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The fact that I filed for divorce yesterday didn’t actually hit me until the papers were served to him last night. And then it hit me hard. I couldn’t stop thinking about how he was going to ta...


The move this weekend went great. My mom flew in Friday night. I told my football team that she was flying in Thursday night because even though I was hobbling around on crutches, they still wo...


So at my last appointment with my therapist I told her I was waiting for a bomb to drop which would prevent me from moving this weekend. I told her whenever something starts going in the right d...


so i wrote my previous entry, and then my boss laid a big project on me in the late afternoon and I actually ended up having to work late and i did miss practice. I mean I could have went and ju...


February 06, 2018

whiney entry in Self-Improvement, 2018

Confession: There hasn’t been a football practice since in-season practices began the first week of January that I’ve actually been looking forward to. That said, I always feel better AFTER its ...


And you notice the huge “Happy Birthday” balloon floating above the table right behind your therapist for the first time. And you’re mid-sentence and you stop what you’re saying and say “is it yo...


January 29, 2018

No Gas Left in Self-Improvement, 2018

Y’all. I feel like I’m running on empty. But hopefully the end result is worth this battle. The letter to the husband actually went really well. He took it to heart and seems to accept the fa...


My husband has been heating up again and has now requested that I write him a letter detailing all of my thoughts recently. I told him I would write him a letter, but in doing so, it would come ...


so the appointment with my therapist, staring the hubby as the special guest, was last night. originally the plan was for me to pick him up after I got off work, but I hadn’t seen him since Thurs...


January 21, 2018

Y’all in Self-Improvement, 2018

I’m glad I’m standing up for myself and holding my ground and not at home. Hubby has been blowing up my phone. Yesterday I had to tell him that I was done texting for the day. I didn’t go to foot...


January 19, 2018

01/19/2018 in Self-Improvement, 2018

Super long story, short: Hubby and I are doing a trial separation this weekend. Shit hit the fan Wednesday night, we talked Wednesday night, we talked last night (Thurs night) and I made an eme...


January 03, 2018

01/03/2018 in Mental Health, 2017

I had my appointment with my therapist today. The first thing I did was mention my awful appointment with the other therapist. i wanted her to know that i A) at least tried and B)wasn’t 100% cli...


IM SO EXCITED!!! I called my old therapist’s new place to day to see if they were scheduling appts for her yet because last month they said that they wouldn’t be scheduling her appts for her unti...


James got back from his visit home for his father’s funeral on Saturday. His mom has no plans on moving out here. James DID text me once while he was gone asking how I would feel if his mom cam...


December 05, 2017

12/05/2017 in Mental Health, 2017

I officially cancelled my next therapy appointment. I just cannot mentally get past how much I couldn’t “click” with this lady. It just seemed off from the moment I walked into her office and s...


I should really write this recap tomorrow when I have a clearer mind BUT no time like the present: The Good: I got a second opinion of whether she thinks i have depression or am bipolar. She said...


And I’m feeling better. No more puking since the 5am episodes. I did have what felt like a racing heart for most of the day at work. Every time I stood up, I did this drunken sway type move. At ...


November 28, 2017

Idiot thing in Mental Health, 2017

You guys. I did an idiot thing. In my defense I didn’t think the result was going to be as bad as it was. Though, it could have been a lot worse. Yesterday, I was feeling pretty meh all day, b...


I feel like I’m walking on shells just waiting for the bad news bomb to drop because the hubby and I actually had a really good Thanksgiving, just the two of us. James cooked a turkey; it was his...


I spent the majority of my weekend mentally debating on whether or not its really necessary for me to continue therapy with someone new. I found a private practice online that accepts my insuranc...


November 16, 2017

Points for trying in Mental Health, 2017

I find got enough courage to start looking around for a new therapist. I don’t know how to explain how much anxiety I get making that first phone call. It takes EVERYTHING in me to place the ca...


November 14, 2017

11/14/2017 in Mental Health, 2017

Y’all. Thank you for being my voice of reason on days that my own brain can’t. You guys basically were right saying that I shouldn’t let a possible error on the receptionist’s part sever the tie ...


November 13, 2017

Just thinking in Mental Health, 2017

So I’m thinking about seeing a brand new therapist and starting over. I was gonna wait until this week to contact the new place that my old therapist is moving to/moved to to see if she started t...


I’ve been sort of in a mood today, so what better time to write. So I had to look back to see where I last left off. My last entry stated that I had just had my last appt with my therapist before...


September 29, 2017

Happenings in Mental Health, 2017

I had my last appt with my therapist today. She told me where she’s going! Hallelujah! She said that I should call them in a month or two if I want and she should be started by then. The mindfuck...


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