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Zombieland
I heard “All You Zombies” by The Hooters earlier today- a blast from the past (mid ’80s?)- and it got me to thinking about how that describes so much of my life up to now. Because of my interpers...
Out of Hibernation
I’ve got an info session webinar with the director of the UB Rehabilitation Counseling program tonight at 6PM. I’ve procrastinated long enough and now it’s time to kick that process into gear. I...
So Much For That...
I jinxed myself by commenting in yesterday’s post on how much more settled my dreams have become. Last night- for the first time in I can’t remember how long- I woke myself up screaming “Nooooooo...
The Piano Is In The Room
My dreams have subsided in intensity and craziness, and I feel like my subconscious is through with the serious digging. In fact, I dreamt the other night that the subterranean chamber that I was...
Baseline
I feel like I’m at a healthy baseline for maybe the first time in my life. Sometimes it takes a few steps back in order to prepare yourself to move forward, and I feel like that’s what the last f...
Gray Canopy Over The World
We have entered the part of winter in the Great Northeast where each day is just a continuation of the day before- gray, dark, overcast, and dreary. Fortunately, this winter has been mild as far ...
The Other Side
I feel like I’ve made it to the other side of a lifetime of depression, anxiety, and feeling completely lost and empty. It’s felt like trying to climb a slippery slope out of the valley of shadow...
Underwater
I feel like I’m underwater today. Last night, I had one of the most intense nights of dreaming I’ve ever had interrupted by the worst case of cottonmouth I’ve ever experienced. I woke up at 4 A...
Random Thoughts
Things I’ve heard enough about: Tik Tok, Prince Harry, the Kardashians, “Ye”, anti-vac conspiracy theories, Elon Musk, the price of eggs, George Santos, special counsels, and the 2nd Amendment Th...
Self-Sabotage (Voices)
As I start climbing again, my biggest obstacle is ME. As much as I have worked to find my authentic self, the voices in my head persist. Voices that have been with me from my earliest memories an...
Latuda Dreams
One of the big obstacles that I need to overcome as I move forward is learning how to be able to lean into the day after a night of unsettling dreams. Ever since I’ve been on Latuda I’ve had nigh...
Re-Entry
After taking some time away from “life “and allowing myself a chance to begin to discover who I am at this point in time, I’m ready to re-enter the orbit of daily living. I’ve done significant wo...
