My ambitions, the way I see the world, is changed forever. I have new optics, a new lens, a new fundamental belief that I am developing which is shaping the way I will see the world forever. My spirit guides all said that 2020 would bring a new vision. It would wake people up to higher consciousness. To raise humanity’s frequency. COVID, these lockdowns, police brutality, fake news and these racial tensions are just the symptoms. It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society. I transcended my identities. I can participate with them but I no longer belong to them. I transcended just enough to become aware that most of what is in this world does not exist. We conceptualized everything. Power, borders, races, everything exists inside our concepts but they do not exist out there. It has been the job of mystics across history and culture to make people realize this. So, what is it that we are supposed to see in 2020 as transcended beings?
I went through my spiritual awakening. I will always be on that journey as I am an event but when I got to the grounding stage, in April, I started to reconnect to the world I felt like a stranger in my own life. Everybody identified me and treated me as somebody that I no longer am. I used to reflect back on what I thought people thought I was. I am not who you think I am; I am not who I think I am; I am who I think you think I am . I was just a perception of a perception. I’m not a gender, I have a gender. I am not a sexuality, I have a sexuality. I am not an ethnicity, I have an ethnicity. We are not creeds, we are not politics we are just consciousness having a temporary human experience. I made that eighteen-inch journey and connected my head to my heart, I am now whole and holy. So how do I fit in this world?
Tell me how to be in this world, tell me how to breathe in and feel no hurt.
I started to consume politics and I started with the opposing side. There is an old saying that if you don’t start off as a liberal you never had a heart and if you don’t die as a conservative you never had a brain. It sucked, it hurt because I had to realize how wrong I was about everything. About everyone. I no longer see everything through the lens of race, gender and identities. I no longer process everything through a victim mentality because I am healing. So what is this world then? That is the journey I am on now. We are born into these agreements in which we agree to believe that this matrix is real. These chosen woke ones, these lightworkers, are supposed to do what exactly? Wake humanity up? I know I sound esoteric but I know my role. My “frequency”. How I add value to others. I am a form of healer. My power is empathy. It’s a little more than that, I can reflect back and make people see. The Lakota people call my spirit a Heyoka. The heyoka is a contrarian, jester, and satirist, who speaks, moves and reacts in an opposite fashion to the people around them.
So what is that I see now in this world with my new optics? I see that our liberties are in the in-between for us to either reclaim or have them taken away.
New Zealand: Failed
Propaganda systems have helped push us into a crisis. I had that groupthink, I came out of it feeling betrayed. I didn’t know where those limiting beliefs came from. It was years in the making and I see it now. Textbook subversion. I unlearned it on my own without realizing it. They guided us through a demoralization, through destabilization and now to the crisis that is 2020 in which we hand over all of our liberties to a government in hopes that they stabilize and normalize things again and they will. They enabled the creation of these leftists to foster a disturbance and once they have omnipotent power they will turn around and eradicate those leftists to restore that peace and order. No more LGBT, no more feminists, no more protests and uprisings. Complete, hopeless submission to a communist government. We should have known the moment equality became a fundamental principle. God judges us by our deeds, our actions and our character. “Equality” is earned. Democracy was designed for unequal people to help each other through competition and perfectionism. True equality only exists once everybody is equally dirt. Forcing equality is like building a house on sand. That is 2020, western society is collapsing in on itself because of people being brainwashed into believing that equality can be legislated. My struggle has been to get people to stop looking at each other through the lens of race, gender and sexuality and to stop processing everything through a victim mentality because it has created confirmation biases that are making them believe in a fake representation of reality. Worse even, these victim signallers and virtue signallers are displaying the three dark triad traits (they pout for clout) and they have been given free rein to lash out.
I can see that the news is fake but I could not understand why it was fake. They’re protecting narratives to keep people’s emotions hijacked. The fake partisan war was going perfect until Trump came along and disrupted it by giving his country back to the people. His policies will be long-lasting if he wins this election so it’s literally communism (social justice) or Trump. The world is safest when America is strong and free. We need a strong and free America more than ever. This is the tipping point. America’s constitution was made knowing that a utopia was not possible. They created a constitution that would not let Americans fuck things up too badly by keeping the citizens bigger than the government. The violence will not end if Trump is elected says Biden as he continues to extort Americans.
How do we get people to wake up and see that they are brainwashed? They were tricked to hate their country, to hate capitalism and free markets, to hate wealth and each other. Equality is a farce. This is the result of textbook neo-Marxism and subversion. These social justice warriors are narcissists. They’re amplifying their pain to justify why they think that the world is cruel to them. They’re exploiting guilt-ridden people into getting sympathy and resources. Some are genuine and I don’t know what to think or feel or how to act. Blah. Ok, I need to stop ranting. I’m just trying to make sense of life and the world. It takes a collective intelligence to understand the complexities of the world and it has never been explained in soundbites or in tweets at an 8th-grade level and that is exactly where everybody is getting their sensemaking from. They’re falling for the propaganda and this narrative war. No Lives Matter. Just votes.
Ok, I need to go for a run. I have been feeling like things are lining up in my life and Hetal literally just called me to ask me to move to Windsor Ontario with her. Like, I was just saying that I want to leave Winnipeg. It feels like a sign.
Now I know it’s what I gotta do
Find a dream that’s new
Give it all I got this time
Last updated September 01, 2020