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Self inflicted night shifts
I feel awful. Like truly dreadful. I started with a sore throat almost five weeks ago, the week before we went on holiday. I had worked a ton of hours with very little time off and had been burni...
The story of the adopted child
My brother has a best friend called Ali. They’ve been friends for as long as I can remember, like childhood best mates - they’ve both turned 30 this year. Growing up, Ali practically lived in ou...
Insomnia
I can’t sleep. I’ve been working night shifts so that’s probably got a little to do with it, although I always try to get myself back into a good sleep routine straight away. That being said, I’...
The proposal
I can’t remember whether I had written about joey asking my dad about us getting married. It was way back in April. He was super nervous, which is ridiculous given that we live together and are s...
Shock of my life
Oh my god you guys, I am engaged!!!!!! Technically we are engaged I suppose! So excited, will post the full story later! Xx
Dark days
M has been found dead. I think it’s the news we were all expecting, but dreading. I didn’t know him personally, but he’s a good friend of my sister’s and her group of friends. How do you begin t...
It's a very, very, mad world
I don’t even know what to say about the terrorist attack on Manchester last night. It’s 45 minutes from home, I’ve been in that arena I don’t know how many times over the years, from my first gig...
Slow Torture
These night shifts are a slow kind of torture. Sleeping in the day has become even more of an issue, according to the fit bit yesterday I got 2hrs 54minutes. I’m 4 hours off finishing my final ni...
I hate you so much right now
I ran today. My knee is fucked. I had to hobble 2 miles home. I hate that I’m pushing myself too hard I hate that I’ve been greedy and self indulgent to the point that this is an issue I hate ...
It never rains
I’m not gonna lie, I’ve been feeling pretty crappy and down lately. I’m sleeping terribly, I’m having a lot of headaches, I’m exhausted all the time. Then to top it off yesterday, I called into ...
Frustrated as hell
That is my overwhelming emotion lately. Night shifts AGAIN. These have been particularly torturous, long nights pleading with a dementia lady to stay in bed so she doesn’t fall. Long nights of c...
Pain
My back is in complete spasm. I’m lying here literally rooted to the bed unable to move. I’ve a long standing history of back problems. Thanks to spending half my lifetime caring for people, and...
Mother's Day
Tomorrow is Mother’s Day in the uk. I’m working so I’m seeing Mum today. To be fair I see her most days I’m off work, I’m so lucky that we’re close, we’ve never really argued. The odd tiff that w...
Today is another day
Firstly, I have to thank you all for your notes on my last entry. They were very much appreciated. I’m still feeling a bit of emotional aftershock from yesterday I think. It was definitely the m...
Ugly crying face
Today was the most heart breaking day. I had to send a patient home to die, he’s 46. He has a wife and two young children, like primary school age. He’s always handled his disease with so much di...
