Mmmm... in 2018

So I haven’t written about M in a hot minute…

I honestly don’t remember and I don’t feel like looking back. We were very at odds with each other for a good while after everything with F. Eventually we started speaking again, but it was still pretty strained.

This past week it’s been different. It was like it used to be. And we’ve been flirting like crazy. I’ve initiated a fair bit of it just because I’m a hugger. And hugging has led to me kissing on his neck for a minute. He’s been a bit touchy himself. Then on Thursday he kept saying I’d used up all my hugs for the day. I said bye and went down to my office because I knew he was leaving. I didn’t expect to see him again. But he came down to my office and said he appreciated me picking up lunch for him that day and gave me a really good hug. Then he flirted with me and encouraged me to grope him. I hugged on him and groped him a bit before he left.

I know he’s just teasing me. I know it’s just flirting. But it’s definitely something to keep my mind off F.

I was head over heels for M this time last year. He’s still with his gf. She finally got a job. But he still says he doesn’t see himself being with her for forever or getting married. It’s his life… but I’m going to explore my curiosities as far as he’ll indulge me.

I think I’ve just decided I’m going to fuck who I want and to hell with relationships for the time being.