Park Row Fallout ⋅ 34

Midwest Married Man; Attempting to find answers, traverse the waters of life, and figure things out.

Each person feels pain in his own way, each has his own scars.

Haruki Murakami

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January 29, 2019

Reluctant Plume in Trying to Hold On

I had not intended to write today. My original plan was to merely read PB entries, note if I were able, and remain otherwise silent as a writer. But the world is frozen, the Midwest is effect...


January 29, 2019

Trying to Sleep in Trying to Hold On

Here I lay Feeling so tired Physically but more I wish I could open my head Let people see in Feel supported for it and encouraged Life continues The emerald saphron jewel spins on The ants of l...


What are some of your favorite cities you’ve been to? Graz, Austria. Seattle, Washington. Vancouver, British Columbia. Would you allow your children to date prior to 16? Define date. Would I...


January 28, 2019

Polar Vortex in Trying to Hold On

Frozen world is becoming a threat. SUPER cold weather, super strong winds, lots of official government delays. So… we’ll see what happens with my packed Court day today… will it actually happen...


REDACTED Some things may be best kept private. In a completely related and yet otherwise random statement.... Ted Bundy is back in the news and on Netflix. I haven’t watched it yet, but I’m ex...


Last night I had a strange combination of a dream. Typically, if I wake up remembering a dream… I remember all of it clearly for at least an hour before it starts fading in my head. This mornin...


The next immediate court day for Court Level 2 is Feb 7. Let me start over by explaining… in our system of criminal courts, our system is set as Traffic/Simple Misdemeanors: Court Level 1 Seriou...


January 24, 2019

CORRECTION in Trying to Hold On

A Correction is needed. Yesterday’s entry discussed bills going to the senate floor to re-open the government. The entry mistakenly claimed the vote was to happen on the day of the entry. This ...


Roads this morning were sincerely traction problematic. But I got to work anyway. 15 minutes late from usual start time; 45 minutes early for the delayed start the county agreed to. Here’s some...


January 22, 2019

Icy Balls in Trying to Hold On

Bollocks, Damn, and Curse My Honor Yesterday we counted the Holiday as a Holiday and therefore I was not required to attend work. This morning, acknowledging that it was a shortened week for tha...


January 21, 2019

The Other Part in Trying to Hold On

So… this is something that should be Private that I am making public. Because I’ve had some alcohol AND because I so often feel like a man without a voice. THAT isn’t a complaint. I’ve dedicat...


January 20, 2019

Numbers in Trying to Hold On

1) I survived 2) I paid for our Home Theater, which we will pick up next Saturday 3) I saw the Broly movie today 4) Hung out with MBFITWW today.


January 18, 2019

Really? Again? in Trying to Hold On

Another work day. But all of my hearings were continued until March. So another work day where I’m kind of sitting around thinking, “Huh. Okay then.” One of the big (important) reasons to (1)...


So… last night a familiar feeling came back. Rage without reason. This typically signals something is coming that is increasing my pain. Considering the weather reports, it should be obvious to ...


January 16, 2019

Absalom in Trying to Hold On

Today really will be talking to the void. I have one phone call to return today… a woman is furious with her ex-husband who she is certain molested her daughters when they were minors. However,...


To start with 2 small political items: (1) I understand that there are people in this world that don’t understand nuance or tact or historical truth. I get that. But I don’t have to like it. I ...


January 14, 2019

Minday in Trying to Hold On

Loads to say today. Not going to be much time to say it. First and foremost, today should be a very busy day indeed. This is certainly not helped by the fact that my computer is acting wonky. ...


Often times, I hide my little political rants or asides into my genuine entries. HERE, that’s the one I did today. But this just came across the A.P. Wire and I’m… just… more flummoxed than usu...


Well… last night was interesting in some ways. Wife came to the office as we are going to try to get our licenses updated. However, the DL office had significant computer errors and had to close ...


January 10, 2019

Second Thursday in Trying to Hold On

Well, how’s this for a work day. My professional calendar is empty. My personal calendar is empty. Anything that I could plan for today has been accomplished. Everything that I had planned for to...


January 09, 2019

Well shit in Trying to Hold On

Got home last night and was greeted by a bubbly huggy wife. Which would normally be okay but I know she’s not had access to her medication recently as it is on back order, so that was concerning...


Yesterday was busy! After the morning of freaking out, preparing, and planning… I had the afternoon of hearings and arguments and such. After work, it was Working Out (which killed my arms) and...


January 07, 2019

Day 7 in Trying to Hold On

I worked over the weekend because I want to nail this bloody hearing. Got in to work and immediately started tackling the hearing prep. E-Mailed the State’s 1 Witness. Pretty sure we won’t hav...


January 07, 2019

A Moment in Trying to Hold On

On Saturday and Sunday I wrote (or started to write) a specific entry. Monday morning, I pulled up Prosebox and the entry was still there in New Entry. I figured, “Awesome. I’ll work on this wh...


January 04, 2019

Gah in Trying to Hold On

So… herein we discover the fundamental flaw of me. I don’t mind trial. I don’t mind hearings. I don’t mind motions. But my lack of experience in the “deep weeds” of the law sends anxiety thro...