New year already in tears part 3 in Torridaussity Two

So this entry will update you all on my health this past year and some other random information. So I don’t talk a lot about my health, but I have been a type 2 diabetic since I was 19 or so. I had really good control of it up until the last two years. No matter what I have done it doesn’t work so I finally had to start using insulin and my family doctor is upping it till we get my A1C down to where it should be, but it’s been about 6 months and we are finally seeing better numbers, but over the last 2 weeks they went all wonky again. I am going to see a new endocrinologist in 3 weeks and hopefully they will get me settled. My thyroid has been a bit wonky too. I have Hashimoto’s which is when the body attacks the thyroid. It can really mess you up if you levels are not correct. Lastly my B12 deficiency reached an all time low…they couldn’t really give me number it was that low so I must go on shots for the rest of my life as my body just doesn’t absorb it through pills. I have been suffering the side effects and didn’t even realize it. Depression, issues with muscles and nerves, trouble sleeping, etc. Hopefully the weekly shots I have to do will get it back to normal quickly. Mentally I have been on a roller coaster. This year I will be 40 and my hopes and dreams of marriage and kids slips further from my grasp and it is hard to see my friends happy with their kids and spouses and not long for that too. I am learning to just take a day at a time and enjoy my life as it is, but some moments are just very hard to deal with it. So it’s been a rough year mentally and physically, but I am working on getting myself healthier and happier each day.
I still have the same two jobs began year 16 at each…being the music director for my church and working one on one with children who have behavioral problems. I could use more money as we haven’t had a raise in over 5 years and the cost of living increases each year, but overall I enjoy both jobs.
I continue to do art and make cards and wreaths as my hobbies and I really enjoy them. I have been overspending a bit too much retail therapy if you will so need to find other things to make me happy lol.
I think that sums up my life over the last three entries or at least my 2019 and very beginning of 2020. My next post who knows when that will be, but it will bring my life all up to date for the year. Thanks for those of you still reading and commenting. I think I have 2 people left to catch up on and then you are all caught up. I read all of you, just don’t always comment.