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This week was long and full of terrors. The aggression was not a problem today. I managed to get the perfect amount of sleep. I did have a moment of weakness and snap at an entire department. It ...

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Is anger a mood disorder? (That was a rhetorical question) I knew how to manage my anxiety and depression. This anger I experience every morning is getting worse. All I want to do is physically h...

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My feet are struggling to keep up with me. At work, I hit a point where I could not let my heel touch the ground. It stung. My ankles are constantly aching. I don’t know what stretches I need to ...

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The 2014 Jeep Patriot I took for today’s test drive wasn’t too bad. The drive itself, at least. There were chips in the windshield and when I pointed them out the salesman tried to convince me th...

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It’s been such a long week and it is only Monday. Did you know? I’ve never got to choose my own vehicle. On my walk to work this morning, I wondered why this felt like such a heavy decision. The...

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I’m coming to my senses but I am still torn about what vehicle to get. I just need a vehicle for transportation. It is not a toy. The cost of the pre-owned Chargers are close to the cost of a bra...

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My mother is involving herself in my car search which is menacing but not necessarily a bad thing. She is just looking out for me. She doesn’t want me to make a big financial mistake. I have my h...

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My therapist gave me the missing piece. They are just thoughts. I explained that my mood disorders were missing in action for two weeks. Then they returned for two days. It made it easy to spot ...

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Today was long and full of terrors. I was counting down the minutes from the moment I woke up. There were no terrors today, I just wanted today to fly by. I do not have a shift tomorrow so I just...

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It’s like I have acid reflux in my brain. It’s racing so hard it physically aches. It is becoming unbearable. My jaw also hurts because grinding my teeth is my stim. I want to go back to last wee...

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Hello darkness, my old friend. I’ve come to talk to you again. It was good while it lasted. My mood disorders went on hiatus but they clocked in this morning. Their absence made it clear that it ...

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My NP doctor is treating me for a protein deficiency which plays a role in absorption, duh, but the more I look into it, the more it looks like it is something far simpler. Zinc. There are the ph...

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Wake up in the morning feeling like P diddy I’m groggy, I just want to get to my coffee. That’s the vibe in the morning. The coffee is programmed to be ready for me when I wake up. On my way to i...

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I’m house-sitting for a friend until Sunday. Rodent-sitting, really. I have her car for the weekend which I’m looking forward to. It happened again. I know what this pattern is. Male-pattern bit...

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I think I figured out why my mood disorders have not been an issue, not that I want to jinx it. There are a lot of factors but I think it’s mostly the sun. We are solar-powered. It was obvious to...

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Walking to the gym gives me time to think about how much my life sucks. Then I have to remind myself that I have Life Dysmorphia. I can’t see how good my life is. For starters, I am walking. I ca...

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Every Saturday starts the same way. I get triggered by my roommate. Her cheek, her nerve, her gall, her audacity, and her gumption. I do not want to let it ruin my day. I’ll let the rain take car...

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The calm before the storm. That’s the vibe. Ironically, we are in the middle of a severe storm as I type. I think all the areas of my psyche have agreed to a truce. I have inner world peace. I do...

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I did not go to bed pleased about my weekend last night. I feel like I wasted it. This is nothing new but I feel fed up, officially. ADHD, it’s like being told that there is something wrong with...

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Did you know? My snobby stupid roommate was offered 5K worth of CBD oil for free three times and said no. Lenstar, my ride-or-die, her baby daddy, Zerr, is a veteran who just canceled his lifetim...

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I was trembling during my therapy session today. Not from discussing my childhood trauma but from discussing what I’m truly passionate about. I talked about what I wanted to discuss in my podcast...

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Everybody kept telling me to talk to my supervisor about doing light duties. I was too stubborn. It is obvious that I am in pain. What happened? Just leg day. I went too hard at the gym on Sunday...

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I forgot about the tension between my supervisor and I. Last week she was on holiday. It was a holiday that turned into a bereavement leave for her, unfortunately. Without us being micromanaged,...

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It’s a beautiful day. It was a gorgeous weekend. It was a gorgeous week. They were the longest days of the year with the sun closest to its center of force. Happy Summer Solstice! I spent most o...

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I have 99 problems and studying ain’t one. I feel weightless now that the semester is over. I feel aimless, I don’t know what my next move should be. School may not be exacerbating my mental heal...

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