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Ugh! I should really get started on my school work, but I just can’t find the will to start. I’ve hit some kind of wall and I just want to sit and doing nothing all day long, but I know I can’t....

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*Well for starters, right now I should be doing my homework, but as always my mind has decided to procrastinate. Which means on Monday morning, I’ll be beating my head over this keyboard trying ...

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Only a few days left until we head off on our big trip to Japan, and of course I’m over preparing as usual. I have been packed for the past 3 weeks and bubbling with excitement. Now a lot of t...

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Well we finally got our Japanese currency which means we are one step closer to our week long trip next month to Japan. I’ve been packing for the past few weeks, collecting things here and there...

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Well today I definitely reached my max of social contract from volunteering for a car wash to a baby shower both events I knew little to know one. I just tried my best to make small talk laugh at...

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(sigh) Seems like all I do these days is go to appointments. Eye doctor, mental health, primary Doctor etc. I was just about thought them all but of course many of them need follow ups. I’m st...

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Well we are ending another week of our recent PCS move over to Guam, and from what I can see we are moving along at a good monderan speed. A few bumps so far however that was to be expected. Howe...

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Its been awhile since I’ve posted one of these; almost a year has come but not quiet. However here I’m ready to write again, and just like every other breathing human, life has happen. From wor...

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I have no idea how much more I can take.. I just feel so powerless, hopeless, defenseless, lonely, invisible, isolated, irritated, angry, guilty, scared, depressed, overwhelmed and down right fuc...

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Well I did it! I passed my PTCB! Not sure how.. because I felt I didn't study enough, and there was just so much material to go over and learn. I felt very overwhelmed at times, (I mean who would...

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I decided while my husband is away on deployment I'm going to lose about 20-30 lbs. I'm tired of the tights and the hips and that big ass that is plastered behind me. I want to be just about but ...

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I don't know what to do about this one ladies and gentleman; the need for white meat is coming on too strong. Which is unacceptable because I'm a married woman, married to a half black half His...

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Well its over and up in the air now; finally went in to take my PTCB exam. Which is something I have been procrastinating since graduation, which has been about 6 months now. I tried to study as...

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Ugh..... I didn't mean to snap on him but its beginning to be one too much. I love my husband but sometimes he can be so careless. I never knew it bother me so much until today. While Shopping...

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Something I should have started a long time ago... but better late than never. I figure if somehow start pulling few hundred aside each month and put it someone where to save it and try my best ...

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Well it seems that I have admitted defeat for now after last night; sitting in a dark bathroom in a empty bath tub sucking in some THC while listening to some Korn. Is indeed me finally waving...

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A thick darkness has locked me into an unimaginable all time low these past couple of weeks. A low that I have experienced often as a teen, however never as intense. In the past week I have foun...

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Its interesting that my mother for some reason has become concerned with how unhealthy it is that I spend so much time alone. "Must be very lonely" she saids. I sigh because this is the norm fo...

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Its interesting that my mother for some reason has become concerned with how unhealthy it is that I spend so much time alone. "Must be very lonely" she saids. I sigh because this is the norm fo...

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He didn't have to tell me really.... because I already knew that its not fair that I take out all of my frustration on my husband. But it wouldn't be if my husband would just take a moment and li...

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Well it seems my first attempt at making corned beef and cabbage was a bust. I put it in the slow cooker for about 8 hours just like the reprice said, but it seems I may have over cooked it. Howe...

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I don't know if I scare or amaze my husband with the many memories from my childhood and the many ideas I have floating around in my mind. Ever so often when he has time off or a weekend we hea...

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I'm going to learn one of these nights to stop going to my Hip Hop cardio class already exhausted. I downed a Red Bull before class but it seems it didn't fully kick in; I kept getting little e...

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I had a interesting night last night, after a long day of self pity I managed to pull myself together to attend a" Meetup.com" event for Pagans. I didn't know what to expect it was a chance to m...

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Yesterday I had reached a all time low; I spent most of the day on the couch with a box of tissues in my lap. The lack of progress and the amount of frustration going on in my little world had me...

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