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"Our greatest fault is not that we set our goals too high and miss them, but that we set them too low and reach them"

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November 02, 2020

Anything in My Therapy Book

Do you know what it means to have a friend you would do anything for? It is one area in my life that I really lucked out in. 36 years we have known each other and I think of him as nothing othe...


October 31, 2020

Dealing with it in My Therapy Book

What she has is not a cold or the flu an attitude or a phase. She will not get better anytime soon. A nap won’t help. She is not lazy but she is tired to the point of a lethargic state. She’s on ...


“Sometimes you have a good day, and sometimes you get hit in the teeth with a ruler”. Nora - 4 years old. I read this on the way to work this morning and thought to myself; how does a 4 year old...


We finally got our first personal Covid scare. My wife got tested months ago for work but at that time we did not believe she was sick or even exposed to someone. She simply had a fever one day...


I was listening (and singing along) to the song I Can See Clearly Now this morning while I was getting ready for work. About half way through the song I realized just how much this song did not ...


October 23, 2020

The Second Breath in My Therapy Book

You take a deep breath and look at the screen and wonder… what will I write today. What in my life is worth writing about. Then you take a second deep breath and write anyways. Because the poi...


“Every now and then when your life gets complicated and the weasels start closing in, the only cure is to load up on heinous chemicals and then drive like a bastard from Hollywood to Las Vegas … ...


I’m not really sure where I’m headed at the moment, I know that allows been going on and that life keeps changing. I had a decent weekend this weekend. I went over and helped a friend install har...


October 15, 2020

My Mother in My Therapy Book

Today needed two entries because today is my mother’s birthday and I can’t talk about her in an angry post. She has been gone a long time now, she never got to see my kids and see what I turned ...


What started out as a positive up beat day turned to shit in a heart beat. One car ride with the mother in law and you whole day can go to hell. I am so angry right now I can hardly see straigh...


I got to work this morning and went straight to work. I had an amazing day yesterday getting a ton of work accomplished and staying focused and on task for the majority of the day. I sent out t...


October 12, 2020

Another Monday in My Therapy Book

Well the weekend has come and gone with little to no change in my life. I did get my flu shot which is guess is something. Still a little sore this morning. My wife kept bugging me about it so...


October 08, 2020

Focus eludes me in My Therapy Book

I have been waking up every day at 2:30 and having a fit full sleep after that. I used to take a sleep aide but I was informed by my friend Scott that I should not be. I want to sleep through t...


I would give just about anything for a day with no new shit thrown at me. My daughter’s LMHC called yesterday, if you ever dealt with this you know that is never good. It would appear that my d...


I burned my foot last night. All my own fault but it still hurts. Peeled the skin right off the top. I did not wear shoes to work today and my office mate informed me that I needed to go in an...


I am going to try to go into this week with a positive attitude and try to stay that way for as long as possible. Giggling to me self I wonder if it will even last through the day. It was a fa...


October 01, 2020

Selfish in My Therapy Book

I have just about reached a breaking point with my daughter. I live in fear of saying something to upset her in the idea implanted in my mind that after I do I will come home and find her lying ...


I often wonder at my own self worth, what purpose do I serve and why am I here. Sure, I am a father, employee, and friend but in the grand scheme of things what purpose do I serve on this ball o...


September 25, 2020

Cutting in My Therapy Book

My daughter is backing to harming herself again. I am at a loss. The pain I feel every time I see a mark on her makes me feel like she is cutting me also. My chest tightens up and I can barely...


September 24, 2020

Just some thoughts in My Thoughts

How do you deal with family? I know everyone has some family issues on some level but at times mine seem so great that I am not sure what to do. At times I want to walk away and not look back. ...


So with STEPP I am supposed to write about when my stress and anxiety level become elevated so that I can get in touch with the emotions and better understand them. They are elevated right now! ...


October 22, 2019

Stress Level 9 in My Therapy Book

Okay, the last couple of days my stress level has been through the roof. I have tried to not focus on things that I can not change and only on those that I can have a direct impact on. That is ...


Who the hell knows but I have started an self paced online therapy program for my stress and anxiety in hopes of gaining a better understanding. I’m not sure how I feel about it yet but I do be...


I would love to wake up in the morning with someone standing over me beating me on the head with a stick, that way I would at least know where the pain is coming from. I am so tired of people as...


I know it is early but I have had a fairly positive day today. I’ve accomplished a lot of tasks at work and it feels like I’ve put some things behind me today. It did not start out the best wit...


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