Park Row Fallout ⋅ 35

Midwest Married Man; Attempting to find answers, traverse the waters of life, and figure things out.

Each person feels pain in his own way, each has his own scars.

Haruki Murakami

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I hope but cannot promise that at the beginning of each month, I will review my Yearly Resolutions and chart where I am. It is another way of keeping me honest, keeping me focused, and hopefully...


An assortment of hours, less than 36 hours. At Marriage Counsleing, our therapist said that we were doing really well. We decided to schedule our next appointment for four weeks away. We left t...


BE FOREWARNED The following entry may contain “Too Much Information” and/or contain material of a graphic adult nature. While that means this could be entered into my more graphic book built for...


March 27, 2019

Weird Idea in Trying to Hold On

I just had a weird idea for a story: Normal person, normal life, 3rd Shift Convenience Store Clerk, nothing special. They use a site like Prosebox to journal and read other journals. One day, th...


This is appropriate. I can’t spend a lot of time on this site, but I need it for my mental state of calm. Rather like when I was studying for the bar exam. So like when I was taking the bar ex...


March 25, 2019

Survey in Trying to Hold On

So… a little outreach can be helpful. JUst doing a survey to fill some time while I wait for a phone call: How old will you be in five years? I will be 40 days away from my 40th birthday How tal...


Thank you to people who left comments on my last entry. It helps. As does spending the weekend with my parents. In their way. My father still supports Trump in ways that should otherwise make...


March 22, 2019

All in All in Trying to Hold On

When things go according to expectations… and that isn’t great. Got home. Tired and exhausted. Went to the gym. Tired and exhausted and still the same weight. Came home… nothing much of anyt...


March 21, 2019

As It Goes in Trying to Hold On

Oh holy hell. Another day of go GO GO GO GO Got here at 8… first “breather” was at 11:06. And that breather was rather forced to happen by me because I’d been going nonstop. It is funny. I...


March 20, 2019

Self Sabatoge in Trying to Hold On

I want to start this off with a specific noise to express how I’m feeling right now but I can’t find the right letters on the keyboard to do so. Today. Has been. Busy. I got to work at a quart...


Today is… an odd day. I woke up from a fascinating dream that I will share at the very end of this (as hearing people’s dreams can be a bit boring) and I noticed it was 4:50 a.m. And I was rathe...


So… yesterday was St. Patrick’s Day. I had to start late on that… we worked out and I drank a bunch of water to try to counterbalance the sweat. So when I started drinking, I was drinking Double...


March 17, 2019

Ready Set Go in Trying to Hold On

Speed writing? Because this is going to be quick. This week promises to be busy, next week promises to be a fucking nightmare so we’ll see how much my writing and reading keep up or don’t. I am ...


Just wanted to pop in today and say Halloooooo and everyone have safe St. Patrick’s Day festivities if you are in a location that celebrates this holiday with copious amounts of alcoholic beverag...


Question: Is it more respectful to not mention something you aren’t directly impacted by, or to acknowledge a tragedy and try to throw a few words out into the ether that could never matter or ap...


It seems spring is in the air. I’ll hold my breath and cross my fingers and hope it isn’t an illusion. After all, in the midwest it isn’t entirely uncommon for us to get snow as late as May… so...


March 13, 2019

Grumble in Trying to Hold On

So… not surprising… and not new… but.... I need a vacation. Obviously. I’ve already said that exact thing this week. But I’m making “bad choices” in response and that doesn’t help anyone. You ...


So… if you’ve read my previous entries… you know that today was going to be a tough day. A weekend filled with insomnia. A weekend filled with bad decisions in attempting to treat that insomnia....


The following was written in short bursts through the evening of the 9th, Morning of the 10th. This shall be quick and typically rather pointless. However, there will be photos and videos that s...


March 08, 2019

On Motivation in Trying to Hold On

Well, bollocks. This morning, I was in a mood to write in my Drafts Folder and put up something sexy. I’m trying to write some stories that effectively convey alternately the kind of Chat Experi...


Happy Friday to everyone who gets to treat Fridays like the end of the work week! Notice: To those who participate in the archaic and arbitrary practice of Daylight Savings Time, we lose an hour ...


So I just heard of something I’d never heard of before. Screen Team. Now, I don’t want to say anything for or against any of the members of Screen Team or what they do. In fact, quite the opposi...


Today is a strange sort of “nothing day” in that there is a lot of “nothing” on the official calendar but I certainly expect some stuff to bog up the day. We already had a meeting this morning wh...


Last night, I drove home and left the garage door open, as I do when it is a Workout Night. However, after getting her feelings out in her PB Journal, my Wife was not in a good headspace to go w...


March 05, 2019

Tuesday in Trying to Hold On

It is funny. When I woke up today, strangely, I had no idea what day it was. I actually lay in bed debating myself on whether it was Tuesday or Wednesday. Strangely, the arguments that it was ...