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Alright! I have some planning to do and I need to do it quickly while funds last. I’ve never made a shift of residence outside of my city before let alone to a different province. Busses are not ...

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I’m feeling a little vulnerable right now. I already tried to write this entry once and I was interrupted by my tears. There is no use lying to myself about it. I don’t have time to pretend that ...

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My ambitions, the way I see the world, is changed forever. I have new optics, a new lens, a new fundamental belief that I am developing which is shaping the way I will see the world forever. My s...

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I figured out what my angst is. I feel like I’m 14 and just mad at the world because I have outgrown people telling me what to say, what to think, what to feel and what to do with my life. I don’...

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I don’t know why it hits differently that my own mother is trying to get me to be silent. After decades of trying to be the quietest voice in the room… I know that she doesn’t like my politics, n...

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I was stuck in a mood swing for the last three days. Today I suspect it will continue. This angst is probably not strictly withdrawal from my meds. However, my anxiety is making a comeback. Obses...

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Just as predicted Jenson rejected this data about black on black crime. He challenged his friendslist to change his mind about black on black crime being a myth so I sent him: This Link Right Her...

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Hate Cake Recipe: 5 cups of any facts 3 tsp of opinions Moral ultimatum to taste. Personally, I go for the you’re evil if you don’t agree with me. Combine all ingredients. Place in the public, b...

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To follow up on my previous entry, Here Is A Link to a study that shows how people who signal victimhood and virtue are displaying Dark Triad Traits. Long story short, some people suck at life a...

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It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society. - Jiddu Krishnamurti I was a little unhinged yesterday. I lashed out all over my socials. Another man was shot resist...

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I managed to cry a little bit today. I’m not the emotional incontinent guy that I used to be but I was thinking about how when these BLM riots end there will be no jobs for those communities to g...

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I spent the day with Brucey yesterday. We went to a few different towns to walk along the beaches during this heatwave. Those towns were so much bigger to me when I was a child. It was spontaneou...

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I am baffled by how much doesn’t exist in the real world. How much in my life isn’t real. I don’t mean that the world is featureless and blank. It’s a system of concepts in which we describe thin...

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Does overthinking burn calories? My thoughts exhaust me. They wear me down. I count my blessings that my thoughts are not noxious. I am not weighed down by depressive thoughts nor am I frantic wi...

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First world problems are giving me mood poisoning today. My PC google browser is identifying as a mobile device whenever I try to go on YouTube. My PC speakers are crackling and my headphones sto...

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I am 34, I’m unemployed and I live in my sister’s basement and I’m living off of CERB. Some people call this rock bottom, some call it room for opportunity and I call it finally being boyfriend m...

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My niece returned from a weekend camping trip with my mother. I am excited that my mother gets to take her grandkids camping. Taking us camping was her favourite thing ever and now she gets to do...

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I think what a lot of people are failing to understand about themselves is their power. The agency that they have in their lives. They don’t have a good concept of responsibility. Personal respon...

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[Rant Warning: I’ve hit my breaking point with this pandemic] I just heard an interesting take on this pandemic. I only find it interesting because I have explored my shadow and I know what’s the...

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I need an intervention. Ben Shapiro read some of the lyrics to Cardi B’s new song WAP and listening to him talking dirty did something to me that it shouldn’t. I need Jesus. I need God. I need to...

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I feel compelled to write but I don’t have anything to say really. Okay, I do but it’s dumb and weird. Yesterday when I took my niece to a provincial park I caught myself checking out other guys....

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I left my mother’s today feeling pretty flustered. If anyone is going to manage to get under my skin it is going to be my mother. I’m not mad about it. I just have to process our interaction toda...

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There was a mini intervention moment today about my politics from my family. We hosted my niece’s fifth birthday so we had a decent-sized gathering to celebrate. I tried to refrain from bringing ...

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I’m feeling a little sensitive today, emotionally speaking. My pharmacist has yet to get a hold of my doctor’s office. Something I am also struggling with. I’m thinking about just giving up and q...

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Yet again I’m waiting for my doctors office to fax over my refill to my pharmacist. I don’t know if it is COVID related but this has never taken this long. I’m bad for cutting it close between re...

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