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So Joey did his thing on Wednesday. Said it was fine. Although he did just have to go to the men’s toilets in the reception of the hospital. I think down the line this might be something I have t...

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Firstly, I can’t even. One of my patients looked at me today and said to me today ‘ooh are congratulations in order?’ to which I responded, ‘no, no, just the usual Christmas overindulgence’, thin...

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There are many things that are worrying me right now. Joey and I decided to go ahead and ask to be referred for an appointment with a fertility specialist. Ultimately, my brother is no closer to ...

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I’m working my last night shift for a while. I’ve been on nights for the last month, and I’m so ready for them to be done. I usually sleep a little on my break because I sleep horribly in the da...

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Joey and I have been indecisive about when to visit our docs to be referred to our local hospital for fertility treatment. Way back last April we had said we’d give it until new year (i.e now), t...

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I feel like a broken record, going over and over the same worries in my mind. I think I had managed to put them to the back burner with thinking we might go to Australia in the summer and put of...

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It was bound to happen, it’s come as by surprise, but I totally underestimated how it would make me feel. One of my work besties is pregnant. She went for her 12 week scan yesterday and found ou...

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We got a dog! She’s a rescue, Just under 2 years old, Lurcher/Lab cross and absolutely the best decision we’ve ever made. She is 100% the most beautiful and precious thing I’ve ever owned and I...

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Not pregnant. I figure I’ll see what happens over the next week, take another test if no period appears, then if that’s negative consult my doctor. I’ve been having some very light cramping the ...

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I’m 10 days late. Off to buy a test. Feel sick at the prospect of the outcome, we both so desperately want this. Xx

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My period is late. By like a week. I took a test in work today, which was negative as expected. What I didn’t expect was how I would feel about it. I’ve been regular as clockwork since I had my ...

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So very often our patients tell us how they’re inspired by what we do, by how gracious and understanding we are when faced with the things we see during our work day. They have a lot of time to s...

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My best friend is moving to Norwich and I’m so incredibly sad. I think when I’m an old lady and people ask me about true love, my girlfriends will beat any boy to the top of the list. My relati...

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You guys, I had the most vivid dream about being pregnant last night. Down to what I was wearing and everything, conversations I was having. And to be honest, I woke up with tears in my eyes. It...

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I’m in bed. Actually, we’re in bed. Joey is next to me snoring his head off. And I look at him, and I think, I couldn’t imagine spending my life without you. I don’t think I’ve ever seriously co...

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As usual, when things are going well, I never seem to find time to write about it! Following on from my last entry about joey, things have been good. He’s barely been drinking in the week, the o...

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My bestie was home from London this weekend. She moved down there about 9 years ago for work, but she’s a friend I’ve grown up with, been friends for 29 of our 31 years. We went for brunch, and ...

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In solidarity with joey not drinking, I also said I would not drink in the week. To be honest, I’m not a big drinker anyway. Don’t get me wrong, I did all the underage binge drinking that is expe...

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We talked. Like really talked. And I think something has actually clicked with him. I tried really hard to make him understand how close he was to losing me, without it sounding like a threat. Th...

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Do you ever feel like you’re fighting a losing battle? I know I’m late to the party, but I’ve realised it really doesn’t matter what joey says to me about things changing, nothing will if he does...

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I don’t know if joey doesn’t know what ivf fully involves, whether he thinks it’s a walk in the park, but honest to god I am starting to get so frustrated and a little resentful that he could ask...

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I’m struggling with the whole lack of control in this baby making situation. If I could take joey’s sperm out of his body and look after it properly I’d be like a billion times happier. The drin...

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Since I last wrote, things have improved dramatically. I haven’t made any comment to joey other than what I’d written about in the last entry, and have pretty much left him to his own devices dri...

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So basically I told joey that I think he has a problem with alcohol, and it didn’t go down well. Obviously, how many people who have problems but don’t care to admit or address it thank someone f...

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Do you ever feel like you’re never going to get what you want? This, all this trying to conceive stuff, should be a two way Street right? The decision was ours together, and he professes to want...

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