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I spent several hours this weekend organizing and shedding all unnecessary possessions and paperwork. It’s been awhile, and as always, it comes as a surprise how much extraneous SHIT one person ...

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.....with the current rather than against it. It makes for a much less exhausting journey.

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Either I break out of the logjam I’m in, or the malaise and inertia is going to do me in. I’m at the point where either I go forward, or I start sliding backwards. The winter thaw we’re experienc...

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We’re in the heart of winter now- another storm coming in a few hours, followed by below-zero temps. This is when I go into survival mode. My days consist of outside clean-up at home, and then in...

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Time for the next phase. I think I purged out the last of the bitterness and disappointment today. Sometimes you gotta wallow in it to get it out of your system. And then after the wallowing come...

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It took awhile, but winter has definitely settled in- and I friggin’ HATE it. Now comes the battle I always wage with myself until Spring arrives. This isn’t the seasonal depression stuff I typi...

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The further along I am on this personal journey towards self- understanding, the more I can see the tracks I’ve left behind me as I’ve slowly emerged from the weeds. I see those muddy footprint...

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Shoveled for more than 5 hrs today- snowblower wouldn’t stay running, so we had to do everything by hand. I’m definitely gonna be sore tomorrow. Current Temp is -1.3. Real feel is probably closer...

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After an early start in November, this year’s winter has been very mild so far. It’s been a nice change to keep crossing the weeks off the calendar without any significant snow or cold. That ends...

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Perry is borrowing my car- and some money-tomorrow. Dropped the car off down there tonite. It’s unreal the situation he got himself in with Cat. I feel bad for him as far as the Parkinson’s goes...

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My dreams have been interesting lately. In last night’s, I was a member of some army and up on a platform barefoot- some sort of scaffolding. Unpopped popcorn kernels began raining down on me, a...

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I’ve really underestimated how far taking healthy craps goes towards ones sense of well-being and a positive state of mind. Something as simple as that. I’ve been battling bathroom issues for a...

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The older I get, the more interested I am in “Truth.” Obviously, we are living in an alternative-facts world politically these days- but Im talking more about “Truth” on a personal level. Who AM...

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So, what do you think it means when you dream that your doctor is Bradley Whitford, and he is preparing you to lie in a coffin for 10 minutes so they can “measure you properly”? I’m usually pret...

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Why have I never read The Handmaid’s Tale? I’ve been on a bit of a reading kick again lately- Warlight, There There, Between The World and Me, Underground Railroad- all fine, fine books and ver...

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I’m getting better at winning the battle with myself. The man in the mirror is always my biggest adversary. My mirror-man insists on dwelling in negativity and wants nothing more than to talk me ...

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Change is hard. The malaise runs deep inside me. It’s going to take a LOT to change my mental habits and outlook enough to make some positive improvements in my life. The ditch I’ve been in for ...

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Today was a hibernate/recovery day- slept for almost 12 hrs and then did nothing but watch football. A necessary day though- I feel better tonite. I’m still gonna have this cold for awhile, but ...

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One of the things I really need to work on in this New Year is patience with other people. The older I get, the less tolerance I have for ignorance and stupidity. It appears to me that basic comm...

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The New Year’s cold continues- I’m not quite as caught in the vise grips of sinus pressure that I was earlier in the day. I’m hoping a good night’s sleep gets me turning in the right direction wi...

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I hate head colds- it always feels like the rest of the world is reaching me on a not quite tuned in frequency. I feel like I’m packed in cotton and in a glass-encased enclosure. I’m interacting ...

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I’m greeting the New Year with a cold- first serious cold I’ve had in about 3 years. I knew I’d get it- every time Shey gets sick, so do I. It’s been that way since she was a baby, and after spen...

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I’m anxiously awaiting tomorrow’s midterm elections with bated breath. I know the polls look good for a Democratic takeover of the House, but how wrong were the polls two years ago? God help us a...

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One of the joys of living here in the Mohawk Valley of upstate New York is the ever-present knowledge that my sinuses are alive and well. While taking a first-aid class long ago, my Red Cross ins...

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I’m a classic over-thinker. BIG TIME. I had a dream the other night I was playing poker and I had so many cards in my hands that it was impossible to make any rational decisions on how to play my...

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