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This will be short. I turn 39 today. I am not ready to be 39. There is so much I wanted to have in my life by now that I don’t and I question if I ever will. This past year has been a rough one....

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I’m still so very sad. There are times I find glimmers and sparks of joy and other times my sadness over whelms me so much I begin to weep. I’m so far behind in reading most of you and when I do ...

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It’s funny how you think you’re doing ok, plugging along and then something out of no where triggers everything you thought you had dealt with or had moved past and you’re sitting alone at home s...

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Happy new year....2018 was one of the worst years of my life completed by being stood up tonight. Im hoping 2019 is a better year. Love you all.

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Wishing all of you a day to appreciate all that you have and all the people in your life, you can celebrate these things even if you aren’t in the US. I am thankful for you all here who support ...

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Short sweet and to the point. I am still struggling, mom was in the hospital this week, but is home now. I am just so hurt for her. I just want her to feel better. I am stressed at work. I am ov...

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I’m struggling with a lot of things right now. I think I’m over my ex and then out of no where I’m overwhelmingly upset and cry over him. My brother has been living with me 6 weeks now and I need...

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I know I’ve been silent. I was healing, moving forward from my breakup and the drama and stress that had come with it. I can say I’m over him. Not over the loss of what I thought I had. I want th...

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I just need some positive thoughts and prayers and good vibes please at some point I will be able to write, but not right now.

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So as usual I haven’t written in awhile, but have big news. Embarrassing as it is to admit at 37 years old I finally have a boyfriend. We celebrated one month yesterday. I am so smitten by him...

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Warning this dream deals with suicide by shooting so if that is a trigger to anyone please do not read. This is my first entry in my dream book and it is because the dream I had last night was ...

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depression and anxiety and unhappiness, but oh how I hide it well from everyone because although I love everyone in my life they never get it. I say some small things about having a bad self est...

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Merry Christmas to you my lovely friends. May your days be filled with love, joy, and peace. I will be celebrating with my mom who has been in the nursing home since her latest surgery at the be...

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Happy Thanksgiving to you all. Although this year had many ups and downs, I have so much to be thankful for. Today will be the first Thanksgiving without my grandpa so that will be hard, but I ...

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So yeah life has been incredibly crazy. This is just an update to say I am alive and hanging in there, happy at times, sad at times, angry at times. Crazy most of the time. I went on my 3 coun...

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So I came back from my trip and it has almost been a month already and I can’t believe it. My trip was amazing and bittersweet all in one. Life continues to be moving too fast for me to ever ge...

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Well in a few hours I will be headed to Denmark, Sweden, and Germany. I am visiting friends and attending another friend’s wedding. I got everything done I needed to before leaving by the skin ...

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So much has been going on, nothing bad, just busy busy busy. My title is in reference to finally getting a clear answer that I will never have a future with A even though he loves me. It is tim...

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That is what I woke to the day after grandpa died, and once again when my best friend’s father passed away 5 days later. My life continues to go on and it will still have highs and lows and I wi...

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My best friend’s father died unexpectedly today, I don’t know how to help her right now other than offering my support which is all I have in me to give right now. I want a do-over for 2017. I p...

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to say what you want to say, to do what you want to do. As I kissed my grandfather goodbye tonight on his forehead, it may be the last time I will have seen him alive. The hospice people say the...

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that’s what I am.

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My mom just texted me telling me to call my grandpa every night even if it is just for two minutes he keeps declining, she keeps getting worse, I am getting in a funk and am doing nothing to help...

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your mom looks at you with tears in her eyes, barely able to stand from the pain and says honestly Maria some days it would be better if I just died. I said don’t say that, but I know she is in s...

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So I usually don’t make resolutions because I don’t keep them so I made some goals for this year. Number one being happier, number 2 trying to fix my finances as I let it all slide with everythi...

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