#335- Skipping interviews in Magician Card

Today I was supposed to have a job interview but I decided to just not bother going. As to why, honestly the pay isn’t good or worth it. I just decided I would try to relax today, even if it’s Monday. To be honest I also start school soon, once again. There is no need for me to really bother finding more work, other than to provide myself with some spending money.

After school ends, which is in a year, I should be able to find a work-from-home job that pays decently. Most importantly is the fact that it’s stable, so I look forward to that.
I spend some time taking care of my houseplants this morning. I can’t keep a fern alive for the life of me. I’ve decided not to get anymore unless I can revive the ones I already have.
I also changed regular water to distilled water because the leaves are always getting crispy at the ends and my friend recommended this as a replacement that might help things stay more “green”.

I also decided to delve more into painting dolls, it’s a hobby of mine that I don’t tell a lot of people about.

I feel kind of disappointed in myself for not going to the interview and just choosing to relax, because at the very least it would make good practice. But there will be so many more opportunities for me to go to interviews, and for jobs I actually want for certain. This job is a small one-time job that requires me to complete a simple task. But I decided that it wasn’t worth it anyway.

I also just feel a bit exhausted. I’m going to try to do some stretches today since my shoulder hurts and maybe meditate to help with some of my anxiety. I guess deep down it’s not as much about me being anxious about the interview so much as there is very little incentive to do the interview.