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Apparently, I can hold on to my confidence for approximately 4 days. After an excellent shot of confidence and feeling loved, I was doing very well until Sunday. Then, with no warning or reason...

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Today, I was playing with the kids. I was doing a great job of it. Victoria said the only thing missing was a kid of my own. I know she meant that (and stated) that I would make a great dad. I...

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Before I go into the more recent, I want to make sure I explain something from a few nights ago. You see, when I say that Nala loves when Victoria and Essen’s kids come over… and loves those kid...

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I got maybe 67 minutes of sleep last night. Drove to Des Moines and back for new glasses. Was still in the office by 10. Working on the dumbass list of Magistrate Bullshit tomorrow. After work, l...

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Call me judgmental but… I sent this to my therapist: Condensing: I need and want to treat Therapy like a Battle Strategy because I like knowing I’m making progress. And this year “progress” in an...

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Today I woke up feeling only two things. Anger and Emotionally Cold. That’s… not a great way to wake up. I’m wondering if it is because this is “back to work after a Holiday”… the whole concept...

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I just received the greatest compliment of my life Essen said that I remind her of Samwise Gamgee. “You’re loyal, pure, steadfast, and determined through adversity. And you’ll come home to your...

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There are three things that I see from my tower that I feel I am in a unique position to see (1) Man’s absolute inhumanity and cruelty never ceases to surprise or dismay me. The brutality, the h...

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So, my Therapist’s response to THIS was “So sad you are struggling, Chris” So… I pretty much explain the last 36 years of my existence, repeatedly tying it back to the concept of “Less Than” that...

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For some reason, I am seeing a lot of Facebook posts today about “Women, don’t let your man treat you bad.” Or “Why ain’t there men with emotional intelligence?” Or “How hard is it for a man to k...

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I’m writing my Therapy Assignment here so that it doesn’t get deleted by a Refresh on the Therapy page. The assignment was to dig through your past and present to determine why there is such a c...

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Oof. Super slept in. Have house cleaning to do. The hyper-Trump “COVID is a hoax” former High School friend in Texas? Live tweeted her travel this week. Apparently she and her husband went to t...

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(1) I didn’t want to simply launch directly into a complaint of anything so I wanted to state at the beginning that I had a lovely night last night. I don’t know what the specifics were necessar...

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I really don’t feel good today. It’s all having to do with sinuses, post nasal drip, and my stomach. Not to mention there is a Boil Order in my city. You see, afraid that November wouldn’t hav...

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I am not okay. I don’t like it and I don’t know what to do about it. But I am not okay.

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It’s fun to confuse my therapist. She was shocked by how confident and certain I sounded when I said, “I know I’m a catch. I know I’m capable. With motivation, point me at a task, I will accom...

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So I came into the office today. The only reason I did so was because I anticipate a defendant coming in to sign papers “at some point.” Otherwise, I’d be home. Because today is all about “Pla...

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I wouldn’t normally come to this space to discuss this issue but it seems that my avenues to discuss this are quickly shrinking and I don’t think I’d be doing myself any favors by not being open...

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Yesterday was an epic win for the dog. Some… issues… but that is to be expected with 5 kids running around for longer than normal. Like… yes, Nala did get some of the couch fluff again… but tha...

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My sinuses were bugging the living shit out of me today. Coughing, making it hard to breath, worried about a fever. Yes, I did wonder if it could be the Rona. Temperature Gage at work said 96.1 S...

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This entry may involve some content that some would find objectionable. Fair warning. When you think about things, the following items are true. (1) Nala is almost 2 and still has a great deal o...

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Victoria, Remus, and Essen volunteered to do literally whatever they could to keep Nala around. I plan to email Nala’s vet, too. And talking to the neighbor. And blasting all of the area Fac...

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UF! So, I was planning to call my parents when I got home as discussed in therapy. However, when I got home… Nala (my dog) had lost her tiny mind. She has been an unholy destructive terror and...

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I’ll summarize therapy really quickly: “So your parents… what is the protocol there, then?” We’re supposed to call them. “Is that always true?” No, they used to call me a little more. But ever s...

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The plan for Wednesday as I knew it was as follows: Wake up. Go to Des Moines to get glasses fixed. Come back to get my car fixed. Victoria comes over, we walk Nala, have dinner, enjoy each ot...

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