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So ten days in Iceland and I came home with over 1000 photos and some wonderful memories. There were a few moments that upset me, but now being home and trying to figure things out I don’t think ...

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My emotions are OOC out of control. I am crying all the time and so unhappy and I am aside from seeing a therapist and changing my life completely out of options and I am not sure I am ready to ...

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So I came back Wednesday night from Iceland and although Iceland was all that I hoped it would be my trip was not. Overall it was great, but there were many times I was reduced to tears and now ...

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So 14 hours I will be leaving for Iceland with one of my best friends. I have been waiting since February for this day to come. I can not express enough how much I need this vacation. I can only...

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First of all my uncle passed away last night. He entered hospice at the beginning of the week and passed at 11 PM last night. Thank you to anyone who was praying for him. He was very sick, so h...

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I was going through old photos and came across this one. It didn’t scan the greatest, but I still love it.

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losing my mind. I am becoming forgetful, I require tons of sleep and still can’t function correctly. I am tired and feel aches and pains almost all the time. I completely forgot about a mandator...

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Please keep my uncle in your prayers as he was taken to the hospital last night. He is suffering from pancreatic cancer and is on a ventilator and bleeding in his stomach. They say it doesn’t loo...

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Why am I good enough to F**K, but not good enough to love or even to date? That is all, no comments needed I just had one too many assholes in my life today.

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I am having one hell of a pity party today. Crying off and on all day and eating enough junk food I will probably make myself sick. It doesn’t take much a few weeks ago I got really sick and ha...

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Yesterday I wrote an entry reminding myself to focus on those who wished me well and ignore those that may have forgotten that today was my 35th birthday. I will say by accepting ahead of time t...

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I have goal for tomorrow and it is to remember those who thought of me and wished me well and to not focus on those who forget and continue to bring me down. I am writing this down so that when...

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When you wash your hands, do you use the cold or hot tap? My skin is super sensitive so I use warm I turn or hot and cold and mix it to as hot as I can handle. If you had to be straight/gay for ...

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not…I just got my assignment for my summer hours and not only did they take my second client from me to give to someone else they lowered my hours even more than normal for the summer. You see o...

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First mother’s day without a grandma and without Helen surrogate grandma to celebrate with. SO grateful I have my mom still, but it was hard being reminded of their loss this past year. Also ha...

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that even in my own diary I don’t feel that I am good enough.

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A rare picture that I think I look pretty in. A special someone told me I was gorgeous and beautiful in it.

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So life has been a mixed bag of emotions lately and I have so much to say so I guess I will break it into topics by paragraphs. Family…still worried about my parents. My mom is being forced to re...

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This morning on my way to work my car was hit by a pickup truck. I am ok my car wasn’t damaged too much, but this was a shock and stress I didn’t need. That’s all I have to say for now. Thankful...

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I just give and give and give and when I need it back there is no one there to return the favor. How much more can I give without getting it back and giving up. I have to learn to walk away ev...

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Well as you all know I am not a frequent write on here, well I can when I make an effort, but I tend to keep to myself as in my own brain rather than even share on here my deepest darkest thought...

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A few times this winter the advisories have stated freezing fog and this was a picture I captured of what freezing fog does.

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Well a week has passed since my potential work crisis and it seems either the kid was lying when he said what he said or the mom didn’t really care about it. Things have actually been going well...

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For those of you not up on the current movies this stands for designated ugly fat friend…I have always been aware of my weight and that I was never ever really thin or even thick, but always over...

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First with the great news of the day…my brother and parents left a little while ago to bring my grandfather home. Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. Now for the low…I am feeling low pa...

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