings and thoughts. I hope that I am more successful than I have been in previous attmepts to write on a regular basis. The year is off to a...


I finally got back from my business trip to Long Beach. I have never been to the West Coast, so it was an exciting change. The event itself went well, but I have decided I cannot stand one of m...


September 05, 2018

Great Day

It has been a great day and I just felt like sharing it. It seemed that everything wanted to work like it was supposed to and all the chips fell into place. Work is going well. It has been a bu...


September 03, 2018

Feeling good!

It has been a great day and I just felt like sharing it. It seemed that everything seemed to work like it was supposed to and all the chips fell into place. Work is going well. It has been a bu...


I the last entry I made a brief mention of my sex life, or currently lack thereof. It got me thinking about how I got to be where I am today. I’m a little fucked up in my opinion but I don’t be...


August 27, 2018

Death, it comes for us all!

Another family member died this week. It seems like they are stacking up like cordwood in the early fall. Seems callous I know but I have lost a lot of family members and I foresee losing sever...


August 03, 2018

My Daughter - God Help Me

I took my daughter to her high school orientation yesterday. For those who don’t know, I got a late start on kids (my youngest is 10 and my daughter is 14) and it felt like I was a grandparent i...


Book Description

A general collection of my daily thoughts about life, work, family, love and lust.