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April 07, 2024

#403-Good memories in Magician Card

My bf came to get me on April 3rd and I was nervous since it’s been about 7 months since we last saw eachother. Like time goes by so fast as well. He’s just been trying to get things together and...


One of my friends is very obsessed with a girl. Or a woman I guess you could say. I told him not to act desperate because he can get ahead of himself sometimes. To give her some space, and wait u...


March 26, 2024

#401- in Magician Card

I haven’t seen my partner in over 6 months now. We started off meeting off reddit and were seeing eachother every week up until he moved on from his last job.Right now he’s taking some exams and ...


A friend from the past came back into my life in the past two weeks. They were someone I knew online when I was 15 and he was 14. And lately I feel weird about people who used to be in my life an...


Those people from your past. The ones that you have fond memories of, and maybe you’re like me, someone who spent a lot of time in isolation. I spent a lot of time staying away from people, missi...


Today I was supposed to have a job interview but I decided to just not bother going. As to why, honestly the pay isn’t good or worth it. I just decided I would try to relax today, even if it’s Mo...


There’s no reason for me to go back to Facebook, but I want to be nosy sometimes. Like really nosy. It wouldn’t be good for my mental health. Originally I planned to only leave Facebook for a few...


I’m ending the day by skipping my exercise. I guess I just didn’t feel like it today. I haven’t felt like it in general, sometimes it’s like I’m dragging my feet with things I should be doing. I ...


July 19, 2023

#325- in Magician Card

Yesterday I officially started my social media detox which will last for at least 6 months. Only for two different platforms I use way too much. Generally those two are the only form I use anyway...


I keep thinking about the old friend who had a baby recently. I’ve been avoiding Facebook since there are lots of baby pics since it’s a new baby, lots of excitment. I know one day I’ll be able t...


I get this anxiety lately that Sion is slowly falling out of love with me. Maybe it’s because he doesn’t seem as excited at the idea of marriage. But honestly he’s always been open to the idea to...


I’ve been miserable with boredom. Out of all things. Depression causes people a lot of symptoms, but for me it’s like I find zero interest in most things normally pleasurable. It’s terrible. Like...


Today I don’t feel too bad. Last night I had an edible before bed. I was on the phone with Sion like usual, just relaxing. I’ve been playing a lot of different games before school starts. My fami...


July 01, 2023

#312-Not pregnant in Magician Card

I’m a bit sore this morning. I had a pregnancy scare, if I can call it that. I have one year left of school and want a baby really bad and while I have a healthy relationship, car, education, and...


Things are getting better lately. Everyday is a new day, everyday it feels slightly better. Looking at baby photos of the newest baby no longer gives me such a strong emotional reaction that it d...


June 21, 2023

#305-Social Media in Magician Card

I decided maybe spending time on Social media is bad for me to some extent. My life is good but it’s hard sometimes when you see people having their highlights. I lost a baby and someone I know j...


I did a lot this morning, and now I think a major part of my depression seems to be the fact that I get tired at the end of the day. It leads to negative thoughts and confusion for me sometimes. ...


Emotions are very fickle. One moment I’m in my highs, next minute I’m back down to the floor once again. It’s been the hardest depression I’ve had in some time. I think I was already slowly trick...


June 19, 2023

#298-New Baby in Magician Card

They had their baby and all is well still. I am feeling a bit better. It brings back memories of my miscarriage. It brings up jealousy. It brings up a host of emotions that I can’t even describe ...


June 19, 2023

#297-Rough day in Magician Card

Someone I know had a baby and things have just been very triggering for me. My heart aches because I have lost my own baby and it just hurts. Another part of it is mourning the relationship that ...


I woke up this morning in a much better mood, yesterdays cry was probably what helped a lot. I spent the day in bed pretty much with my boyfriend on the phone. Felt nice. I also played a lot of g...


I feel like shit. This morning I got up super late, things felt alright. My friend is having her baby soon so I have been feeling a tinge of sadness because I have lost my own. I had a late-term ...


June 10, 2023

#291- Baby blue's in Magician Card

My friend’s baby should be born soon. She’s been on drugs during her pregnancy, lives at home with parents, has a lot of mental health issues. I feel for the baby the most. I guess I’m jealous. I...


I was feeling really sensitive last night. I had my last therapy session two weeks ago, so I’m on my own. I just have to do the work…and part of me is lagging. I started my period which might exp...


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