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Gymnastics
I had such a lovely evening yesterday. We have had such amazing support from our families throughout the whole IVF process that I thought it would be nice to get to bring our mums and sisters to ...
Butterbean
After receiving a lovely note today (Thankyou!), I realised I haven’t written in ages! Just done my usual lurking about. I’m 14 weeks + 4, we’ve had our viability scan at 7 weeks and our 12 week ...
Teabag-gate
It’s safe to say the pregnancy hormones are in full swing. I cried for an hour last night because Joey made cheese on toast wrong. There was shouting. I kept saying I know you’re making an effort...
Official test day
Up until today I’ve been testing with internet cheapies, and a whole box of tests given to me by a colleague - they don’t test their patients before each chemo anymore, just new patients, so had ...
Tentative
Our official test day is next Tuesday, but I caved yesterday and tested. There was a squintier of a line and I didn’t dare believe this might have worked. I tested again this morning and there is...
FET
There is an embryo in my uterus!! It felt like a totally different experience to the first time around. I think the first time around it was all a bit traumatic. We had done 7 weeks of meds just ...
The Impatient Patient
Our frozen embryo transfer will be next week. I’m just waiting on ovulation, and awaiting it impatiently. I’ve never peed on so many sticks in all my life as I have done over the last 9 months. O...
Unhinged
Since our fresh embryo transfer failed, I’ve been angry and upset a lot of the time. It’s not even just about that, it’s about everything. Our doctor was surprised that I didn’t have a better re...
Ivf fail
Sadly it seems like our first transfer has been a fail. Official test day isn’t until Wednesday (it’s a late day to test). The tests we’ve done so far have been negative, not even a glimmer, and ...
PUPO
Pregnant until proven otherwise....... we have one perfect, top grade embryo on board! I absolutely cannot believe this has happened. I’m having a panic at the moment that I’m finding it so hard...
Meltdown
I’m in Norwich, visiting my bestie. She’s had to work this morning so I’ve taken myself off into Norwich to do the touristy thing, have a wander round the shops and city centre. I visited the ca...
Time on my hands
Aah night shifts. When it’s quiet like it is tonight, it’s way too much idle time to just sit and think. I feel like some kind of role reversal has happened between Joey and me. Last night he sa...
Losing my mind
We had our follow up ivf appointment. We start meds 15/17 August, with a view to collection on 6th September and transfer 8/11 September. I should know whether it’s worked by 20th ish September. ...
Consent forms
Just filling in our billion consent forms. I mean, I give chemo in work, people consent for me to essentially pump them with poison, and that is one signature on a scrap of paper. I exaggerate, i...
Woe is me
My work bestie had her babies on Monday. Her two beautiful, healthy, naturally conceived twins. One little egg split in two. No complications during pregnancy or birth despite the doctors putting...
Fast forward
Oh my goodness. Everything is moving forward at super speed now. We had our info session yesterday, got given a billion consent forms and all the info about meds and self injection and side effec...
Picking up the pace
I’m off work sick with a migraine. Honestly, it’s like the migraine that just keeps on giving. I’m at the point where I don’t know if the migraleve is making me feel worse because of the codeine ...
Target
You guys, I’ve hit my target weight! Totally unexpectedly, given that I’d had a few gin and tonics last night while sat in the sun. But there it was, 81.3kg on the scale this morning! We see our...
Cut like a knife
An ex colleague is 20 weeks pregnant. She posted on Facebook yesterday about feeling fat and how the body she worked so hard for is being ruined, and how she can’t wait to get back to the gym. I...
Long shot
You guys, I don’t even know where to start. I feel bereft and so so angry right now. After my hycosy last month meaning clear and open tubes, and with joey having done dry January and his sperm ...
Kick me while I'm down
We had our meeting with the consultant today. Essentially he’s very nice but has basically told me I need to lose another stone in weight to qualify for NHS funding. That’s in addition to the 10l...
Hycosy day
Had my hycosy today. Or HSG test if you prefer. Wasn’t as bad as I thought. A bit of a pinching pain as they passed the catheter through my cervix, a bit of pressure as they injected the dye, and...
One born every minute
I don’t know if they have this in the U.S. Apparently one child is born every minute in the UK. This programme that’s on right now is based in Liverpool Women’s Hospital. That’s my hospital. Th...
Meh
‘Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I’ll try again tomorrow’. I just saw this, and how apt it is today. A day in work, not with my...
Chiming in
I’m an open person. I think since I’ve spent my life looking after people, performing deeply personal tasks and asking deeply personal questions, I’ve come to the realisation that I can only ask ...
