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by TL

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19 hours ago

Phoenix Moon

I definitely feel like I am seventeen again. At this moment. I have to go face the music and go to class. It feels like the first day of school which is what every day felt like back when my soci...


1 day ago

Fuck-It Era

All my scars are open. All of my suppressed trauma bubbled up to the surface last weekend. As we know. It’s not like things can be normal. At least, I can’t just be normal. My version of normal. ...


3 days ago

Social

I’m hungover today. The guilt will hit me later. I feel like I cheated myself but I shan’t punish myself for a good time. I wasn’t going to drink but I felt peer pressure. All of my friends, who ...


Be careful what you wish for. I said that I didn’t want to care anymore. Now I can’t care if I tried. This too shall pass. Who I am is collapsing in on itself, for better or for worse. I always ...


7 days ago

Happenings

I am not in control today. I don’t even care. I soaked in the tub when I got home. Did a detox bath. I lay naked in bed after. On a towel for a half hour because I continue to sweat, which is th...


April 15, 2024

Neurodivergent Burnout?

Social media has spawned a community of neurodivergents. I’ve mentioned it before and I find them very menacing. It’s another way people are getting their narcissist supply. Narcissism is not sep...


Yesterday, I surrendered to the part of my psyche that makes me act compulsively. I did not want to exert any of my mental energy. Call it a day off. It’s not a heinous pattern of behaviors, mind...


April 10, 2024

Mirror Mirror On The Wall

My previous entry gave me a catharsis I didn’t know I needed. The week that followed was like walking on air. I was not weighed down. That couldn’t possibly last, of course. My weekend was not a...


April 02, 2024

Birth Squeeze

After my previous entry, I started to feel very bummed out. Almost depressed. I didn’t know why until yesterday when I was supposed to go to class. I feel like I heard it out loud from Marcello t...


March 31, 2024

The Falling Sky

The pain isn’t happening when you are drunk, high, hooking up, having that affair, eating junk food, binge-watching Netflix, making that purchase, etc. We just forget that the pain is happening. ...


March 29, 2024

Be Kind, Rewind

Nostalgia is a time when you knew your place. My memory can take me right into a moment. It won’t just be pictures. I will remember the smells, the tastes, the sounds, and even my emotions. I wil...


March 28, 2024

Embers

I let myself cry today. Nothing special happened. I got emotional watching something and I surrendered myself to it. I was hoping for catharsis. Instead, all of my scars opened. What’s the opport...


March 27, 2024

Randomings

We’ve all hit our winter breaking point in my city. We hit it a long time ago. We are in the homestretch and spring cannot come fast enough. I’m tired of the freezing cold. We had a flurry last n...


March 21, 2024

First World Problems

I’m not a racist, fascist, misogynistic bigot… unless a) I’m driving. b) I contact customer support. c) I’m trolling. I’m not a good person, I’m not a bad person. I’m a whole person. However, I...


March 17, 2024

Where I'm Coming From

In case we don’t understand where I’m coming from. I used to be the person the world wanted me to be. The person I thought they wanted, I should say. Being gay is who you are. A therapist once sa...


March 16, 2024

Horror Show

The horrors persist but so do I 2024 is working my nerve. It’s first-world problems so I’ll be grateful for that much. I’m not a I got a headache kind of girl but I’ve had one most of the week. ...


February 04, 2024

My Astrology Forecast

I was doom-scrolling on TikTok and somebody mentioned the end of a karmic cycle for those with prominent Scorpio placements. The cycle started on November 4th, 2021, so we were told to remember t...


February 03, 2024

RIP Jolly Dodger

The plan was to take a month’s hiatus from Prosebox but the cosmos continues to test my nerve. The reason for the hiatus has nothing to do with anything profound. I just wanted to hide the shame ...


January 31, 2024

Breakthrough Era?

Every inch of me wants to shrink my surroundings to feel safe. At the same time, I want to be anywhere but here. I don’t even know where here is. I just feel like I need to be somewhere else. Doi...


January 30, 2024

Tune Up

Hi Tom, you big bloated bitch on Prosebox, how are ya? I need to tune in. I need to stop and reflect. I’ve been numbed out. Talk about ghosting, I feel like I am a phantom. Just sleepwalking thro...


January 30, 2024

Some Type of Way

I had a slight scare with my grandmother yesterday. I wasn’t able to get a hold of her. I told her that I would call before I left to take her shopping and because of her stroke, it was hard not ...


January 28, 2024

Oops… I did it again.

Some guy was giving me the creeps at the gym this morning. I was using the cable machine and he was just off in the corner starring at me. Maybe he’s zoned out and doesn’t realize. I figured. I g...


January 27, 2024

Wild World

Lenstar brought up something that happened in my city on Christmas day that I wasn’t following and it has been haunting me ever since. A woman was arrested at a hotel for wielding a knife. A drun...


You don’t need a pronoun to tell you who you are. I was half dreaming when that thought came to me. I’m just waking up from my nap. I can make that even deeper if I had the energy. Bottom line, ...


January 23, 2024

Blurb

I feel dirty. Absolutely filthy. I called in sick today so that I can study for my exam this evening. I’ll get over it. I just hate being dishonest. I am still on the fence about taking a second ...


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Things happening in my life currently