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I'm just me. I suck at relationships. I suck at picking people. I'm good with animals.
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Can't Let Go... in 2018
Overwhelmed... in 2018
I just feel really stressed… My sinuses are bothering me. I just finished a round of antibiotics and steroids like a week ago. Obviously that didn’t stick. Of course next month will be 5 years si...
Good Weekend... in 2018
It was kinda long but also not long enough.... I went out with my sister and some people on Friday night for Mexican food. Had margaritas and a shot of tequila. It was yummy. Next morning my ani...
Brain just stop... in 2018
Well I went to the Dr and got antibiotics and steroids. There was a goof up and she only sent in a prescription for 3 pills on the antibiotics so had to call back there today. Then the stupid in ...
Still Sick... in 2018
I’m still feeling sick. I stayed home Friday, but back at work this week but focusing is a bitch. In other news… had twin goats born Friday evening, unfortunately one was stillborn… we tried but...
So I’m pretty sure I’m coming down sick. I was exhausted all day Tuesday. Crashed that night hard and still exhausted all day Wednesday. Tried to nap last night but that wasn’t working so well… e...
Trying to Kill Me... in 2018
So pt was a bitch… added new exercises… things that look and sound easy, and they are for most people, but for me it’s nearly impossible. Those muscles just haven’t been used in a couple years at...
I have finally made a dent in the laundry. Not done, but I got a pretty good chunk of it done between yesterday and today. If I’m lucky I’ll finish by Tuesday. I know I still have 2 more comforte...
Turn Off Brain... in 2018
I need it to turn off so I can clean this house… it’s going a mile a minute and I probably need to eat at some point. I need a maid or something to get back to normal just long enough…
Bom...Bom...Bom... in 2018
I am kinda messed up right now… But at least I’ll apparently get laid soon. I thought about texting F for a few minutes before telling myself no don’t be stupid. Watching Th he beautician and t...
The Winner Takes It All... in 2018
I don’t wanna talk About things we’ve gone through Though it’s hurting me Now it’s history I’ve played all my cards And that’s what you’ve done too Nothing more to say No more ace to play The win...
Does anyone else ever feel like they need some good sex in order to just focus? Cause that’s how I feel right now.
It’s Thursday. I wish it were Friday. I had weird dreams involving F last night and didn’t want to get out of bed this morning. I don’t really remember at this point. I just know I woke up sad. ...
I guess I spent way too much time this past weekend daydreaming about F. I had messed up dreams all weekend. One even involved a guy I know from college. We had a bit of a falling out a couple y...
I really... in 2018
…need to be doing stuff, but damnit I’m tired and a bit high. My house needs serious cleaning and I need to give a cat meds again. But I’m high so let’s be honest… all I really want to do is ge...
DO YOU LIVE IN A HOUSE OR AN APARTMENT? House WOULD YOU SAY IT IS BIG OR SMALL? Fairly big… Like 3200 square feet. DO YOU HAVE A WELCOME MAT? I used to… but a pig ripped it in half… need to buy a...
So I told M about last weekend and he told B who then told J… like the fuck guys… And then J basically told me I’m crazy and that he thinks I’m really going down the wrong path etc and that my cu...
So it’s been an interesting weekend. Friday I met my sister and we got pedicures, then we went and ate hot chicken for dinner, then back to my house. We cleaned up what had to be cleaned and fed ...
I swear ever since I had surgery I’m just tired all the fucking time. I don’t know if I’m just not sleeping well or what, but I need to feel well rested soon. F told me something at the beginnin...
Last night my newest baby goat died. She was just shy of a week old. I had been bottle feeding her to help supplement, but I think she was premature and possibly had something wrong with her inte...
Boys Suck... in 2018
So this weekend sucked. Let’s set the scene here.... I talked to JM on Wednesday and we made plans to get together on Friday. We hadn’t seen each other in 2 weeks because I had the flu. And I ha...
So I haven’t written about M in a hot minute… I honestly don’t remember and I don’t feel like looking back. We were very at odds with each other for a good while after everything with F. Eventual...
I’m going to try to be more positive but no promises. For starters… I found out why he’s been completely avoiding me… he got back together with bar slut. So if that’s what he wants he can have it...
Epic Failure... in 2018
Today was an epic failure. I was more forced to talk to F at work about a work thing. The conversation was short, but basically I learned that he’s perfectly happy with me not talking to him and ...
I’m considering doing something stupid… sadly I know it’s stupid but I can’t seem to help myself. I haven’t spoken to F since before my surgery, so December 13th… I haven’t really said anything ...
