The anger is eating me up in My Thoughts

E is driving me crazy, I don’t know what to do about her, and each day she seems to push the envelope a little more. This morning was no exception, on a day that should have been about her grandmother, not about her, she had a breakdown over something as minor as how her pants fit.

It is starting to cause a rift in the family; I swore at my wife today which is something I never do. In the 24 years that we’ve been married, I have probably done it all off four times, but I was pushed to the edge today just lost my temper. I’ve not spoken to my wife or my daughter since this happened, and to tell the truth; I don’t give a crap. I’m sick and tired of all the s*** that is happening, and all the stress is causing our lives.

I am at a loss because I don’t normally go off on my family member. I love each one of them on too many levels to explain, and I don’t understand why I can’t let this go. When we parted from each other this morning, I did not even say goodbye. Sitting here in retrospect, I cannot even imagine what would happen if something happens to either one of them today in the guilt that I would feel. Even as I sit here writing this one part of me says I should call or text them and another part of me just says screw it.