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I definitely feel like I am seventeen again. At this moment. I have to go face the music and go to class. It feels like the first day of school which is what every day felt like back when my soci...

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All my scars are open. All of my suppressed trauma bubbled up to the surface last weekend. As we know. It’s not like things can be normal. At least, I can’t just be normal. My version of normal. ...

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I’m hungover today. The guilt will hit me later. I feel like I cheated myself but I shan’t punish myself for a good time. I wasn’t going to drink but I felt peer pressure. All of my friends, who ...

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Be careful what you wish for. I said that I didn’t want to care anymore. Now I can’t care if I tried. This too shall pass. Who I am is collapsing in on itself, for better or for worse. I always ...

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I am not in control today. I don’t even care. I soaked in the tub when I got home. Did a detox bath. I lay naked in bed after. On a towel for a half hour because I continue to sweat, which is th...

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Social media has spawned a community of neurodivergents. I’ve mentioned it before and I find them very menacing. It’s another way people are getting their narcissist supply. Narcissism is not sep...

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Yesterday, I surrendered to the part of my psyche that makes me act compulsively. I did not want to exert any of my mental energy. Call it a day off. It’s not a heinous pattern of behaviors, mind...

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My previous entry gave me a catharsis I didn’t know I needed. The week that followed was like walking on air. I was not weighed down. That couldn’t possibly last, of course. My weekend was not a...

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After my previous entry, I started to feel very bummed out. Almost depressed. I didn’t know why until yesterday when I was supposed to go to class. I feel like I heard it out loud from Marcello t...

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The pain isn’t happening when you are drunk, high, hooking up, having that affair, eating junk food, binge-watching Netflix, making that purchase, etc. We just forget that the pain is happening. ...

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Nostalgia is a time when you knew your place. My memory can take me right into a moment. It won’t just be pictures. I will remember the smells, the tastes, the sounds, and even my emotions. I wil...

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I let myself cry today. Nothing special happened. I got emotional watching something and I surrendered myself to it. I was hoping for catharsis. Instead, all of my scars opened. What’s the opport...

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We’ve all hit our winter breaking point in my city. We hit it a long time ago. We are in the homestretch and spring cannot come fast enough. I’m tired of the freezing cold. We had a flurry last n...

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I’m not a racist, fascist, misogynistic bigot… unless a) I’m driving. b) I contact customer support. c) I’m trolling. I’m not a good person, I’m not a bad person. I’m a whole person. However, I...

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In case we don’t understand where I’m coming from. I used to be the person the world wanted me to be. The person I thought they wanted, I should say. Being gay is who you are. A therapist once sa...

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The horrors persist but so do I 2024 is working my nerve. It’s first-world problems so I’ll be grateful for that much. I’m not a I got a headache kind of girl but I’ve had one most of the week. ...

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I was doom-scrolling on TikTok and somebody mentioned the end of a karmic cycle for those with prominent Scorpio placements. The cycle started on November 4th, 2021, so we were told to remember t...

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The plan was to take a month’s hiatus from Prosebox but the cosmos continues to test my nerve. The reason for the hiatus has nothing to do with anything profound. I just wanted to hide the shame ...

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Every inch of me wants to shrink my surroundings to feel safe. At the same time, I want to be anywhere but here. I don’t even know where here is. I just feel like I need to be somewhere else. Doi...

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Hi Tom, you big bloated bitch on Prosebox, how are ya? I need to tune in. I need to stop and reflect. I’ve been numbed out. Talk about ghosting, I feel like I am a phantom. Just sleepwalking thro...

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I had a slight scare with my grandmother yesterday. I wasn’t able to get a hold of her. I told her that I would call before I left to take her shopping and because of her stroke, it was hard not ...

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Some guy was giving me the creeps at the gym this morning. I was using the cable machine and he was just off in the corner starring at me. Maybe he’s zoned out and doesn’t realize. I figured. I g...

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Lenstar brought up something that happened in my city on Christmas day that I wasn’t following and it has been haunting me ever since. A woman was arrested at a hotel for wielding a knife. A drun...

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You don’t need a pronoun to tell you who you are. I was half dreaming when that thought came to me. I’m just waking up from my nap. I can make that even deeper if I had the energy. Bottom line, ...

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I feel dirty. Absolutely filthy. I called in sick today so that I can study for my exam this evening. I’ll get over it. I just hate being dishonest. I am still on the fence about taking a second ...

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