#305-Social Media in Magician Card

I decided maybe spending time on Social media is bad for me to some extent. My life is good but it’s hard sometimes when you see people having their highlights. I lost a baby and someone I know just had one. While I’m glad things went well....I also find that It upsets me looking at nothing but baby pictures all the time. They have a lot of issues and drug issues. So I know all these things about it but yet it obvs will never show on Facebook. It’s full of timed photos and sharing of joy. Which is good. It just looks too ‘perfect’. So I tend to assume a lot of things or compare my bad times to their joyous moments. Limited information about what their bad times are like and you never truly know what someone’s life is life to them. So I figured maybe it’s time I stay away.

I just think It’s not always the best for me right now. It’s unrealistic.

Plus, I find myself going back to their page repeatedly over and over, torturing myself knowing full well it will upset myself. This person also hurt me in the past, could be very cruel. I just don’t think it’s worth it anymore.

And so I try to stay off now but it’s so tempting…I just wish I could do it easily.